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    Is, Is Not

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      the villagers, an entire clan. Who

      does she think she is,

      assuming she can renew herself among stars?

      EDDIE’S STEPS

      Flagstone set in cement,

      higgledy-piggledy up the bank

      to the high deck where lawn chairs

      go to die in the rain. Not hard to know

      these the first he’d built, set to his

      stride—twice that of mine. When

      I pointed this out, a sweet, startled look

      came over his face, and he set to work

      with a good will, slating in the extra

      wedges just wide enough each foot

      could advance and hold.

      I wouldn’t take anything for those steps,

      I realized, when the visitor disparaged

      them—the recalibrated provisional shifts

      by which Eddie’s steps accommodated

      mine. The true flower

      that day though was the accidental discovery

      of Josie abed past noon—Eddie’s “Your face looks

      funny, Josie,” then helping him negotiate

      trousers. Gemma steadying her grandfather

      to the car for the drive to hospital. But for

      rebuilding my steps, they would have been

      miles away in Cork, and Josie lying—speech

      unraveling, steps blurring. I take my time

      going up or down, feel the mind sharpen

      to that day’s escape. Easy now to think past

      that visitor to the quiet beauty

      of the climb on a dark star-filled night

      when moonlight

      makes its effortless way before me

      all in one shining breath.

      for Edward and Gemma Fitzgerald

      FOUR-FOOTED

      Silk napkins across our laps

      like the sleeves of geisha—we eat

      brown bread and salmon with capers

      at the lodge on the rim

      of the valley. The rumor that slurry

      on fields has contaminated

      local wells drifts from

      our minds. Idyllic countryside

      is manufactured here daily

      by tourists. We crumple tea-stained

      tents near empty plates,

      pay our bill, then head for a walk

      in a wood planted like a crop

      where every tree is identical to its neighbor,

      a daylight nightmare. Although

      the path is marked, I fear we may

      never get out. I follow you

      from the dim thicket at last

      into a field so open to sky

      we forget the land belongs to

      anyone. A woman comes out

      of her cottage to stare. You wave

      and she waves back as we cross

      an immense distance to an iron

      gate. The road downhill is no

      wider than a cart, but something

      incomparable has died there—

      a red fox, its small perfect teeth just

      visible, the blonde undercoat,

      and the plume of its once airborne

      tail—held in a spell now against

      the ground. From the hedge

      I draw out an arm’s length

      of wood to lift the fox-board

      of our sudden death to the side,

      sparing indignity. Strange how we

      take voices again like two

      young girls with a secret

      between us, companions

      now into old age and

      a redundant death.

      for Eli Tolaretxipi

      THE GOLD DUST OF THE LINDEN TREES

      commands a battalion of street sweepers

      in Cotroceni Quarter. Car hoods,

      the backs of cats, a tablecloth printed

      with cherries under a cherry tree,

      someone’s left shoe marooned

      on the sidewalk—all gilded with ochre

      pollen. Swish swish—say the brooms

      to the asphalt that once was cobblestone—

      the rhythm tender as the hands

      of a gigantic clock measuring its day, or

      wing beats of an invisible bird

      made known only as broom strokes.

      I walk in gold dust with Liliana

      remembering our times on these

      tree-sheltered Bucharest streets—once

      at night coming home, a standoff

      with a pack of wild dogs: “Don’t

      look them in the eye!” Liliana’s warning

      to prevent my challenge. Now we stroll

      down the center of the street like queens,

      the dogs’ fangs safely behind iron gates

      as we pass. Who would guess how earlier

      we washed our nightgowns by hand to appease

      a broken washing machine, wringing dry

      sleeves and hems before hanging them under

      the lost blossoms of the “flying tree.”

      Nor would they realize we walk

      everywhere on our Picasso-legs, carrying

      the secret cargoes of poems yet to be

      written, the gold dust drifting down,

      sifting into my silver

      hair. Don’t mistake me—I’m still a girl

      under this disguise, the one who rode

      a black horse across a river in Missouri

      to visit Indian caves. And Liliana, she’s

      still a girl picking wild strawberries

      on the mountainside. Of course there’s

      no money for the printer’s cartridge

      and we write like Egyptians, everything by

      hand. What is this word: “drag” or “drug”?

      as we transcribe a poem into typescript.

      Nothing disturbs our quiet intent to

      carry words from one language into

      another. Not even the white kitten’s paw

      swiping air as I tempt it closer with

      the cherry-tree branch—its striking

      and missing mirroring our eventual grasp

      on each word with claws. We put down

      our pens to bake a cherry pie and to speak

      with Dr. Demitri, the neighbor who calls

      Liliana to the open window. I notice

      the crown of his gray fedora is lightly

      feathered with gold dust. No one knocks

      at doors on this street. Voices lift

      and fall in the open air, like our laundry

      breathing calmly above the kitten basking

      in the garden. We let it sleep. Someone is

      calling us again to the window in the glow

      of lamplight. Liliana asks me to sing—

      “that Irish air once more”: “If I Were a Blackbird.”

