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    I Love a Broad Margin to My Life

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      cops in a blue line facing us, the width

      of the street between. On the White House

      roof, a man in uniform aimed a high-

      powered long-range sharpshooter

      rifle at us. He aimed it, put it down,

      aimed, put it down. A van drove

      into the cordoned area; I think the insignia

      on it said Federal Prison. 2 or 3

      cops unfolded a tarp, and taped it on to

      the side of the van, covering over the words.

      I got afraid. They’re hiding the place where

      they would take us. They would disappear us.

      They’re going to drive us through the streets

      of the capital in an unmarked white vehicle.

      No one would know what became of us. Keep

      singing. Keep loving. Say in unequivocal

      words, “I love you.” Hear, “I love you, Maxine.”

      The Metropolitan Police, the men, stood

      in one-line formation. The women, we,

      the demonstrators, drew one another close.

      We were a bouquet knot of pink roses.

      How can it be that all the cops are men,

      and all for Peace women? I can’t live

      in such a world. I don’t want to keep

      living out the myth that men fight

      and women mother. We regressed—the junior

      high dance. One boy crossed

      the wide floor, chose one girl,

      escorted her back to the other side, where

      he arrested her. “My wife

      is gonna kill me,” said a black cop;

      “I’m arresting Alice Walker.” “Don’t hold

      hands with me,” said a white cop,

      shaking off his partner, who was smiling up

      at him; “Don’t take my arm either.”

      They had each one of us stand by herself

      alongside the van, and took our pictures.

      “Quit smiling. What are you smiling for?

      This is an arrest.” This is your mug shot,

      not your prom photo. I was smiling from

      happiness; my government will not disappear me;

      the tarp was but backdrop for shooting pix!

      And the beautiful pink aura was still upon me.

      My cop and I did not speak. A woman

      officer in casual uniform, no gun,

      took my purse, hair clips, pink poncho,

      my earrings, and put them in a plastic bag.

      Ready for handcuffing, I presented

      my hands, wrists together, in front,

      but my arresting officer signaled: in back.

      I won’t be able to write, to touch, to catch

      myself, and will fall on my face. I turned about,

      held my arms behind me as high as I could,

      bending way forward, making my gestures

      large for the witnesses to see. Handcuffs

      in this age of new plastics work like the ties

      for bread and trees. My arrester could

      have tightened the cable-tie so that it cut

      into the skin. The hands turn blue, burst.

      These police were kind to tie us loosely.

      Our belongings taken, our pictures taken,

      handcuffed, we were made to get into

      a paddy wagon, about 8 per wagon.

      There are cages, like dog cages, between

      the front seat and the side benches. I sat

      in the middle of a bench, my shoulders touching

      women’s shoulders beside me, my legs touching

      women’s legs before me. Women outside

      pounded, drummed on the van. Through the windshield,

      we could see them applauding us. Somebody said,

      “There’s my daughter.” The van started up;

      the crowd parted, let the van through.

      It got quiet. We were driving away from

      the magic. The rose light went out.

      I had nothing apposite to say, but

      had to talk. “Now I’m on the trip

      my father went on. In a paddy wagon to jail.

      I’m reliving his arrests. I’m knowing his feelings.

      Scared. Helpless. He wondered what would become

      of him, maybe deportation. They’re driving

      him to the border, never to see his family again.

      Oh, but my father wasn’t committing civil

      disobedience like us. He committed crime,

      ran gambling, half the take in the city.

      It was his job—go to jail, regularly.

      Once a month, they raided the gambling house,

      and took just one guy, my father.

      He was all alone in the paddy wagon

      riding through the streets and out of town.

      It was okay. By the end of the night, he

      was home. They let him go. He gave them money

      and whiskey and cigarettes, and they let him go.

      He gave them a fake Chinese name,

      a different Chinese name every time;

      he doesn’t have a record.” BaBa

      used to say, “I want the life

      you live.” Now I’m living

      the life he lived.

      A few women squirmed

      out of their handcuffs, marveled at how

      loosely they’d been tied. Arriving at the prison—

      an immense spread-out building on bare land

      fenced off from other bare land

      in the middle of nowhere—they put their handcuffs

      back on. We were taken to an office,

      which had a wall that was a bank of jail cells.

      We were separated, I in a cell by myself.

      It was like a toilet stall; an unlidded

      toilet faced the door. Also for sitting

      was a little bench. Being little, I could

      sleep curled up on it, just right.

      At last, the solitary confinement of my dreams.

      Nothing to fear. I could live here.

      I could live here a long time,

      and be content. As a girl, I knew

      I could take solitary, if only I got

      to see movies. Older, all I need

      would be books and pencil and paper. But here I am,

      and I don’t feel like reading. And I don’t

      feel like writing. Can’t write, hands

      tied in back. Rest. Perfect rest.

