The Volturi are very protective of their city
And this will be my target
Marcus day was to be celebrated
My wish will surely be granted
When I will step out shirtless
Gleaming brightly into the sunlight
They will kill me, I was doubtless
Because the chances were very bright
The thought of you lying pale, cold
You innocent smile, your warm flushing cheeks all gone
An honest simple girl killed by a hundred year old
A century ago, I should have been gone
Your eyes will not shine anymore
Your heart been stopped forever
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I won’t hear your honey voice anymore
I snatched your soul from you forever
On my chest, your head will no more rest
I can no more run my fingers through your delicate hair
Now I can never hold you close to my chest
To you, my love, I can no more come near
I lost my love
A dad his child
Friends their pal
Could something be anymore wild?
Just wait till 12, Bella
I am going to hell
I will ask for the most severe punishment, Bella
Which will be certainly given I can tell
Even if it wasn’t my guilt
To the Volturi I still would have gone
Because I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist
I can’t exist; I can’t live, when you are gone
I took off my white shirt
Standing bare chest at the edge of alley
Waiting for the clock to strike twelve
When the sun will be at its peak
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My arms were hanging at my sides
I was relaxed, “It will be all over”
Eyes closed, I could hear the festival’s noise
Ah! 12 the clock has stroked, “All is now over”.
I stepped out into the sun
Feeling the warmth of its rays
Something else was also there
Someone trying to break my daze
Very slightly, I smiled
Opening slowly, my eyes
There she was beautiful and fragile
“Amazing! So Carlisle was right”
“I can’t believe how quick it was
I didn’t feel a thing, not even slightly
They suck the honey out of your breath
But cannot affect your beauty”
I brushed my hand against her cheek
So I was after all in hell
You, they will make me forever see
Make me inhale your smell
So that my biggest crime
In the form of your fragile figure
Will always remain in front of my eyes
Inducing me the worst torture
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In hell I will forever see
My love whom I had killed
Standing right in front of me
I will repent, burn in guilt
“But why are you struggling, Bella?
What is it?
What? You are alive, Bella!
I can’t believe it”
Yeah, she was alive
Breathing frantically, drenched in sweat
Her beauty always made me sigh
Neither she nor I was dead
.
.
.
.
“I just can’t believe it
When all hopes were gone
When darkness had drowned me into its pit
There, my love, you like an angel dawned
I am so sorry
Because I hurt you
It just didn’t work, honey
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But how could you believe me
After all the 1000 times I told you I loved you
How could you let one word break your faith in me?
When, in fact I could not even exist without needing you?
I have always loved you
I will always love you
I was thinking only of you
Every second I was away from you
I will prove that I love you”
I leaned in to kiss her
But she pleaded me not to
Why? What was with her?
“Is it because I am too late?
Because I have hurt you too much?
Have you moved on like I meant?
That would only be quite fair
So please don’t try to spare my feelings
Just tell me whether or not you can still love me
After all that I did to you, after all those cruel things
Can you still accept me? Can you still love me?”
“Yes, of course,” she replied
“The way I feel about you will never change
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And in these words there is not a shred of lie”
That is all I needed to hear her say
“I will never let you go
For even a second, out of my sight
I will never ever leave you alone
I will hold you closely every night
My love, forget all your pains
I will heal all your wounds
Now only happiness you will gain
Inside me only love for you will be found
Now there will be no more worries in our lives
I will make everything alright
Let’s begin a fresh chapter in our lives
Which is with love and hope all bright
I will never be able to forgive
The hideous crime I committed
But such pure love I will give
That all your pains will be eliminated
I promise to love you forever
Reaccept me, Isabella Swan
I will hurt you never ever
Marry me, Isabella Marie Swan”
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WHO IS THE ONE
FOR HER?
Jacob, may be you are better for her
Than me, you also very much love her
Although, of course, not nearly as much as me
But enough, I think to keep her happy
You won’t have to change her
You don’t crave to kill her
I honestly want to keep Bella human
For this, you are better than me for her
Too precious, too pure; her soul is
There is only one way to preserve it
That I stay away from her
As I am too dangerous for her
You don’t every second
Badly lust for her blood
You won’t kill her, she is safe with you
She won’t lose her soul with you
You don’t have to control the desire to kill her every moment
You don’t have the fear to lose control with her any moment
Thus, her life is not at risk every second, with you
Her life is secure as long as she stays with you
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Moreover you are strong, though not as much as me
You are a shape shifter; still you can fight with those like me
So you can support and secure her both emotionally and physically
But I don’t know why in doing this my he
art isn’t at peace
What if your love isn’t enough to keep her happy?
What if she forever solely craves my company?
What if she doesn’t love you, not even a bit?
What if every shred of her heart beats just for me?
Will she ever be able to leave me?
With you will she ever be able to live?
Even if you don’t have to change her
What is the guarantee that you will never leave her?
Even if she can live with you being still human
What is the guarantee she won’t kill herself for me?
