Later,
Me
May 13
You:
How are you? Obviously you know that we haven’t talked in awhile but I got your thank you note for the plate of cookies I brought for you and your girlfriends at lunch.
It seems like maybe you won’t be sitting with me at lunch anymore and I can handle that. (After all, it’s been two weeks since we’ve eaten together although I prefer we still ate as friends). I don’t want to be a third wheel with you and your girlfriends so I’ve decided to sit with the guys I’m studying Science with.
But if you ever want to just hang out after school sometime, you know how to reach me.
Hope you have a great day today!
Later,
Me
May 17
You:
I was surprised to get your note yesterday. Am I angry with you? Not at all. If you don’t want to talk with me, it’s a free country so you don’t have to. You also asked, “Does it seem strange that I like some secret admirer I’ve never met?” Not really.
You like this secret admirer guy because apparently something in his notes really “clicks” with you. But maybe he stopped writing you as a secret admirer because he’s a decent guy that doesn’t want this to be like those creepy guys on the internet that approach you online (red flag #1) and have all of these nice things to say to you, all of these romantic things (red flag #2) and then they convince you that meeting them face to face is a safe idea even though their main goal is to eventually get you totally alone with them – leading you away from any public place so no one else sees what they are about to do to you (red flag #3) since they ultimately turn out to be violent criminals that kidnap you, rape or kill you.
So just stick to associating with real good guys that don't try to lure you to be alone with them to harm you. Your intuition would give you a bad feeling that makes you uncomfortable about where a bad guy is leading you. Listen to and follow your intuition more than what they say to you and you'll have better chances for staying safe.
You know that I know who your secret admirer really is. So I can tell you that he’s not a creep but he is actually a really good guy. But I also know that he wants to have a less secretive side to the whole getting-to-know you courtship thing.
In other words, I think he figured that he needs to be less secretive with his notes to you so that maybe you’ll like him for who he really is without having to have secret, romantic notes being slipped into what should be the privacy of your locker. (I mean, really. What in the world is somebody else doing in your locker? That really isn’t a “normal” way to court someone.)
But you can like whomever you want and you can be my friend or not. (Or be more than my friend as the dating offer still stands. I’d still like to take you to dinner sometime – if you won’t stand me up this time.)
Just think about it. He’s a good guy that’s trying to be less creepy in how he pursues possibly dating you more “out in the open.”
And I still would like to take you out on a date sometime.
Let me know what you think.
Later,
Me
May 21
You:
I give up. I’m going to talk to him and see if I can persuade him to tell you who he is. Just remember. You’re the one that wanted to know. You’re the one that pushed him to tell you. So if you don’t like what you see – if he tells you – then it won’t be all his fault. And if you find that he’s not the person you had hoped for . . . please let him down easy.
Later,
Me
[Last anonymous note put in your locker.]
May 27
I understand you want to meet me face to face and know once and for all who I am.
Your wish will be granted.
Meet me at Venus Park across from the fountain this Thursday May 30th at 4 pm and I’ll be there with a heart that beats just for you. It's a public park so there should be plenty of other people there if you have any safety concerns (as most smart girls like yourself wisely do).
I’ll be wearing a purple shirt, a black n white checkered tie, dark jeans and black and white checkered tennis shoes and there will be a very large sign of my love for you. (Don’t worry. I usually dress much better at school. I just want to make sure my outfit is unique enough so you know you’re meeting the right guy. Plus my black-n-white checkered clothes will match your super cool Alex Opalstone back pack.)
