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    Gaudete

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      Like a snake’s endless length gliding from a hole.

      The bright dove-crimson blood suddenly bulges out

      around it.

      And all the time Maud is scourging his ear-nerves

      With sounds that try only to mutilate.

      The shock has sobered him, and stilled him,

      Like a drastic injection.

      His lips touch Felicity’s cheek.

      He sees her eyelashes clogged with tears,

      He thinks this at least is a sign of life.

      Then Maud’s fingers hook down over his face,

      She hauls his upper lips and nostrils upwards, as if she

      would tear his face off upwards.

      Mrs Westlake

      Slews Felicity’s slack sack-heavy body

      Away across the floor, by one ankle.

      The attached pelt swirls after, in the dust.

      Lumb tries to struggle free

      But women have twisted to a weight like enfolding nets

      under water.

      They are clinging to his knees, his waist, his arms, his neck

      As if they too were drowning.

      Maud has stripped the stag’s pelt off him.

      She is flogging him over his bald skull with the cable-

      hard, twisted, horny stag’s pizzle.

      The women have made one undersea monster, heaving in

      throes.

      Now he has wrenched his weapon from Maud.

      He cuts a way out, flailing a path.

      He fights to the stairway that leads up into the

      churchyard

      And leaps up it and with great strides hurls out under the

      open,

      And bounds twenty yards and stops.

      Panting, he braces himself, forcing himself to look all round, under control, assessing the world and the moment. He looks back toward the church, still fighting clear of the terror that grabbed him down there in the basement. Nobody is following.

      The vast light of clouds and stilled evening sky, the hardening, blue, cooling shapes of trees, are an enclosing shock, as if he were hot metal plunged into water. Sweat scalds the cross-hatching nail-wounds in his skin, the lumping weals and claw-rips. He gulps recovery, looking all round at the familiar land, intently, as if he had never been here before, and would be away again in a few minutes. Trembling, he starts to walk towards the gate into the rectory garden.

      His whole being is in fiery tatters.

      He is whirling in blazing rags, like a blazing rag effigy

      Cartwheeling down a mountain.

      He grips the stag’s pizzle.

      He takes careful note of the tight-scrolled baby ferns on a

      grave.

      He clasps with his look

      The all-suffering million-year gravel, which nothing can

      hurt,

      As if he could somehow anchor the holocaust of himself

      Which seems to be hurtling through space, off some

      brink,

      Flinging out great streamers of flame and disintegrating.

      With deliberate measure, like a drilled soldier, he moves

      now to numbers.

      In his bedroom he dresses

      With a paced fury.

      When one cuff-button resists him, he locks to it

      With all his strength and attention

      As to an antagonist,

      While second after second splutters burning in the room,

      like a fuse, and hot thoughts grab at him,

      reflecting from every surface,

      That somehow

      Everything has to be cooled, everything has to be

      dismantled,

      Everybody back into their clothes and their discretion.

      The explanation

      For Felicity’s body

      Is a bomb

      They will all have to dig out carefully somehow together.

      Somehow everything

      Will have to be cancelled, the whole error

      Carefully taken apart

      And the parts put back where they belonged.

      Everybody has to return to exactly where they were,

      To stillness, calm, and normality,

      Everything has to be cleaned, groomed and made quiet,

      as at the start.

      Suddenly he remembers Maud’s voice, jarring his ear.

      And he feels through all his muscles

      The grip of Felicity’s flesh on the dagger-blade as he

      pulled.

      He sees, with electric shock fright in his every hair,

      That horribly long blade still coming out and still coming

      out –

      At the same moment

      He sees through the window men in the churchyard.

      The one glance

      Flashbulbs all that has happened.

      With hardly a footfall sound

      Moving like a thought

      He reaches his car and his fingers grip at the key which is

      not there –

      He ransacks every pocket reasoningly

      With tightrope walker’s care

      While the evening thrushes ring out uncontrollably and

      the swifts flare past.

      His memory jinks back through every chance

      misplacement.

      He stands beside his car, stunned by the momentum of

      time,

      Like one wedged against the piling weight in mid-river at

      his limit of depth.

      Then the men come round the house-end.

      They have heard all that Maud can tell them.

      Estridge is struggling with the irrelevance of trying to

      stay in control.

      The murdered girl, the church basement full of naked, drugged wives, and ritualistic hocus pocus – all that is something for a full enquiry.

      But his arguments are lost in mid-torrent.

      Evans’ trajectory is direct.

      Garten’s face is just a flag, for any prevailing gust.

