My Little Box Full of Love
By Kennedy Bleu
Copyright 2012 Kennedy Stone
The Agony of Love – Love Hurts Poetry
One + One might = Three
when we're in the mood
when we're in this place
when the temperature rises
and our hearts start to race
and in between heavy breathing
accompanied by low moans
our body's needing
while my mind can't even roam
then it all goes wrong
it all just stop
with an imperfection of the song
a latex pop
then he pulled out
face full of dread
and i never gave a shout
when he got up and fled
All is fair in love and war.
Love turns the world into a battle field
The pain in my words I weald
But mine cut far less than his
Yet, it’s an enjoyable pain
And there’s always more when done
In a fairer world, he/I would be dead
Because no matter how war comes
There is always casualties
Never would have thought it would end like this.
Never would have thought
it would end like this.
Never would have imagined
it would be such an evil bliss.
Never could have guessed
you felt this way
Never could have put it together
you would have this to say
Never would have believed
it would end so quick.
Never would have conjured
it would give me such a slip.
Never should have put faith
in something so young.
Never should have put loved
in something so sing song.
But if I never opened up
and gave you my heart
I would have never known
where true love should start
I think that's why I'm reacting so calm.
Alphabetized
This guy told me he could take me away from you,
Take me to a better life.
And in a place where A-Z is prioritized ahead of me
Being human, simply, I was intrigued at the possibilities
Can you honestly blame me, honestly fight an endless war
Don't give me the crap about being young, Juliet was just a teen
Even if the times have changed
Feelings stay the same
Give me no signs, but I know when it's time to end
He was everything you’re not, when you’re not there for me
In for the long run you said you'll be
Just gave us six months and you pushed me away
Kicked my love to the side line
Looking for a chance to go in
Mostly wishing you could give me a little time
Never wanting to be you only star
Of course that, to you, was too much to part
Putting me further and further away
Quietly keeping to myself and
Resting upon a broken heart
So when he came around I happily left you
To, without a doubt, be completely a lone
Understatement of the year, everyone needs somebody
Very caring, considerate, & always there
When life gets too much to bare
Xeroxes of compassion don't amount to anything
Your only need is a
Zinnia of emotions from a person to
Whoever the Me may be.
He once loved me.
I’m happy he once loved me
Once traced my heart with his
I’m glad he once treasured me
Once held me highest on a pedestal
I’m cheerful he once valued me
Once saw worth in a broken heart
But that was then what seems to be a stark evening ago.
And, my way, love never seems to go.
I’m astonished he once cared for me
Once surprisingly held me close
I’m ecstatic he once could fit me in
Once waited on my heart
I’m happy he once loved me
Once did this entire list
But that was then what has to be a heart turns past.
And, foolish me, thinking it was going to last.
From You.
Sitting here without a reason as to why. But I cry inside every time you say bye.
But it doesn’t mean nothing at all.
Hard to hold on to. If I don’t run I’ll lose you.
Feeling like I don’t mean nothing at all.
You claim you miss, who? Seems that I’m nothing to. You.
Treat me like I don’t mean nothing at all.
How is it when I’m gone. It just feels so wrong.
And you don’t pay attention to nothing at all.
I say these words. Reaching only the birds.
Because I’ll always get nothing at all.
From you.
Rain Clouds
Every recognition of her existence
by him filling her big black eyes with the
shining look of rain falling in wet leaves.
She does deserve him. She was
unaccustomed to being adored by a man in a
single-minded way.
That is adoration was patient and
waiting while love or, if you liked, plain
sexual passion banged everything about.
It either should or thought it knew
too much and it had always left her cold
and had not involved her heart.
What sort of woman was she, who only
gives away to love under extreme pressure
and pain?
Enough
When you lose someone you love you just can’t cry enough.
And now I can’t say how you feel, but I sure can say it’s tough.
When you’re heart walks out the door, you just can’t scream enough.
And here where it use to beat, it still feels a little rough.
When you’ve gave all you can, an you still feel like it’s not enough.
Vodka helps.
Seems like I can only find love in the comfort of a bottle. It doesn't hurt you, doesn't scar.
Seems like I can only find love when the love comes cool and slow. It doesn't leave bad memories of what once was.
Seems like I can only find love when its akdoV spelled right. It doesn't seem like I can do anything right now.
Seems like my first two glasses are warring off. It doesn't look like I have a full bottle in the house.
Seems like I need to go and get four more. It doesn't appear to be a good coping method.
Seems like it works, until I run dry. Or think of him.
Kameron R. Woodard
Wishing on a star to keep a heart I do not deserve.
I dare not open my eyes to see if your here.
Just reach out my hand to feel if you’re near.
Trying to tell you I love you, but I can't work up the nerve.
Deep inside I know you can do better.
Whether it's because it all seems too perfect.
Or the weight of your heart is too much and I don't want to break it.
Seems putting mine back takes forever.
But I know when you kiss me I lose account for place & time.
My breathing gets heavy and
slows.
And your heart beat matches mine.
All who's been in-love knows how that gets.
And I know I tend to get so insecure.
Over look big emotions and under look small details.
But it doesn't matter anymore.
His little angel.
He didn't do it for the love, but for the money.
Left our home in search for something "greater".
Hit the pavement and start off running.
Tried to make it on his own and get it done.
But the world is big scary and hard.
He didn't do it for himself, but for his daughter.
His beautiful girl he hasn't seen.
Wanted her to have the best life even without him.
But what he didn't know was that all she wanted was him.
And to know she is loved.
He didn't do it for the chance, but for the opportunity.
That once in a life time moment to change her whole life.