Love,
Your Secret Admirer
…Bleating out light filled with…
[You go to Venus Park and look for him across from the fountain. Several other people are there. Some people are throwing Frisbees and walking dogs. Others are having a picnic. As you stand there looking around for him, suddenly you see a large twenty foot wide canvas poster drop down like a large scroll opening to reveal a message with large print that cascades down at least thirty feet. The print is being typed live and projected onto the screen in real time. It reads:]
May 30
“Simply Because”
Come with me and I’ll show you night skies of
Stars that grow the reddest roses
Their long stems of light
Dipping their fragrant petals that bloom and grow
Into earth’s gravity they gently flow
While spilling earthbound bulbs of fire into the night
I’m being careful to avoid the thorny paths of lust
Fearing to awaken within you
The lion that slumbers in your soul
Roaring out power greater than
A stormy ocean out of control
Only for it to switch places
With the lamb awakening within my own
Bleating out light
Filled with songs of peace we’d once known
Being reborn between the mountain of your virtue
And the lake of your love
I’ll watch for the snowfall of our start
To melt into the replenishment
For the reservoirs of my heart
Will nourish the growing timbers of tenderness
That steep themselves in the
Heaven sent rains of peace and light
Throughout the forest of our love
As birds sing a celebratory chorus by flight
Sometimes the world within my heart is
As a volcano that shoots out
The whitest light
Spilling lava that freezes
Into a sea of glass
That receives the suns rays
Translating the bright white into sparkling colors of the rainbow
For more heavenly days
And yet sometimes my soul
Peers out of the window to watch
As the stars shimmer across the ocean in the night
The two worlds blend
Sinking the light of the stars to swim
Through the ocean deep
Awakening a part of my soul
Once buried by sleep
Passing swimming stars reveal the liquid purple fire
That hides in the black coral reef
That court a new belief
That the shadows in the seas of a night ruled by lust
Drown out every lightning rod of righteous desire
So I must use all of my brawn
Along with prayerful help from heaven’s love
To draw the stars back to their proper places in the night sky above
Long before the last night wind
Ushers in the dawn.
Come with me and I’ll show you all of this
A preliminary to what may be our first kiss
But only if this is what you truly wish
But all of these written imaginations
Cannot compare to the wondrous, beautiful reality of creation
When God cr
eated you
Because your beauty like the fire
purifies my every desire
In the flickering of your flame
Drives within me my rush to tame
The lion of my lust
For your loveliness is indeed worthy
Even the worth of your very soul so great
The Lamb of Love shields you and guards you
with the most unbreakable breastplate
heaven has to offer
From the highest treasures of its protective coffers
Yes – Your body, your face, your eyes
Are picture perfect brought to life
That will grace the heart and soul
Of the man who someday you give the privileged honor
To call you his beloved wife
Yes, I repeat
With every heartbeat
Your body, your face, your eyes
Are picture perfect brought to life
That will grace the heart and soul
Of the man who someday you give the privileged honor
To call you his beloved wife
And in the depths of these my feelings
The question my heart keeps beating is
Will you say “I do”
And all of this
Even without a first kiss
Simply because
I love you?
Chapter 10: The June Chapter
June 1
You:
Well, you gave me your answer. To tell you the truth, I wasn’t sure if I should just come out from behind the screen or to type my name to tell you it was me. But thankfully as the cursor remained next to the question mark and began to blink, you made the bold choice to see who was behind the scenes of this lover’s masquerade.
When you walked up behind me I’m sure it was obvious to you how nervous I was as I paused and stared anxiously at my laptop screen. If I had known then that what was coming next would be the greatest first kiss of my life then I would have come out sooner.
So as we begin this new chapter of our lives
I will forever look forward
To that look in your eyes
Of a love that’s true
And someday I will ask someone that is a lot like you
The important question that carries a ring
A ring that sounds like “will you marry me?”
But until the time is right, for me and for you
The question of “would you like to go with me to the prom
Or out to dinner and a movie with me again Friday night?”
Will have to do.
Yes, someday I will ask
Of a love that’s true
“Will you marry me?”
And maybe someday I will ask that
. . . hopefully to you.
Love,
Your not so Secret Admirer: Me
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Q. T. Valentine
Cast of Characters
Me = A guy you know who you see as a teen heartthrob at your school.
You = You (a female that attends high school with me).
Your Secret Admirer = Me (But you don’t know it’s really me until you know it’s me).
About Q. T. Valentine:
Who is Q.T. Valentine? Someone who has received many love letters and written many love letters and has come away learning that no matter how good looking someone is, no matter how confident or popular, everyone has his and her own insecurities in love which are bound to emerge at some point for the purpose of emotional growth and securing mature resolutions for greater harmony and unity in love before we move onto the heavenly days that can come in what most of us call the “happily ever after” ending.