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    Your Own, Sylvia

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      Sylvia did not appear particularly burdened or embarrassed by the public knowledge of her suicide attempt and hospitalization. Her incident allowed her certain privileges—a lightened school schedule, fewer chores, and a private room in her dorm, Lawrence House. Sylvia continued to be an exceptional student, and she was treated with awe and esteem. In some ways, Sylvia seemed to like the attention.

      Recommendation

      Estella Kelsey, Sylvia's senior-year housemother

      at her dormitory, Lawrence House

      Fall 1954

      Clack-clack-clack-ding,

      all hours of night and day,

      Sylvia rings our ears

      with her typewriting machine,

      as though her words

      are more vital than our sleep.

      The vocational office informs me

      that I am to write Sylvia

      a letter of recommendation

      so that she might be awarded

      a Fulbright scholarship.

      Well, tish, I clackety-click

      out my statement of truth.

      Talented as a well-bred

      racehorse and just about as spoiled,

      Sylvia runs around this place

      as though she is a guest author in residence.

      More seasoned than the other girls,

      they best not block Sylvia's path

      to the finish line. I select my words,

      type the letter straight. I do understand

      Sylvia needs money. But she also needs

      to find some gratitude.

      Smith was an all-women's college, and Lawrence House was a dormitory specifically for girls on scholarship, wherein house duties and chores helped to defray their room-and-board expenses. A housemother lived in the dormitory with the students and was charged with overseeing the girls and making sure that the dorm rules were upheld.

      Darling, Darling

      Richard Sassoon, one of Sylvia's great love affairs

      1955

      I chide you,

      whisk you off to New York.

      We feast on theater,

      savor art like fine cabernet.

      Gorge ourselves

      on each other's lips

      as though each kiss

      were the necessary antidote

      to our separation.

      You turn

      from everybody's good-time girl

      into a butterfly

      caught in my silver net,

      content to light on my chest.

      I become your sun,

      your nectar.

      You flap against my web,

      yet are grateful to be confined.

      I take you in hand

      when you try to fly away

      and amuse yourself

      on another wind.

      Sylvia, you must

      land. You desire this,

      to be held in place.

      You need me

      to fashion your cocoon.

      Sylvia became disillusioned with Richard in 1955 as she completed her senior year at Smith. Part of her loss of interest was because Richard appeared to have fallen overly in love with her. Nevertheless, Richard is the one who ultimately broke the relationship off and left Sylvia heartbroken.

      Bragging Rights

      Aurelia Plath

      June 1955

      My little Sivvy graduates,

      a briefcase of accolades

      to bolster her into higher learning.

      She surpasses me. Her reading

      list above my skill set.

      This has been my dream,

      and yet my stomach flares

      like a dynamite stick. It explodes,

      requires repair, keeps me from my dear.

      I open letter after letter.

      Sylvia wins the Glascock Poetry

      competition, publishes

      in the Christian Science Monitor,

      Mademoiselle, and

      the Atlantic Monthly.

      They award my daughter

      the Christopher Prize,

      the Alpha Phi Kappa Psi award,

      the Alpha Creative Writing award,

      the Elizabeth Babcock Poetry Prize.

      Sivvy judges literary festivals.

      She wins or places in almost

      everything she enters. She sends

      me her ribbons and placards,

      they collect on my wall

      like a montage of success.

      I store the surplus in a cedar chest.

      The prize money she retains.

      The phone beside my hospital bed

      buzzes and quivers, Sylvia's voice

      trills higher than the Wellesley water tower.

      She has been awarded a Fulbright

      to study at Cambridge.

      I elevate my bed, bubble up

      out of my stomachache stupor,

      tell her I am exceedingly proud of her.

      Our toils paid off.

      When I hang up the receiver

      and lower myself back to horizontal,

      my expression concaves.

      Sylvia will live an ocean away—

      move beyond my sight and reach.

      I try to smile about this departure.

      I will travel on a mattress

      in the back of Marian's station wagon

      to watch Sivvy accept her diploma.

      And then I must wave her off across the Atlantic,

      watch her ship slide quickly beyond my grasp.

      Sylvia graduated on June 6, 1955, at the age of twenty-two. Aurelia was recovering from a subtotal gastrectomy.

      Put Your Studies to Good Use

      Adlai Stevenson, Smith 1955 commencement address

      Impressive what you

      girls accomplished at Smith, but now

      you must pursue your

      highest vocation—

      achieve a creative marriage,

      thrive beside a man.

      Despite the sentiments expressed above, presidential candidate Stevenson was thought to be a progressive politician.

      Farewell, Boys

      Warren Plath

      September 1955

      Her boat departs for England

      and Sylvia releases the sailor knot

      that kept her safely docked in Boston Harbor.

