Something That I Told You
By Jason Wallace
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Something That I Told You
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace
I don't think I told you
But I would give my life
To hold you
If only once
Could you ever allow it
Since I can't do it...
Now that...
The miles we have between us
Aren't any shorter
But only seem to keep us
Wishing so much it's hurting
And can we get through the next few months
Til it could happen
Before I lose my mind
And I find
It's not somethin I could have and
It's not somethin open
But so difficult that all this pain
And all this hoping
Is all in vain
And I don't think I can take it
Because my heart is so slowly breaking
And I need so badly to hold you
Is that something that I told you
If everyone stays out of our business
And only accepts it like meant it
Maybe it won't be so bad
But the time it is taking
Is making me so lonely that I'm aching
And all the waiting
Is worth it all the while but I'm
Too sad right now to smile
Because the loneliness I'm hating
And I know that we'll be together
Whether it makes sense to them or not
But time seems it's standing still
And if I don't hold you soon
I'm afraid it will seem I never will
I would give anything in this world to hold you
Is that something that I told you
Why is waiting so damn painful
Dragging on and on
Until I feel
My mind is gone
Will it all come back and remain,
All... I could ever do
Is spend a while
Missing you
In denial
That wishing you
Were here right now isn't killin me
Waiting so unwillingly
Because not that I don't want you now
But knowing the wait is way too long somehow
We have to make time for us some day soon
Forget how hard that is
So I can give in to give in to you
I would give anything it takes to hold you
Is that something that I told you
You worry I might not accept your past
Like you haven't tried to forget it fast
But you don't get that I know that
That's the old you
I would do anything just to hold you
Is that something that I told you
Is it anything I ever told you
I'll say it from a mountain top
If I could hold you
If that's not something that I told you
I'll still shout it out from every place
Just so maybe I could see your face
And maybe I can have one taste
Of the lips I long to know, you
Know I would give the world to hold you
But if that's something I haven't told you
You will know it soon
So, Now You
I could only ever want
To have you
To kiss you
But you're out of sight
Far from me tonight
But I would give anything
Just to be with you
And no one else will do
I've been somethin I should never be
But if you want to know if I love you
You know I still do
And no one else could be above you
Or ever close to enough to
Make me wanna change
How you make me feel, too
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
Must decide if I'm worth it
The pain, the hurt, the anger
The care, the love, the first kiss
I don't want us to go back
To bein strangers
I only ever want to show you
I'm not like what you've known
I know you
Have been hurt so much it's still painful
So you
Have to fight this fight or give up
Put up with a screw up
Forgive so you can never forget me
And hopefully never regret me
I only hope I can let me
Do things right again
Never look back so then
You can always be happy you met me
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
So now you
Can learn to love me stronger
Knowing it will get better
And know I want my doubts
To be no longer
I'm sorry I ever had them
If we don't give in
We can't win
I don't want us ever
To not be together
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
So now you
Can please forgive me
I want to give you
Everything that makes life worth living
You think I fulfill your dreams
But I only pray I can
Sometimes it somehow seems
That I'm too much of a man
Always questioning something
Never fully accepting
Not realizing what I have
Always second guessing
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
So now you
So now you
Know how sorry I'm feeling
But please know I'm always willing
Trying to be what you need
And never in between
What you've had and what you're wanting
So now you
So now you
Can please forgive me
A Whole Lotta Beautiful
I got someone new to hold
The hand of a long lonely man,
Sittin’ by me, beside me, lookin’
Like a whole lotta beautiful.
We could take a drive
On this do nothin’ kinda night,
Ride through the countryside,
Get a bit farther than where we are,
Knowin’ that when the mood hits us with all its might,
Nothin’ could be wrong because
It’s been only just completely right.
My jacket’s in the back; it
Could never leave me cold
Cuz I got you, a whole lotta beautiful.
I could ask you where you’ve been
My whole life
Until this moment, now,
But I won’t because I don’t
Care – what, where,
Or even how that led to this
Or what life used to hold.
I could never miss the least of it.
I got you for a while, and it’s always full
Of a whole lotta beautiful.
This crisp air,
Your long hair,
Your soft kiss,
Your sweet lips, fingertips
Running down my arm again,
Everything the night brings,
The right things
That leave me lost in a whirlwind,
And I don’t wanna go back to when
I never knew
A girl that could make me choose
Between nothingness and this absence
Of all my cares in a world where
I feel so incomplete, without any sense.
You know it’s you, the most wonderful,
And you’re only a whole lotta beautiful.
I could ask you where you’ve been
My whole life
Until this moment, now,
But I won’t because I don’t
Care – what, where,
Or even how that led to this
Or what life used to hold.
I could never miss the least of it.
I got you for a while, and it’s always full
Of a whole lotta beautiful.
You’re a whole lotta beautiful,
More than a little more
Than the one I’ve been waiting for,
All I could have hoped in a helpless moment of
Chaos in my mind, no longer sure of much anymore
Except that you’re the best, better than any of the rest before,
You’re the one out of so many that’s worth the risk
Of losing and being turned loose after such a toll
Because you’re a whole lotta beautiful.
I’ll give up
When my time’s up.
So little lasts forever.
If you’ve had enough,
You can say enough,
And I’ll try to understand
Why we can’t be together.
I won’t complain; I hope I don’t.
I know this time is like it’s somethin’ that I stole,
Not really for me with such a whole lotta beautiful.