Scene 6
HOPE walks across the stage, JAYDIN stops her.
Jaydin: Hey, my name is-
Hope: Jaydin. I know you.
Jaydin: Oh, I uh-
Hope: It’s a long story.
Jaydin: This is stupid, like really stupid but can I ask you a stupid question?
Hope: I don’t believe in stupid questions.
Jaydin: Are you okay?
Hope: Except that one.
Jaydin: Look, I know this must all be so hard on you and all.
Hope: Yeah, no kidding.
Jaydin: Answer me, though. Are you okay?
Hope: Am I okay? No, I’m not okay. Bree Flanders killed herself and it’s my fault.
Jaydin: Wait, what? How is it your fault?!
Hope: I’m the one who didn’t do anything to stop it!
Jaydin: That doesn’t make it your fault.
Hope:
If I would’ve smiled at her more
If I hadn’t looked at the floor when she walked by
Maybe she’d be alive now
If I had smiled at her more
If I hadn’t spilled Ally’s secrets
If I would’ve stayed in the royals
Maybe she wouldn’t be dead right now
Don’t you think that’s a reason
Just a reason
For me to be at fault
Jaydin: No not at all
Hope:
Jaydin you’re foolish
You’re stupid
You’re dumb
I can’t believe that you don’t see it
Jaydin:
You think that I’m stupid
You think that I’m dumb
You think I’m a fool because I believe in you
I guess I am stupid, I guess so
Hope it’s not your decision
Her life is not in your hands and vice versa
She is not your fault and you are not yours
Hope you’re being so silly
Calm down and breathe with me
Breathe in out
In out
In out
Repeat after me
I am not the one to blame
Hope:
I am not the one to blame
Jaydin:
Exactly now calm down
Hope:
I am calmed down
Both:
Bree’s dead and that’s not your/my decision
Bree’s dead and that’s not my/your fault
Hope:
Thank you for helping me I’m sorry for being so silly
Bree’s dead, and I am so helpless
But I know that it’s not my fault
Thank I’m breathing but I am not fine
I don’t know what to do and I am afraid
Both:
Bree’s dead
Jaydin:
And I am so sorry
Both:
Bree’s dead
Jaydin:
And youre not at fault
Both:
Bree’s dead
Jaydin:
And you can always call me
Cause I know that this must be so hard on you
I’m sorry for all this stuff you have to go through
And you can always call me
I gotta go but just call me
HOPE, in a whirlwind of emotion of her crush just talking to her yells out
Hope: I like you!
Jaydin:
I’ve liked you too
JAYDIN exits.
Blackout
Scene 7
DEPRESSION and HOPE stand alone on stage. HOPE is laying down on her bed trying to sleep and DEPRESSION stands behind her. HAPPINESS is on stage but watching, helpless.
Depression: Y’know, Hope. I thought you’d be, I don’t know. A little better, after all this. Turns out you’re weaker than I thought. You should skip your date with Jaydin tomorrow. Do you really want to betray John like that? You know you still love him.
Hope: Do I still love John?
Depression: You’re head over heels for him, and you’re heartbroken over him. Why would you string Jaydin along when you’re in love with John?
You are nothing, you are nothing and you don’t deserve to sleep
You are useless you are stupid, please don’t bother counting sheep
Don’t tell me you are done being all alone
I am the voice that tells you not to forgive
I am the voice that tells you you shouldn’t live
You don’t deserve them
The girl inside you is afraid
The girl inside you is a little wimp
So don’t fight me
Just listen to me
Let the girl burn, let the girl burn.
Let the girl rot away and stay with me
I understand you Hope. I understand you
Let the girl die, let the girl die
Let the girl burn into ashes and stay with me
You’ll never have them
You spilled Ally’s secrets
And now you must pay
You’ll love John for the rest of your days
You don’t deserve them
The girl inside you is afraid
The girl inside you is a little wimp
So don’t fight me
Just listen to me
Let the girl burn, let the girl burn.
Let the girl rot away and stay with me
I understand you Hope. I understand you
Let the girl die, let the girl die
Let the girl burn into ashes and stay with me
Stay with me
Hope, darling stay with me
Let the girl burn, let the girl burn.
Let the girl rot away and stay with me
I understand you Hope. I understand you
Let the girl die, let the girl die
Let the girl burn into ashes and stay with me
Stay with me
Hope: I am not my depression. I am not my fear. I am not my feelings of inferiority. I am my own person. I am Hope friggin’ Winter. I am alone sometimes, and I am afraid sometimes but I am my own person. I am not my emotion, nor my lack thereof. I am a writer. I am a friend. I am a good friend. And you know what. (HOPE stands up.) I am free.
For the first time in the show, DEPRESSION leaves the stage, but so does HAPPINESS. Signifying that HOPE is not her emotions.
Hope: I am free.
Hope:
I stand alone
I stand freely
I stand unhappy
But somehow satisfied
I stand alone
I stand worried
I stand scared
But I know I will be fine
I'm fine
I've stood lonely
Surrounded by people I thought I loved
I've stood happy
But fearful in the hands of girls that don't budge
So now It's me
Me
Just me
Alone
But I am good
By myself
All alone
Now it's them
Me against them
But I am good
By myself
All alone
And maybe I'm born with it
Maybe I'm fluent in the language I write
I stand here not dolled up
Not in anothers eyes
And
For forever
I thought I needed you
And forever I thought you needed me too
And forever I will remember you
For forever
For forever
I will stand alone
And forever I'll stay how I have grown
And forever I'm colder to the bone
For forever
For forever
I'll be the girl that all the boys want because I'll be fourteen
And I guess that's not an adul
t.
In high school, everything changes
Just like has for forever
Who am I? Now that the world is crumbling
For forever
Where were you? When I was feeling-
Numb. It's a feeling but I can't feel a thing
(YOUNG HOPE ENTERS)
Young Hope:
One day I'll be the girl who gets on the kickball teams
Both:
For forever
Blackout
End of Act II
End of show