Everybody talks (Study session with Jack) * Noah and the Whale – 2 atoms and a molecule
Momma said knock you out (Fight with Skylar) * Rise Against – Prayer of the Refugee
Chapter ten
Unnecessary roughness (After fight) * The Airborne Toxic Event – Happiness is overrated
Child's play (Paint fight) * Walk the Moon – Anna sun
Shake me down (Find out about Skylar) * Gary Jules – Mad world
Rolling in the deep (When Tristan returns from police station) * Natalie Merchant – My skin
Chapter eleven
Breakfast at Tiffany's (Morning after with Tristan) * Maroon 5 – Sweetest goodbye
Your place or mine (Tristan asks Ella out) * Dashboard Confessional – El Scorcho
Hell in a hand basket (Getting ready for her date with Tristan) * The Airborne Toxic Event – Something new
It takes two (First dance) * James Morrison – Better man
Bright light, city nights (On the roof) * The Black Keys – Meet me in the city
Giving him something he can feel (First kiss) * Fiona Apple – Across the universe
Yesterday was just a memory (ride home) * Norah Jones – Wish I could
Chapter twelve
I ran so far away (Ella's run) * My Chemical Romance – Helena
Chapter thirteen
Chapter fourteen
Dream a little dream (Ella's nightmare) * Plumb – Damaged
One drink, two drink, red drink, blue drink (Drinking in Tristan's room) * Phoenix – Consolation prizes
Dare to be me (Playing truth or dare) * Ida Maria – I like you so much better when you're naked
Chapter fifteen
Let's pool our luck (Tristan surprises them with a pool) * Portishead – Glory box
Safe and sound (Ella attends to Tristan's wounds) * Sarah Bareilles – Courage is
Confessions (Ella tells Tristan about her past) * Damien Rice – Delicate
Say goodnight not goodbye (Tristan and Ella's night together) * Plumb – Cut
Chapter sixteen
My momma told me (Breakfast with Ella's mom) * Postal Service – Such great heights
Fading fast (Skylar's memorial) * Eva Cassidy – Fields of gold (live)
Party like a rock star (At the club) * Beyoncé – Single Ladies
Breakup or makeup (Ella and Tristan's fight) * Sara Bareilles – Gravity
Chapter seventeen
Hope is gone (Opening sequence) * Marina and the Diamonds – Lies
Hanging by a thread (Tristan and Ella's argument outside) * Mumford and Sons – After the storm
The usual suspects (Tristan talks with Ella in the quad) * Fisher – I will love you
Things aren't as they appear (Ella's date with Jack) * Sense Field – save yourself
Dance with the devil (Ella finds out about Jack's secret) * Mumford and Sons – Thistle and weeds
Chapter eighteen
Helping hands (Tristan fixes Ella's headache) * Cyndi Lauper – Fearless
Trick or treat (At Halloween store) * Monster mash
Two faced (Decorating the masks) * The Black Keys – Dead and gone
What was the question (At the police station) * Mumford and Sons – Broken crown
Chapter nineteen
Say yes to the dress (When Tristan runs into Ella in the hotel) * Travis – More than us
Do's and Don'ts (At the salon) * Gavin Degraw – Let it go
Once around the dance floor (Dancing with Dixon) * Adele – Crazy for you
Where I belong (Dance with Tristan) * Colbie Caillat – I never told you
Chapter twenty
Hand in hand (Dancing with Tristan in hotel room) * Otis Redding – I've got dreams to remember
My heart will go on (Ella invites Tristan to spend the night) * Foy Vance – Be the song
Chapter twenty-one
What a mess (Return to the dorms) * Adele – Set fire to the rain
To eat or not to eat (Dinner in hotel room) * The Airborne Toxic Event – All I ever wanted
Sweet dreams (Tristan and Ella say goodnight) * Lauren Hill – Selah
Chapter twenty-two
Starry starry night (Ella takes a break on balcony) * Florence and the Machine – Falling
Two freaks or better than one (hanging with Josie) * Pink – Trouble
Giving thanks (Tristan puts Ella to bed) * Juliana Hatfield – Make it home
Chapter twenty-three
So much for the afterglow (Ella wakes up) * Ok Go – Shooting the moon
How much is that doggie in the window (Time at animal shelter) * Plain White T's – Rhythm of love
Breakfast with a breakup (breakfast with Tristan) * Mumford and Sons – Where are you now