Gave her up and held back the tears.
Bit his lip and worked his ass off.
But he always seems to fall short.
He didn’t do it for the dream, but for the reality.
That evil truth of the matter with no silver lining.
No sliver of hope that he’ll ever see her smile.
And closed adoptions never open.
Diamond or Rhinestone
Should I allow myself to be a diamond or a rhinestone?
From the dude who would give anything to be with me…
Who would put me on the highest pedestal…
Don’t I deserve to be a diamond?
From the dude who doesn’t know what he has…
So does that mean I don’t know my worth…
Should I stay in a comfortable place and avoid pressure?
From the guy who has me by my heart…
And squeezes until that agonizing pain…
Becomes all I can handle at one point…
From the guy who wants me…
To just let go and give in….
To everything in my heart…
Unanswered Questions
Should I try something new?
Well the same old story freshly spun around
Take a chance on cupids lost dance
Wonder if hope keeps life from crashing down?
Should I just wait?
Hold off on something I just got out of
But wouldn’t the best just happen anyway, fate
Do you think that last bit is true?
Should I do wait everyone wants?
What everyone who knows me says is best
But don’t I know myself better than the rest
Or is that just what people say?
Should I do what’s best for me?
But what if I don’t even know what that is
Truth be told I’m lost
But hey, doesn’t the truth set you free?
Lovers Lies
I Love You.
And these are the true lies of our real lives
The ones we wake up and say out of habit
To the faces of people we Love that cut like knifes
And the blood that soaks through is just the pains advocate
I believed when your hand print was still there after you were gone
That was you showing your Love
An you still there meant I would never be alone
Like a watchful angel from above
But hey the devil was an angel too
And you would never think someone could fall so far
Saddest thing you tried to take me with you
Now i see you for the Lover you are
And just as happily, on me, you left dents
I open my eyes and raise my heart
Knowing time will lift your prints
Walking into the sunset apart
Love.
Bi-po-love
You love me
Well us
Maybe it was you
who was different.
Me crazy ,
you also high
I was addicted to Harmony
And you kept running back too
your first love - crack
But we found a way, somehow
We try to fight the odds
But with Harmony wanting to shoot up
You couldn't fight
the devil in a red dress
Candace couldn't watch you and Harmony
playing in the devils playground
Kissing, Shooting, Dazed, Fighting, Shooting
Repeat
I pushed Harmony away
But I love you so I let her stay
Soon I faded and Harmony finished up
for me
Just play nice in the World of crank
Me
Killing You
Can you tell me why the roses are red and the violets are blue?
Can you tell me why I can't remember him yet I miss you?
And can you tell me why you want to pull that trigger?
And if you do you'll just be another sorry dead figure.
Who let their problems an difficulties keep them down.
And right now Ima smile because I don't want to frown.
Because if I do Ima realize that everything you ever told me was real lies.
That I should never give up an to just suck it up when life spins me around.
Because it's just a sad clown.
Yep, life an it's a stupid joke.
An even if you don't think so the punch~line makes me choke.
An maybe till hope does me in.
Because I'm not Batman an can't go to a funeral for a friend.
Even though I wish I was in-the-end.
An if you decide to be that dead figure.
Please don't go down with a pull of a trigger.
So me first and the last note is for you.
An just remember that if you go through,
you'll might as well be killing me while you’re killing you.
I pray to thee.
I pray to thee, please watch his heart
No harm entered, around, or found
And the way left and returned, the same be
I pray to thee, please watch his hands
Not idle, worn or tattered
Please give him strength that can’t be shattered
And able to carry my sorrows for me
I pray to thee, please watch his feet
Not tired, but ever tiring and always careful
Please let them carry him to places unlawful
And always back to the familiar we
I pray to thee, please watch his face
No scratches, wounds, or stress
Please give him ease of mind always, not at best
And always a place to put it for he
I pray to thee, bring him back for she
Crying wolf
Hearts do break
and I must admit
I found a verse and a chorus
so I might have been faking it.
Think I might have only cried just once.
After all the shows,
after the boys of summer had gone
amid all the confusion
and friends I've been losing
I always thought from the start
I'd be the one moving on.
I guess I'll never know
Where all the boys of summer will go
but I'll miss what me made
and the days were not wasted.
There are some things I may never know.
But then that lone tear dried
I forgot the question
And kept on steppi
ng
Not sorry if you couldn't
Get me out of your head.
Thought I thought about you one.
And those days long gone
But Memories are forever
As if I care if
When ever I see a sea shell
I think of you.
I'm not crying wolf to my heart
I didn’t need you from the start
You were just some summer fling
And now summers over.
If I was to cry.
If one day I was to cry
And use heartbreak as the reason why
My eyes would never dry
If for a moment I was to cry
Until love and sorrow found an equal tie
I may never find peace before I die
If just like you I was to cry
That would make two as blue as the sky
Without a thought to correct life's lie
If you let me go and I was to cry
I would just accept my given pie
No questions asked, just our final good-bye
Confession
I admit
I really miss how things used to be
But I can also admit
I've accepted the fact that things have changed
I admit
I really miss the way your smell stayed on my clothes
But I can also admit
The smell of hurt stayed around much longer
I admit
Good sex can fix a bad argument
But I can also admit
It doesn't cure a bad relationship
I admit
I miss the way your touch felt
But I can also admit
Being off your leash feels so much better
I admit
Sweet talk late at night was good
But I can also admit
Soft words can hurt too
The Happily Ever After
In reality it’s fruit that kills
And shoes that don’t fit
Frogs making deals and
A prince who’s a twit
And even the sun sets in
Paradise
And all those fairy tales