      Holroyd has been convinced and now intends to settle his

      private account publicly.

      And a number of others

      If there is to be any talking, intend to talk with boots

      first.

      Lumb comes towards them.

      He is considering means of playing for a pause and

      entangling everybody in words.

      But Walsall’s Alsatian

      Already the most visibly incensed member of the mob

      Liberated

      Magnifies suddenly, bouncing towards Lumb

      Like a hurtling, runaway wheel off a truck.

      Lumb

      Has a long second to marvel

      At the demented personal malignity

      Distorting the mask of this perfect stranger

      As it hangs in mid-leap, level with his face, in a halo of

      black bristles.

      Then he is knocked backwards.

      He lies, clear-headed, while the dog’s jaws rave like a

      blurring power-saw within inches of his eyes.

      He grips its muscled forelegs.

      With all his might he wrenches them apart

      And the dog’s snarl splits to a damaged yell.

      In one move Lumb is up and swinging the coal-sack body

      through a full circle

      Like a hammer-thrower

      To fetch the dog’s spine crack against the stone-built

      corner of the garage.

      The Alsatian collapses, gets up and careers away twisting

      And collapses, chewing its yells.

      The men pause, startled by his expert success.

      But Walsall

      Jerks a garden fork from the edge of a flower-bed and

      lobs it like a harpoon.

      It thumps Lumb’s left shoulder, and hangs.

      He tugs it out but his setback and the obvious wound are

      two signals.

      Nobody hears Estridge’s restraining shouts about due

      process of law.

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    p; But Lumb

      Has moved again, and has halted Evans

      With a soil-solid flowerpot shattered against his chest,

      And is away through the hedge.

      He is running in the field above Smayle’s garden.

      He disappears.

      Just as Westlake drives up behind the rectory and

      scrambles out with his twelve bore.

      The mob gallop after Lumb shouting varied strategies.

      Westlake and Estridge huddle back into Westlake’s car.

      Easy and strong

      And full out

      With elbowing vigour to spare and confidence to spare

      Lumb bounds away uphill.

      He flings loose plans ahead of him,

      Letting them settle over the whole region, shaping

      themselves to the contours,

      The woods, the roads, the paths and copses.

      But looking back from that first skyline tree-fringe

      He sees Garten and Holroyd and Evans are losing no

      ground at all.

      These men too are hardy animals of the same landscape

      And their shouts rake him like missiles.

      He lopes out along a hogback

      Through ungrazed grass

      Toughened with buttercup and young thistles

      Toward a hill-crown clump of beeches, black against the

      broad glare of sky,

      Summit of power in the past.

      Beyond that point, he knows, many escapes fall away

      diversely into blue distance.

      He hoists each stride, trying to be the earth and to toss

      himself along weightlessly.

      He shutters his awareness from the unmanageably tilting

      planes of landscape to right and left

      But a big thistle ahead is no help.

      His fuel is burning too fast and smokily.

      His knees tangle with their chemical limits.

      His lungs are suddenly not those of a wolf or even a fox.

      He imagines the furious micro-energy and stamina of the

      blue-fly

      But the idea takes no hold.

      The miles of otherworld rootedness weigh in against him.

      Static trees are a police of unmoving.

      He flounders a little,

      Seeming to crawl on the floor of his anxiety

      Which is as wide and bare as the sucking space of the sky

      now poring over him,

      And inspecting him tinily

      Through a microscope,

      Noticing most of all the immensity and immovability of

      the grass on all sides.

      With jarring and clambering strides

      He hauls himself up among the sheep-worn ramparts of

      roots

      And under the twisted lichen-splotched, lichen-corroded

      Torsos of the beeches

      And the stirring leaf mass in its first tenderness.

      In the draughty gap among trunks

      He lets his stopped body, which he had forced to keep

      moving,

      Loll and lean to a tree.

      His lungs churn, his body flames,

      He feels mangled

      As if his blood had been pouring through rough iron

      channels.

      He watches Garten and Evans, toiling on the near slope

      like plough-horses,

      And far down to the right Holroyd running across.

      He sees the whole vista scattered with jogging figures.

      And now embracing the tree he flattens himself closely

      into it.

      With fixed imagination he sinks nerves into the current of

      the powerline.

      He gulps dense oxygen, recharging his trembling leg-

      muscles

      Which already the strength no longer quite fits.

      He feels his separateness, his healed-over smallness,

      among the loose stones and the hoof-printed dust.

      These boles are bleak as ruins.

      The leaf-towers are too lofty and sparse.