      As I sing, the spirits of Ireland, America

      and Romania join, as song binds, pours down

      gold of the moment to give memory

      its gilded power—that which returns us

      to our most gentle, sustaining powers

      of love.

      for Liliana Ursu

      BLUE EYELID LIFTING

      The stars have come onto

      my pillow as they are want

      to, these frigid nights

      below Orion’s star-slash

      of welcome. I get up and

      marvel with all my being.

      Suddenly you are standing

      behind me looking out

      over my shoulder

      from our back-door window

      at the high display. I say aloud

      the names of the few constellations

      I know, told to me by my first

      love. Who would have guessed

      he would become our

      star-bridge, he whose future

      fell away from mine

      in fitful times of war?

      In the morning I’ll unlock

      the double gates to let

      the workmen in, try
    ing not to

      dislodge those moments

      when the blue eyelid

      of unexpected closeness

      pulled us in by the empty sleeve

      of its far away.

      for Josie Gray

      vii

      A raging sea

      thrown from the deck—

      a block of ice.

      DOPPO-AN CHOHA

      BUTTON, BUTTON

      i

      Green Peach, that’s the lapel button Bashō asked Roger

      Shimomura for when he spied

      the “I Am Not Chinese” button Roger gave to Larry

      Matsuda, as a gift at the Minidoka reunion. But, at the Irish

      renga party in Stokestown following the opening

      of the new wing of the Famine Museum,

      a smart aleck thought Bashō’s terse pen name had insulted

      Greenpeace and gave him a shiner. Indeed, Green Peach,

      the recalcitrant pith of it, was an unlikely name

      for a poet. As for me, in Ireland I need a button

      proclaiming me Not a Banker,

      where honest folk lose homes daily and nationalized banks

      send a country into debt while their managers

      join arms in a jig singing “Deutschland Über Alles!”

      Thank the Berkeley antique emporium sincerely, Larry,

      for the 1960s ABORTION NOW

      button, though I could not wear it with impunity

      to the Strandhill Ballroom of Romance, even having

      readjusted the baby-bump pillow in my trousers when

      I glimpsed the priest and ducked

      into the Ladies. There, a fourteen-year-old held out

      a crisp bag, collecting spare change to get to England

      on the boat for her solution. Cut marks in a ladder

      up her arm had failed to convince a judge her life was

      in jeopardy, her attempts so “amateurish.” “Ah, you’d

      have to slice a jugular, and sure, what would be

      the point? You’d bleed out then and there,” she sighed

      and thumped my pillow as if she’d like to take a nap.

      I dropped a fifty-euro note and skint past her belly,

      on her neck a cameo of Savita secured by a black

      velvet band. Savita, our lady killed by a heartbeat.

      Savita, who took her degree as a dentist in India, then

      came to die of sepsis and neglect in a Galway

      hospital, an untenable pregnancy gone wrong,

      her care put aside for her child’s vanishing

      heartbeat. “Take my child,” she’d pleaded earlier,

      to no avail, as she traded her heartbeat for her dying baby’s

      silence. Savita, Savita, our lady of long suffering,

      who believed her death would not be required. I drop

      my Not a Banker button into the crisp bag and Savita smiles

      shyly from the girl’s neck, as if she knows her husband

      is taking her death all the way to the Court of Human Rights.

      ii

      The moon tonight is so bloated I think its mirror-moon

      in Lough Arrow will pull it down. Let me wear the button

      stamped Moonbeam all the way to the bottom.

      Bashō has scribbled in my dream: “See you at Sun Ya Bar.”

      That dirty vodka martini I had with you there, Larry, at our

      between-planes feast still beckons. But when, oh when,

      will Roger inhabit the dark corner with a solitary

      scotch so our glances can meet? I promise to engineer

      an appearance if Kansas blows him our way. I could give him

      some of my signature portable kisses, red as a goldfinch’s

      beak-rim, for his next painting. Irish Red let’s call it,

      though these finches migrate from Africa. Birds

      have no boundaries and so, dear Cloud,

      they don’t agree to confinements, nor passports, nor

      gun turrets, nor dispossessions, nor calling what was done to

      Japanese American citizens during World War II anything but

      words reserved for the worst injuries to spirit, body, and mind.

