My Whole Life Through
I wish that you could see
That you should be with me.
I could fill in the holes
Left of you from
All of those bitter memories.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
I know he walked away from it all,
Passed up everything I wish I had.
He threw you away and never bothered to say
That he was sorry he tore your life in half.
He was everything to you.
He got to do all I want to do.
He could hold you. I’m sure he told you,
So many times, “I love you.”
I can’t see how
When you’d smile that smile,
Or when you’d start to cry
How he ignored all of the love he gained
Or the pain he caused and let it remain.
I ask myself, “Why? Oh, why?”
How could he give you up like that?
How could he be your other half
And then act as though
The thought of it made him laugh.
He was a fool.
I’ve been one, too,
But then again, I’ve never had you.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
If you were my life,
If I could have been him,
And you’d been my wife,
I would have never
Let us not be together.
I would have given my all
To make it alright.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
If I could be with you,
I’d love you my whole life through.
I’d never regret it
And never let it
Be anything I’d abuse.
I’d be too afraid to lose
The one that could make me smile,
The one that would be so worthwhile.
I can’t deny, though I don’t know why,
You’re all I want; I don’t lie; it’s far too true.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
If you could only see me there
And only know what I feel,
I’d do my best to beat all the rest
And show you that feeling like that
Can still be real.
I’d never give up on you.
I’d never be unfaithful or untrue.
I’d love you with all of my broken heart,
And I’d love you my whole life through.
The World to Me
Tonight, I played that song.
You know the one
You loved
To dance to
Something neither of us
Ever knew.
I still can’t believe
That all I did was blink,
And you weren’t there with me.
You fought so hard
To get away,
So I let you go,
Though I was the only one
Of us who could ever know
Just what you meant to me.
You could not be
Anymore in love with me.
Now that you’re marrying him,
I wish you all the best.
All of my hopes and dreams
Are all wearing thin,
So much so, so I put it all aside.
You’d have never guessed
That I can’t begin
To tell you
What I even kind of feel inside.
You never did see
That you were the world to me.
You were the one and only and only one
That was ever more than just for fun
Or for denying what I really needed ever at all,
And until not long ago, if you’d ever called,
I would have dropped everything
Just to come running to the one who tore
Open my soul
And left me for dead and thought it
Did not mean a thing.
I Miss You More Than You Know
I miss you more than you know
I love you more than I show
Because I can't show it to someone
Who's never around
Though I let you go
I can't really let go
I've lost all of my hope
And I am so broken down
I miss you more than you see
Because you don't talk to me
Except when you
Need another to make you believe
That you still have control
And you can take a piece
And leave an aching hole
I still try
To find some reason why
It all had to go this way
Every tear that I cry
Is another knife in my eye
Leaving me with even more
That I wish I could say
You almost act
Like you kind of want me back
You told me you're not really done
The most painful fact
Is that what you think I lack
is what you see in another someone
Even though he's been playing you
You told me it's true
You're the one that's afraid to be alone
You give me hope I haven't known
And then take more away and leave me with none
I look for some excuse
So that we can talk
But it's of no use
I'm fading away to a place I cannot come back from
I imagine a day
When you might feel as I do and say
That the pain can be undone
And you'll forget why it ended and we can fix it
And you'll let me be your one
But that won't happen
It's only imagined
I miss you now so much
You're still my great passion
I want to be yours, your last one
&nbs
p; But it's all gone as quickly as the rush
That came and grabbed us from pain and sadness
I wish it was back like it was
In the beginning when it all was unending
Before your hate drove me to end us
Each day, I miss you
I don't miss you any less
It should be easy
I made you leave me
But all I feel is emptiness
I miss you more than you know
But I can't let it show
Even when you ask me if I do
I miss you more than you feel
It's a razor that's real
Cutting me so deep
For still loving you
I miss you so badly
If only had we
Done more to remember what we meant
All of my days and my nights are so saddening
I'm alone and allowing
Myself to hold onto times that came and went
I miss you more than you know
More than you will ever know
Sweetest Intentions
You're my Queen...
And I'm your King.
Your past is nothing.
It doesn't mean a thing.
All that matters
Is what happens
From this moment on.
