‘What things?’ I say, meaning, Surely not the last twenty-five years? ‘What things?’
He steps towards me again, approaching me as if I am a frightened animal. ‘Everything,’ he says. ‘Sometimes starting from your early twenties. Sometimes even earlier than that.’
My mind spins, whirring with dates and ages. I don’t want to ask, but know that I must. ‘When … when was my accident?’
He looks at me, and his face is a mixture of compassion and fear.
‘When you were twenty-nine …’
I close my eyes. Even as my mind tries to reject this in -formation I know, somewhere, that it is true. I hear myself start to cry again, and as I do so this man, this Ben, comes over to where I stand in the doorway. I feel his presence next to me, do not move as he puts his arms around my waist, do not resist as he pulls me into him. He holds me. Together we rock gently, and I realize the motion feels familiar somehow. It makes me feel better.
‘I love you, Christine,’ he says, and though I know I am supposed to say that I love him too, I don’t. I say nothing. How can I love him? He is a stranger. Nothing makes sense. I want to know so many things. How I got here, how I manage to survive. But I don’t know how to ask.
‘I’m scared,’ I say.
‘I know,’ he replies. ‘I know. But don’t worry, Chris. I’ll look after you. I’ll always look after you. You’ll be fine. Trust me.’
Bestselling author Tess Gerritsen is also a physician, and she brings to her novels her first-hand knowledge of emergency and autopsy rooms. Her thrillers starring homicide detective Jane Rizzoli and medical examiner Maura Isles inspired the hit TV series Rizzoli & Isles. But Tess’s interests span far more than medicine and crime. As an anthropology student at Stanford University, she catalogued centuries-old human remains, and she continues to travel the world, driven by her fascination with ancient cultures and bizarre natural phenomena.
She lives with her husband in Maine.
Also by Tess Gerritsen
Harvest
Life Support
The Surgeon
The Apprentice
The Sinner
Body Double
Vanish
The Mephisto Club
The Bone Garden
Keeping The Dead
The Killing Place
The Silent Girl
For more information about Tess Gerritsen and her novels, visit her website at www.tessgerritsen.co.uk
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