      Maybe though, along with a concept like “concentration camp”

      to recalibrate the level of that harm, we need more telling,

      more stories with exact details of what was suffered. Nothing

      substitutes for that. Josie is humming the opening bars of

      There was an auld woman

      from Wexford, in Wexford she did dwell. She loved

      her husband dearly, but another man twice as well.

      With yah rum dum dum dum dee-ro and the blind man

      he could see!

      Which song ends in a bad way for the auld lady,

      so I shall turn in my moonbeam for a javelin and cinch up

      my babushka for certain travail.

      Moonbeam, we need your

      accusing light: Our Lady

      Savita has died.

      Slow death by bureaucracy.

      Civilized, remorseless.

      for Lawrence Matsuda

      BREATH

      Frost on the glass—breathe it

      open to the glass world. It

      breathes back

      to prove neither it

      nor you can end

      this exchange of breath

      for worlds.

      TO AN IRISHMAN PAINTING IN THE RAIN

      He is a force against nature,

      stroking stain on raw boards between

      showers. Yesterday sun blasted him

      free and he knew enough

      to develop a bad back, though in fact,

      he had wrenched it

      enough for reprieve. How often

      his joke during a downpour: “It’s a great day,

      isn’t it? Let’s go to the beach!” Now

      between lashings of rain his brush

      lavishes hope on the boundaries

      of my garden. Between fresh attacks

      he smokes under the eaves,

      squints out across a forest to Bricklieve

      as if to say: wait long enough and things

      will turn, will wear themselves out.

      But even hope and industry are no match

      for Irish rain. Paint washes down

      the white pier like rust or the teapot’s

      leavings. He musters a fourth coat in defiance,

      as if this misunderstanding between work

      and weather could be cured by holding out

      against a glower of sky. Not to be beaten

      he suddenly remembers an errand

      and is away. Rain

      washes the boards clean and is nobody’s

      handmaiden. Later, when the air

      is mizzling against my cheeks

      like cat’s whiskers, I’ll take in his

      drowned brush, wishing always

      to remember this day, on which the certain beauty

      of the human will appeared to me as an Irishman

      painting in the rain.

      for Malcolm Gray

      ENCOUNTER

      Over the rain-rutted avenue

      I’ve walked to horses at Kingsborough,

      neglected estate, now plundered

      by gatekeepers, the twisted arms

      of rhododendron hacked for firewood. The locals’

      mild compensatory salute: “It’s grand

      to finally see the lake!”

      I hold my palm to the muzzle of a mare,

      her deep eye that sinks me in,

      its richly fringed lid closing over

      my reflection, then lifting me

      like an emissary of unknown offerings

      down corridors burnished with inklings

      of hounds and masters, drops of port

      spilled from a flask onto her neck, or

      Cromwellian plunder of silver

      dug into the pasture while the horses, unbridled,

    &nbs
    p; gazed on. She snuffles my empty

      hand, then tosses me and history into her

      farthest cavern. She’ll keep me for the contraband

      I am, a lonely walker who doesn’t know

      what she wants in a borrowed land

      far from home. A small entitlement of steps

      led me to mystery, seeking to be

      left out. How else let difference tell you

      what you are?

      PLANET GREECE

      He says, with mystification, the government

      took a third of his dead wife’s pension, she

      who, fearing to lose her job, never told anyone

      how tired, how depleted she felt

      as her blood more and more refused to carry

      her. Then one day she died, leaving their eight

      children nearly grown. But she’d worked every day

      and no one knew, but him, of course. He knew.

      And her pension, which proved she had

      worked, now leaked out of her death and over to

      the government, which claimed it as his surplus,

      money which sustained him when work

      was scarce—the faint signal of her life blinking now

      like a worn-out star in the pocket of the State.

      How boldly they announce they will next take a portion

      of his own small pension. What would he use it

      for? Coal? A bit of meat? Seed for birds?

      Without leaving his hearth in Ireland, he flies

      through space with his country on his back. The place

      he lands is rocky and chill, just like his homeland.

      He sits at his hearth in a kindred field, and

      spirits rise up from the ground, and the tiny hearths

      of the stars take over the field of his mind.

      The slow white ovens of the sheep come close. History

      and governments whirl like planetary dust away

      into the vastness of space. Coming in from the nightshift

      at the mental home, she kisses him

      as they pass in the hall, and, as in the days of their youth,

      hands him, like a small kingdom,

      the keys to the car.

      for Madge and Josie

      CLOUD-PATH

      With steps freshened

      by wearing a man’s cast-off shoes,

      I follow the rain-rutted road

      as far as the fishing boats

      turned upside down

      on the soggy bank, their oars

      secured elsewhere to provide

      against thieves.

      Mottled light through

      waterside trees over the bows

     


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