To last from now
Through the in between,
Is how it should be...
Even if we feel we can't go on.
If you need,
I will be right here,
Saving every last breath
Just for you.
I would wait
Even until after death for you.
Do you see me
Whenever you look into the mirror?
Right here is still too far...
Though I know right where you are.
The test is planned
But not yet in our hands.
Whatever we do is all
Completely the whole.
I'm waiting patiently
To catch your fall.
When time swallows our souls,
It won't swallow our love.
We may be young fools,
But we are the each other
That one another are dreaming of.
It's all waiting for us.
It's known to someone else.
We might not know it ourselves,
But it will all come to be.
It will be me living for you...
With you...
And you living your life for me.
These are the sweetest intentions
That I can give
To you.
I love you so much
That I cannot say...
You're all I think about
Every night and every day.
I'm so sorry
If I've ever made you cry.
But I don't want you to worry
Or ever wonder why
I could ever love you.
I'll be your forever...
And all that you ever
Wanted in a man.
You're so perfect
For all that's been missing
In my life up til now.
I know just how
I can be
Better than the me
I've always been.
You'll never break my heart.
My dreams are everywhere you are.
I'll always fall in love
Over and over again!
It's all waiting for us.
It's known to someone else.
We might not know it ourselves,
But it will all come to be.
It will be me living for you...
With you...
And you living your life for me.
These are the sweetest intentions
That I can give
To you.
Don't forget the way
You melt whenever you remember my name.
I'm so intent.
I know that I'm meant
Only for you.
As you are for me.
You've never loved
Like this before me.
It's hard to believe
And hard to conceive
That you're exactly
What I'm been looking for
Since the day I was born for you.
It's all waiting for us.
It's known to someone else.
We might not know it ourselves,
But it will all come to be.
It will be me living for you...
With you...
And you living your life for me.
These are the sweetest intentions
That I can give
To you.
It's all waiting for us.
It's known to someone else.
We might not know it ourselves,
But it will all come to be.
It will be me living for you...
With you...
And you living your life for me.
These are the sweetest intentions
That I can give
To you.
You haven't known me long...
But yet you know me so well!
Since you've come along,
I've felt so strong,
And we can never regret that we fell...
So in love.
It's all waiting for us.
It's known to someone else.
We might not know it ourselves,
But it will all come to be.
It will be me living for you...
With you...
And you living your life for me.
These are the sweetest intentions
That I can give
To you.
I'll be right by your side,
Through thick and thin,
When tears begin and end,
Or even when
You can only think to hide!
I'll be your heart.
I'll be your mind.
You are more
Than I imagined I could find.
Just be my Queen...
And I'll be your King.
I will cherish
Every feeling you bring.
I would do...
Anything...
For you!
Amazing
I keep finding
Myself fearing
That somehow
You won't get near me
That one day I'll be
Clearly
Hurt again
I know I'm being stupid
And I know I already knew it
I was afraid I blew it
But then
I found out you understood it
That you weren't angry
So I thought how could it
Be so amazing
I can't stop it or
Forget how good it
Really is and I shouldn't
Be feeling anything less than
Completely in it
I know I knew I loved you
And I really meant it
But I let foolishness take hold
And absent-minded, I've been it
I know that if you'll still have me
I have to put this all right past me
Learn to love you more gladly
And stop treating you so badly
You don't deserve how mistaken
I've been lately
And my heart is achin
From knowing I've been anything less to you
Than amazing
I doubt myself that I can be amazing
You always tell me I'm amazing
B
ut can I really be amazing
When you're the one that really is amazing
Please just trust that such stupidity is just a phase and
That I will try so hard to give it up
Because there is no time for us to be wasting
And no chances we should be taking
Of letting anything we've built be shaken
The only one that could ever love me right
Is the only one I could miss tonight
And everything I have needed
And someone I have yet mistreated
And couldn't be sorrier
But hope this mess is completed
Something so amazing
Is harder to find
Than any riches, so I'm facing
The dilemma of my other side
Coming out while the good one hides
But I promise I will kill that man
And leave him behind
Because I can't miss out on you, so amazing
Nothing but truly amazing
So very very amazing
That I can't believe you're mine
Not Wanting You, I Just Cannot Pretend