      She ends her affair

      with Peter Davison, that young

      editor at Harvard University Press

      she seemed so enchanted with

      just last week. It's as though Peter

      were a summer head scarf

      and as the season passes, he's

      not worth packing. She seals

      the envelope with Gordon too,

      lipstick prints goodbyed

      over the adhesive. She wants

      no loose strings on her London-

      worthy cloak. Richard Sassoon

      puzzles her. As the Queen Elizabeth

      steams away from shore,

      Richard becomes smaller

      and smaller, almost insignificant.

      Almost as if he were never standing

      on shore at all. And then

      there is me, the one constant

      male in her saltwater.

      I drive her to the ship, witness

      the men come and go

      with her shifting winds.

      I wave, blow her a kiss.

      My sister, soon to be a Brit.

      I want her to fare well.

      In the fall of 1953 Warren was a junior at Harvard.

      American Girl

      Mrs. Milne, housemother at Whitstead, Sylvia's dormitory at

      Cambridge/Newnham College

      Fall 1955

      She's a wee bit different

      from the other girls,

      cuts her eggs into squares.

      She lets her male “friend”

      use the ladies' loo. I saw him

      tiptoe into a stall at dawn.

      When I scold Sylvia,

      tell her that this is not proper,

      she eyes me with
    those big browns

      as though I'm the foolhardy.

      “Why not?” She presses me

      like a linen shirt.

      I rap on the metal canister

      where ladies deposit napkins.

      “They don't have these

      on the bottom floor

      and we don't have men

      on the top.”

      The U.S. Fulbright Scholar Program, the U.S. government's flagship program in international educational exchange, was proposed to the U.S. Congress in 1945 by freshman senator J. William Fulbright of Arkansas. The Fulbright Program sends 800 scholars and professionals each year to more than 140 countries, where they lecture or conduct research in a wide variety of academic and professional fields.

      The University of Cambridge is one of the oldest universities in the world and one of the largest in the United Kingdom. Cambridge has a worldwide reputation for outstanding academic achievement by its students.

      Duplicate

      Jane Baltzell, another American student attending

      Cambridge/Newnham and residing at Whitstead

      Fall 1955

      We bike into town to dine.

      Sylvia sports her Mademoiselle

      casual couture. She rah-rahs

      her American accent like a pom-pom girl.

      I flush embarrassed when she taps

      a young man on the shoulder,

      wonders if he might recommend

      a very British, very picturesque place to eat.

      We are students, not tourists.

      Sylvia assimilates about as well

      as a hog snorting through

      a field of fillies.

      They branded us the American twins,

      both of us tall and blond.

      We could trade skirts, though nothing

      in my bureau suits Sylvia's taste,

      and vice versa. “There may not be

      enough room in this English program

      for the two of us,” Sylvia laughs.

      But we both know her jest contains truth.

      Jane Baltzell Kopp was recorded at her Arkansas home in November 1973 responding to questions from Edward Butscher on these experiences.

      Jane Baltzell Kopp went on to translate the Poetria nova into English. This has been done by only two other people. The Poetria nova is a thirteenth-century instructive treatise invented by Geoffrey of Vinsauf, which gives specific advice to future writers about the composition of poetry. The text itself serves as an illustration of the techniques it teaches.

      My Notes on the Renowned Miss Plath's Submission

      John Lehmann, editor at the London Magazine

      1955

      Unimpressed. I say

      you're frightened to feel, create

      mice where should be rats.

      Two poems in the batch Sylvia submitted to the London Magazine were “Dance Macabre” and “Ice Age,” both of which can be found in The Collected Poems. Sylvia published many poems and stories in the London Magazine later in life, including “The Applicant,” one of the three Ariel poems accepted before she died.

      Self-Centered

      Mallory Wober, Sylvia's British boyfriend

      her first semester at Cambridge

      Fall 1955

      Sylvia swishes

      into King's College dining hall,

      removes her exterior gloves,

      and twenty heads twist

      away from the orchestra,

      aroused not by sound

      or any of the regular five senses,

      but drawn to her essence.

      She's accustomed

      to this sort of response,

      a silent queen of the bees,

      she understands her import

      in the hive, produces well

      to retain her status. Sylvia charms

      us mortals with her poems

      and her ball gowns.

      I shake off my outer coat

      and, like a happy drone,

      guide the royal

      to her seat.

      Sylvia met Mallory at a Labour Party dance. A fellow student, Mallory was more exotic than other British men because he had lived in India. When Sylvia studied at Cambridge, men outnumbered women ten to one!

      Love Affair

      Richard Sassoon, one of Sylvia's great loves

      December 1955

      Paris whirls blue and

      dark blue. Sylvia begins and

      ends me, belongs here.