Because I have felt how her heart beats for me
In her eyes I have seen infinite love for me
Even if you don’t lust for her blood
But you are still a shape shifter; not completely human
You can’t always control your anger
What if it proves a danger for her?
May be you won’t kill her deliberately
But you can take her life by your control losing
What if when Sam and others are not with you
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You won’t be able to protect her alone?
So may be this is not to be decided by you or me
The decision making should be in her power completely
Because she has every right to spend her life
With the person she can’t live without; the one she desires
And I promise that I won’t leave her again
Until and unless she herself orders me to go away
So if you want a competition, I will give you one
A strong one; let’s see who wins, let’s see for her who is the one.
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BELLA’S CALL:
“COME BACK TO ME”
“You don’t belong in my world, Bella
I don’t want you to come with me
It will be as if I had never existed, Bella
You won’t do anything reckless, promise me”
“No, this isn’t real, this can’t be
I am breaking, Edward, don’t say this
Please, don’t snatch my life from me
My heart is too weak to endure this”
I wanted to say all this to him
But ended up promising what he had asked
That I won’t be reckless even without him
But was this possible? From me my heart asked
He gave me his last kiss
His lips cold on my forehead
This was my last moment of bliss
He left like wind, it was my life’s end
The tree’s leaves rustled due to his quick passage
Love, life, meaning, all he took away with him
My limbs went numb, bones felt weak as if old with age
I could not lose him, I had to find him
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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The forest was silent around me
He left no signs behind him
Even then, nothing can stop me
“Edward! Edward!” I began to call him
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
My eyes were burning
My breathing was frantic
My body was shaking
What just happened, I couldn’t believe it
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me!”
I kept searching the forest for him
Evening fell, it was new moon
I couldn’t believe that I had forever lost him
I fell on the forest floor, drenching in rain, amidst gloom
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I remember the first day I saw you
I had never seen such other worldly beauty
I was dazed, mystified by you
But you behaved so bad with me
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
The first day you talked to me
Your voice was honey, your eyes gold
Your charisma had imprisoned me
And I remained such even as our relationship grew old
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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I had never ever imagined
That in this little town of Forks
A vampire so beautiful will love me
Someone so perfect can love me, it always seemed odd
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I used to drown in those gold eyes of you
I used to get dazed inhaling fragrance of you
I just loved and loved and loved you
I can never imagine a life without you
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I miss you every moment, Edward
How I used to wake up to see
And what bliss it used to give me, Edward
You waiting with your Volvo for me
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Driving me to school
Taking classes together
Why did this end so soon?
Why couldn’t it last forever?
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Gym without you used to be hell
Sitting in cafeteria, you eating nothing
We used to have so many stories to tell
With you days didn’t seem to end, time didn’t feel escaping
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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I loved your beautiful meadow, Edward
But still it wasn’t as beautiful as you
When sun’s rays made your skin gleam like diamond
Angels seemed nothing to me when compared to you
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
We used to be there for hours
Lost deeply in each other
Just loving each other all in all
You were the most beautiful thing I had seen ever
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Lying silent we talked through our eyes
Your amazing fragrance made my mouth water
A stupid lamb had fallen in love with a majestic lion
Even after knowing that he was the most dangerous predator
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Your perfect voice, your too perfect face
Your cool breath, your sharp features
The way you walked with striking grace
You were the world’s most perfect creature
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
You used to carry me on your back
And run faster than the wind through the forest
The wind watering my eyes, my hair flowing back
Still I felt completely safe as my arms were holding your chest
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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The way you had, that day, lifted the van
To save me, you had risked there your everything
Your courage, your bravery, your strength
Your love, just you, only you are my everything
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Your beauty always mesmerized me
Your perfect body, your angelic face
Carved in some unknown stone; life for me
Your bronze hair I had always loved to gaze
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Yo
u looked like a male super model
Your color shifting eyes made me sigh
With you, all my worries were forgotten
How you used to read my face and tell everything right
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I was completely dazzled by you
Your mind reading talent was so unique
But my mind couldn’t be read by you
Was there something wrong with me?
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Your crooked smile had always taken away my breath
Lost in your eyes, I would completely forget to breathe
Your lovely sweet voice I kept recalling in my head
One can never thank enough for such complete bliss
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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The hours when you used to be away hunting
Seemed so hard to pass, long like eternity
And what will I do now? I am thinking
There is no way I can survive this, honestly
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
When during classes how we used to be talking
And when the teacher used to come and ask
You would tell each and every word correctly
What incredible intelligence and memory you had got
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
My writing looked like an ugly scrawl
In comparison to your fast, elegant calligraphy
How perfect was each tiny detail, just all
And you wanted only me? It seemed such an impossibility
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
My bedroom always blossomed with your scent
Your, staying over each night, watching me sleep
The kisses you gave, with me every moment you spent
My heart started racing every time you touched me
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
How I had always used to hate rain