Forgive me
For ever caring
But there is no one else
So good
Comparing
Anything they are to you
You are so perfect it scares me
You make me breathe just barely
And now you’re leavin
Treatin me unfairly
I thought we knew
That sometimes forever just can’t be forever
When two people can’t be together
Without tellin each other the truth
You hoped that you found real love
So you could really feel loved
But I was holdin back my fears
And lyin, sayin I shed no tears for you
So, now I can only ask
Why did we get caught up
In so good it could not be thought of
And then let it slip away so fast
You want to still be friends
But I don’t think I can take it
My heart, I didn’t tell you yet is breakin
So everything with you must end
I only wanted your friendship
No matter how much you meant, and
You took it beyond, so shocking
But then we almost altogether just stopped talking
Not wanting you, I just cannot pretend
Maybe after we give some time
It might be alright to find
Each other once more and begin
Back where we started
Forgetting that we parted
Back when I liked you as more than a friend
But I couldn’t speak it
You left me so very weak, it
Felt like I stretched the truth
So much, it bent
Love crept in
But it only lasted
So little and went so fast, it
Got used up and spent
You want to still be friends
But I don’t think I can take it
My heart, I didn’t tell you yet is breakin
So everything with you must end
I only wanted your friendship
No matter how much you meant, and
You took it beyond, so shocking
But then we almost altogether just stopped talking
Not wanting you, I just cannot pretend
Every second since then
Feels like a brand new sentence
Sentencing me to a life of bein lonely without you
I don’t think that I can serve it
But maybe I deserve it
What did I do
If I wasn’t perfect
I’m sorry I didn’t make it worth it
And you’re probably better off
Now that we’re through
But if I dream
I hope that it will seem
Like the reality I thought I had with you
You want to still be friends
But I don’t think I can take it
My heart, I didn’t tell you yet is breakin
So everything with you must end
I only wanted your friendship
No matter how much you meant, and
You took it beyond, so shocking
But then we almost altogether just stopped talking
Not wanting you, I just cannot pretend
If you ever pass by me
Please do not deny me
The chance to finally try to be your friend
But I can only be hoping
That I’m finally coping
And that not wanting you, I can pretend
Something That I Told You
I don't think I told you
But I would give my life
To hold you
If only once
Could you ever allow it
Since I can't do it...
Now that...
The miles we have between us
Aren't any shorter
But only seem to keep us
Wishing so much it's hurting
And can we get through the next few months
Til it could happen
Before I lose my mind
And I find
It's not somethin I could have and
It's not somethin open
But so difficult that all this pain
And all this hoping
Is all in vain
And I don't think I can take it
Because my heart is so slowly breaking
And I need so badly to hold you
Is that something that I told you
If everyone stays out of our business
And only accepts it like meant it
Maybe it won't be so bad
But the time it is taking
Is making me so lonely that I'm aching
And all the waiting
Is worth it all the while but I'm
Too sad right now to smile
Because the loneliness I'm hating
And I know that we'll be together
Whether it makes sense to them or not
But time seems it's standing still
And if I don't hold you soon
I'm afraid it will seem I never will
I would give anything in this world to hold you
Is that something that I told you
Why is waiting so damn painful
Dragging on and on
Until I feel
My mind is gone
Will it all come back and remain,
All... I could ever do
Is spend a while
Missing you
In denial
That wishing you
Were here right now isn't killin me
Waiting so unwillingly
Because not that I don't want you now
But knowing the wait is way too long somehow
We have to make time for us some day soon
Forget how hard that is
So I can give in to give in to you
I would give anything it takes to hold you
Is that something that I told you
You worry I might not accept your past
Like you haven't tried to forget it fast
But you don't get that I know that
That's the old you
I would do anything just to hold you
Is that something that I told you
Is it anything I ever told you
I'll say it from a mountain top
If I could hold you
If that's not something that I told you
I'll still shout it out from every place
Just so maybe I could see your face
And maybe I can have on
e taste
Of the lips I long to know, you
Know I would give the world to hold you
But if that's something I haven't told you
You will know it soon
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