      A beautiful account of Sylvia's travels with Richard during December 1955 and January 1956 can be found in the appendix of The Journals of Sylvia Plath: 1950-1962. On this vacation, Richard danced Sylvia around all the famous sights of Paris. They spent Christmas morning on the steps of Notre Dame Cathedral. Sylvia grew to love Paris even more than London.

      As she packed her bags to return to Cambridge, Richard told Sylvia he intended to see other women and they had a terrible fight. This visit would be the last significant time they spent together.

      Overreaction

      Jane Baltzell, another American student at Cambridge,

      Sylvia's doppelg?er, with whom she traveled to Paris

      December 1955

      Sylvia raged, rain-drenched,

      dagger eyes.

      I'd locked her out,

      poor culpable me.

      Jane and Sylvia were more or less forced to travel together. Due to bad weather, all planes into Paris were grounded, so the girls instead took a ferry across stormy waters, bonding as they sipped brandy together under Jane's raincoat and attempted to avoid seasickness. As they arrived too late for Jane to check into a hotel, Sylvia let Jane stay in her room. Despite the late hour and bad weather, Sylvia wanted to go out that night and explore. But Jane was exhausted and collapsed into bed, sleeping so soundly she did not hear Sylvia banging on the door to be let in. Jane had also left the key in the lock after she locked the door from the inside, so even the concierge with his master key could not let Sylvia into her room. Sylvia and Jane's friendship was delicate, and Sylvia was furious beyond reason. The episode was peaceably resolved by Jane's agreement to be more responsible with the key. When Jane left Paris for Italy a few days later, she locked the key in the room a second time.

      Paris in the Winter

      Imagining Sylvia Plath

      In the style of “Winter Landscape, with Rooks”

      Winter 1956

      She repeats his name like a lullaby,

      the sonorous Sassoon. He sings

      to her, then flaps his wings, a magpie

      shaking his tail of her. Nothing

      for her between his beak except lies.

      She sketched this out in faded watercolor,

      Richard not answering

      her bell, fleeing her like a schoolboy. Where

      did he run? She circles his building.

      She taps her toes. Did he even open her letter?

      She freezes this trip to Paris, the city of pigeons.

      There are not enough scarves to warm her.

      She stalks his door. She awaits his return,

      ridiculous as a rook without its jacket of feathers.

      She never once glimpses his silhouette against the curtain.

      “Winter Landscape, with Rooks” is the second poem in The Collected Poems. Sylvia wrote about this poem in her journal, February 20, 1956: “Wrote one good poem: ‘Winter Landscape, with Rooks': it moves, and is athletic: a psychic landscape.”

      St. Botolph 's Party: Meeting Sylvia Plath

      Ted Hughes, poet, Sylvia's future husband

      February 25, 1956

      I may be black panther

      but she draws blood,

      swirls whiskey-headed

      around the dance floor,

      dizzy on my poetry.

      Her mind traps my lines

      with the proficiency

      I quote Shakespeare's.

      She adores my words,

      whispers that I will be

      part of the pantheon.

      I yank this Sylvia Plath


      into a room of desk

      and books, out of range

      of the girl-of-the-moment

      I brought to the party.

      Blond and tall as a magazine

      swimsuit model. I nibble

      at the whippet's neck.

      Her lips fury-red, she bites

      me—teeth tearing my cheek.

      I retreat, imprinted, stunned.

      The party for our little

      lit mag rages, wine-soaked,

      behind the mahogany door.

      Sylvia jets from the room.

      She has tasted me. Her mouth is full.

      I touch the blood on my face.

      Will I ever be the same?

      At the time Sylvia met Ted Hughes, he was no longer attending Cambridge, just hanging around the university discussing poetry and politics and establishing the short-lived literary magazine St. Botolph's Review. Ted was renowned as one of the best poets within the university community, even though he had published very little—a few poems in Delta and Chequer. Although Ted wrote a lot of poetry during this period, including one of his most anthologized poems, “The Jaguar,” he simply did not vigorously pursue publication.

      Germany

      Gordon Lameyer, one of Sylvia's old boyfriends

      April 1956

      Last-ditch effort

      to make fire of our

      romantic embers, but we find

      no phoenix in the ash.

      We should spark flint

      into friendship, but when Sylvia

      rants that John Malcolm Brinnin

      could have/should have saved

      that old Welsh hero of hers,

      Dylan Thomas, sad overrated

      “dying of the light” poet that he is,

      I will not concede to her.

      Sylvia dials up the volume

      of her argument, pounds

      the alehouse table. I proffer

      that Brinnin could never stop Thomas

      from Thomas's inevitable,

      predestined, predetermined

      march toward self-destruction.

      Sylvia eyes me, brimstone mad.

      I almost hit below the belt

      and argue that she of all people

      should understand this,

      for like her favorite poet

      no one can stop Sylvia

      when she holds a knife

     


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