      And no more contending against shyness.

      No more “sounded and resounded words,

      chattering words, echoes, dead words …”

      —Walt Whitman, lover of everyone and everyplace.

      Yes, I could live like a cloistered nun,

      but not have to pray for the good of the world.

      Too soon, the jail door opened.

      The cop whose wife is gonna kill him held

      it open for Alice Walker. Now there’s

      a pair of us. I gave her my seat

      on the bench, sat on the floor. She sat

      various positions, cross-legged, almost

      lotus, sat hunkered, arms hugging knees.

      I’m glad, we’ve both had Buddhist practice, and know:

      sit, be quiet. Breathe out.

      Breathe in. I spoke, asked her

      to undo my handcuffs, and if they

      won’t untie, to help me unbutton and lower

      my pants, I had to pee. She got them off.

      Kwan Yin, 2 more of your

      10,000 hands, ma’am, reporting for duty,

      for mercy. Being locked up with Alice,

      I saw her: now a girl perched on a wall,

      now we’re under the dark moon and she’s

      shaman crone, now the sociable lady

      on her book covers. She moves about in time.

      Her time and ages circle through her. Now

      her clothes flowed loosely on her thin body,

      draped the edges of the bench; now roundly,

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    sp; plumply she filled her blouse and long sweater.

      I must look like that too; being small,

      I could be a child still growing, or

      I could be a shrinking old woman.

      The light changes, the skin wrinkles, the skin

      smooths.

      The door opened again, we’re a crowd

      again, loud-speaking, loud-singing women.

      “This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.

      Oh, this little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.

      This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.

      Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.”

      The singing connected the women in all this block

      of cells; love and peace roused again.

      “On the children of Iraq, I’m gonna let it shine.

      Oh, on the children of Iraq, I’m gonna let it shine.

      On the children of Iraq, I’m gonna let it shine.

      Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.”

      A nice woman cop came in, and asked us,

      please to sing quieter, explained that they

      couldn’t hear to process us. We quieted,

      pianissimo, “this little light of mine.”

      But impossible to keep it down. Crescendo. Waves.

      “Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.”

      Fortissimo. The door opened; a policeman

      called a name, and took a woman away,

      for booking. When my turn came, I couldn’t

      find my I.D. “The big cell for you

      tonight.” Tonight, overnight, I will

      be with criminals, not sisters trained

      in nonviolence. I asked the cop across

      the desk from me—one prisoner and one cop

      per desk; a woman was shackled to her chair

      with old-style steel handcuffs,

      couldn’t be locked up because of illness—

      I asked my arresting officer, please to bring

      my bag of possessions, and let’s go through it

      again carefully for my I.D. Slowly,

      he examined each thing. I talked-

      story, “D’you know what I’m working on now?

      I’m writing a Book of Peace. Once

      in old China, there were books—reveries—

      about how to end war. Those books were burned,

      their authors’ tongues cut out. My dream

      is to write such a book for our time.

      People who read it, I hope, will vow

      not to use guns, not to use cluster bombs,

      not any of the new weapons, plasma bomb,

      neutron bomb, earth-penetrating bomb.

      D’you mind letting me rummage

      through my purse myself? Thank you. Thank you.

      I seem to remember a secret compartment somewhere.

      It’s a trick purse. I brought it—pink,

      sequins—especially for this demonstration.

      And now it’s fooling me. The hiding place

      has disappeared. Let me try again.

      Okay, it’s not on this side. Let’s try

      upside down, backwards, unzip—

      voilà!—here it is! My I.D.!”

      And so I was charged with STATIONARY DEMO

      IN A RESTRICTED ZONE—WHITE HOUSE SIDEWALK,

      and let go. To appear in court for trial,

      or else: A warrant will be issued for me, a wanted

      felon, throughout the United States. The 24

      women (25 counting a girl caught

      up in the fun; her mother took her away,

      bawled out everybody), the freed women

      waited for one another, made sure

      no one left behind. Where’s the nearest

      bus stop? No buses. Where’s the subway?

      “Far. You ladies don’t want to

      walk there. Dangerous.” “Will you please

      call us a taxi? 6 taxis?” “Cabs

      won’t come out here, ma’am. Please clear

      the waiting area. Leave the waiting area

      immediately.” Then we were out on a road

      in the middle of flat fields with nothing growing.

      No stars in the sky, too lit

      by the prison. Someone cell-phoned Code

      Pink colleagues to come get us. The journalists—

      journalists arrested too—turned on their equipment,

      and recorded us exulting, the most beautiful day

      of our lives. We rode back to the city

      in cars festooned in pink ribbons, rode

      showy through the capital of the U.S.A.

      The good citizens cheered us, honked horns.