      The empty sky looks in from every direction. He looks

      out at it,

      And staring down into the too wide-open world he sees

      suddenly no hope.

      The bronze polished light of the lowering sun is without

      illusion of any sort.

      It brings him a poisonous thinness like the taste of

      pennies.

      Its shadows are prisonlike and depressing,

      Hard-cut as machinery.

      Every grass-blade wears its affliction of shadow.

      The blueing bowl of landscape

      Is a migraine of inescapable fixities, like sunglare in an

      empty concrete pool.

      A frightening sadness closes on him, as if he were

      shrinking,

      And a futility

      Grabs at his heart-beat, but he has already started

      running away from it.

      Holroyd’s farm is below.

      He vaults a wire, he runs downhill with long, jolting strides

      Through a constellation of cows,

      Statues of darkness in corollas of fire.

      He registers aridity of corrugated iron, cruelty of old nails

      Stifling walls of tarred wood,

      Creosote grubbiness of old sleepers walling a silage clamp,

      The sterility of bare, stony hoof-hammered earth, fringed

      with nettles and hemlock.

      He climbs to the barn loft

      Feeling like an early evening rat.

      A minute’s hiding, a minute’s stolen relief

      In the happy place, the nest among cornsacks

      Where he can press his face into the fustiness.

      His deep, scorching breaths suck in the lingering of her

      perfume.

      He groans under the collision of moments and sprawls,

      like a casualty,

      And with new fervour clenches his hands,

      Opening all his loosened fibres to the globe’s power

      And releasing a flood of sweat.

      He makes himself nothing, he empties his body of all its

      history,

      For the inrush of renewals and instructions.

      He almost sleeps, in a luxury

      Of these shortening seconds

      In which they cannot possibly touch him

      Before those seconds arrive made of their feet, their

      shouts, their eyes.

      For a long fantasy he is lost

      In details of a court defence

      But suddenly shouts are stabbing everywhere around him,

      like torchbeams.

      He shrinks.

      He sheds everything into hungry darkness, he yields into

      a raw black fieriness.

      He launches his whole being into whatever it is that is

      waiting for him.

      An impulse bends him, with alacrity and lightness,

      At the cock-loft window

      As voices and steps climb the ladder to the loft behind

      him.

      He drops twelve feet

      Grosses through the near-empty dutch barn,

      And runs out across grass, under a halo of gnats.

      And now every stride

      Multiplies towards freedom.

      And every second

      Deepens the defences behind him.

      A hare jumps out of the earth and scuds away ahead,

      ears up, leaning like a yacht,

      Like a guide.

      Then shouts catch and trip him, eyes have gripped him.

      A landrover is bounding over turf, hands cling where they

      can.

      Runners are bobbing, heels drive deep moons among the

      wolf-spiders.

      A banked thorn hedge, a tatter wool gap, is behind him.

      Barbed wire, padded with bullock’s hair, is beneath him.

      A high rail is strong enough, he vaults over it.

      Sheep
    pour this way and that.

      Bullocks gallop off their shock of excitement,

      While the air rips in his throat, like a dry piston,

      And the blood crisps on his left hand

      And all the time his shoulder

      Gnaws as if the whole arm-load

      Were a swinging iron trap.

      Till he topples over the rusty rail

      Into the young plantation which is Hagen’s boundary.

      He looks back

      Just in time to see the landrover misjudge a banked hedge

      And keel over, flinging out figures.

      Small cries come to him.

      He does not stay to identify

      Dunworth sitting with his head in his hands letting blood

      drip into the grass,

      Or Walsall twisted at the awkward angle

      Of minimum pain, eyes closed from the pursuit,

      Or Evans and Garten

      Leading with pitchforks away from the capsized vehicle.

      Lumb splashes through brambles among the sparse young

      conifers.

      Well into the thick, he drops, panting and listening.

      Now he concentrates each particular second, cramming it

      with recovery.

      Long horizontal rays

      Finger through the wood, kindling the floss-winged

      ephemera.

      Safely distant pheasants challenge.

      He closes his eyes, trying to feel back to the sure root of

      guidance.

      He feels his sinewy second wind clearing itself, and his

      blood renewing.

      He pushes on, foxy-cautious and alert

      In a fierce haste, that lifts aside the brambles delicately

      as setting a snare.

      The low spare plantation is crisp and weary in the late sun.

      A few butterflies hither and thither together aimlessly.

      Specks with legs crawl glittering on stems, as if in a

      dusty sweat.

      Wherever he looks down

     


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