      Not one disagreeing person

      yelled or honked in anger. 12 days

      later, Iraq War II, Operation Iraqi

      Freedom, Shock and Awe started.

      A-Day, hit Iraq with 300

      to 400 satellite-guided missiles.

      On the second day, round-the-clock bombing,

      another 300 to 400

      smart bombs. That was the plan, spoken by

      an “author of Shock and Awe.”

      “You have this simultaneous

      effect, rather like the nuclear weapons at Hiroshima,

      not taking days or weeks but in minutes.”

      We had used all our arts—

      sung, danced, walked about as goddesses.

      Full body puppets on stilts, in pink

      and red garments of flowing silk, bent

      down in mercy to children. We staged

      a theater of peace, recited poems—and did not

      stop our country from war. I wanted to lie down

      and die but did not. I do believe: Because

      the world protested, the tonnage of bombs was not as

      massive as planned. And we hit fewer civilians.

      The peace we have made shall have consequences.

      All affects all.

      On parade in Viet Nam,

      the dragon on hundreds of pairs of feet walked

      and ran along the river—a river once red

      with human blood from slaughter that these very

      people around me eyewitnessed, and had part in.

      We, dragon, ran and walked until

      the village we’d left came into sight; the river

      circled and returned us home. We rested in tents

      and ate joong. I pointed, said, “Joong,”

      hoping Chinese and Vietnamese

      feed rice, beans, meat, 100-

      year-old eggs wrapped in leaves

      to the same ancestor, Peace, and to the dragons

      who live in and are the river. But

      they called this food something else,

      and their story was about a beautiful princess

      captured by / run off with a dragon.

      All the village every year give

      chase after her, and come home happy,

      and in union.

      FATHER’S VILLAGE

      Follow the rivers and streams north,

      deltas of Viet Nam turn into deltas

      of China. There be my root villages.

      23 years ago, from Guangzhou,

      we had to hire a van and driver,

      and a guide, get on 2 ferry boats—

      drive, ferry, drive, ferry, drive

      some more—the Pearl River’s side

      rivers winding and hairpin turning

      at islands and bars. Had to stay overnight

      in the one hotel, farmgirl maids

      yell-talking, loud laughing, no sleep.

      Drive on the next morning, and arrive

      at Roots Headquarters for Long Lost

      Overseas Relatives Finding Relatives.

      Word, my father’s name, my name,

      had been bruited about this land. My cousin,

      Elder Brother, heard, and was there to meet

      me, recognized me, and greeted me, “Hola,

      Younger Sister, our family is running in harm
    ony.”

      “Hola, Elder Brother, our family is running

      in harmony.” Harmony. China has announced Harmony

      its official theme. Harmony posted on walls.

      Lights flash Harmony up on buildings;

      the night rivers reflect Harmony. Our son,

      a musician, has tattooed on each arm:

      harmony

      make peace, make kindness

      mutual, reciprocal

      extraordinary (like outlanders, like barbarians)

      I did the calligraphy myself.

      Harmony also translates as peace;

      its roots are mouth and growing grain. The mouth

      speaks peace. Peace is food; peace nourishes.

      Confucius said, Whoever plays the music

      controls the world, spinning like a top

      on the palm of his hand. (He ordered the killing

      of 80 musicians.) Elder Brother said,

      “My elder brother of Boston went

      back just this morning. He’s upset

      over his kids. Every one of them married

      a white demon.” He laughed a big, relishing

      laugh, not the laugh that Chinese

      make after telling a tragic awfulness. I

      translated for Earll, “A generation of nephews

      and nieces married white demons!” Elder

      Brother looked at my husband, did a double-

      take—a white demon! He saw me laughing,

      and gave 2 thumbs up, and cheered, “Okay!”

      Thumbs up with strong farmer’s hands.

      He and Earll walked hand in hand

      through the fields. I stayed with the women—

      our families have many more girls

      than boys—and watched the 2 men now giant,

      human, against sky and land, now

      as nothing, transitories in the infinite.

      To amble the earth that you work daily is to give

      yourself and guest entertainment and rest.

      Earll understood his Elder Brother-in-Law

      to be naming his happinesses. Ah,

      generous fields of rice. Ah, great

      water buffalo, and baby buffalo. Ah,

      kinship. But for skin dark from the sun,

      and arms and legs brawny from labor, this “brother”

      looked like my real American brothers. None

      of the women looked like my sisters and mother.

      In Earll’s presence, they marveled, “He doesn’t

      understand us. We can say anything

      we want.” They dared one another,

      “Say whatever you like to say.” I listened

      hard, but didn’t catch their secrets. I saw

      the brick stove where my mother cooked,

      reading a novel all the while, and let

      the food burn. She’d foraged for straw

      to heat that stove. I saw my parents’ cupboard

     


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