Saying goodbye (Tristan tells Ella he's leaving) * Glen Hansard – Leave
Aftermath (Ella's reaction to losing Tristan) * Pink – Glitter in the air
Getting to know your strength (Dinner with Gabe) * Jet – Move on
Chapter twenty-four
Twist and shout (Ella dances with Tristan) * Lana Del Ray – Summer time sadness
Party crashers (escaping the guards) * Remy Zero – Save me
Chapter twenty-five
Lonely hearts (Tristan explains why he left) * Ron Pope – A drop in the ocean
Monsters in the closet (When Ella finds Josie) * Jason Walker – Down
Endless wonders (when Ella receives her powers) * Innerpartysystem – Don't stop
When all said and done (Ella says goodbye to Tristan) * Kate Voegele – Hallelujah
Reborn
Jessica Miller
This book is a work of fiction. Any references to historical events, real people, or real places are used factiously. Other names, characters, places, and events are products of the author’s imagination, any resemblance to actual events or places or persons, living or dead, is extremely coincidental.
Copyright © 2013 Jessica Miller
All rights reserved, including the right of reproduction in whole or in part in any form.
ISBN: 10 1492886564
ISBN-13:978142886563
DEDICATION
This book is dedicated to my Dad and my Mom. We may not always agree on things, but I wouldn’t be where I am if it weren’t for the both of you.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
First and foremost I would to thank my friends and family for their ongoing support. Thank you to Tiffany for always being the first one to buy my books the second they’re released. Thank you to Jenny D, Carrie, Jill, Missi, Shanna, Tara and Rose for your encouragement and endless excitement when I talk about a new book. Your kind words and support are forever in my heart. You give me the strength to keep going and never stop reaching for the stars.
Reborn
A Wanderers novel
2013
Chapter one
The sun was hot. It glistened off the beads of sweat that trickled down my skin. I sat up, staring out into the vast ocean before me. My skin was tingling. I basked in the glory of it all, soaking up as much of the scenery as I could.
I reached into my beach bag and pulled out suntan lotion. I gradually applied the lotion to my legs, face, and arms. “Want some help with that?” he asked, flashing me his cocky smile. I smiled back and handed him the bottle. He sat behind me and very delicately applied the cream to my shoulders and back. I relaxed, enjoying the feel of his hands on me. His touch was something that I never got tired of.
When he stopped, I had a feeling of disappointment. That quickly changed when he wrapped his arms around my waist. I leaned back into him and rested my head on his chest, feeling content. “I wish we could stay here forever,” I said as I dug my toes in the sand.
“I know, but we can't,” Tristan said solemnly.
“Why not? Why can't we?” I asked, desperate to stay here forever. I turned to him, my
eyes pleading for an explanation as to why he would want to leave this paradise.
He rubbed his thumb over my pouty lip before he replaced it with a gentle kiss. “Because we can't,” he sighed, knowing how soon this would end. I moved in closer, wanting to feel his soft lips again. “I love you,” he whispered. I pulled back and smiled, looking into his beautiful blue eyes. I opened my mouth to tell him I loved him too, but before I had the chance, everything disappeared. My whole world went dark and all I could see was black. I blinked a few times trying to adjust my eyes to my current surroundings. When I opened them, the only thing I saw was a plain, white ceiling above me. The same plain, white ceiling I've been staring at for the past month and a half.
I sighed, kicking off the covers. Ginger grumbled, not happy about being buried by the blanket. “Sorry girl,” I said, patting her head. I looked at the clock on my night stand. It was nine a.m. My eyes moved over to the pictures sitting next to my alarm clock. Pictures of friends I would never see again. Loved ones that were taken away from me because of who I was. I hastily wiped away the tears from my cheek and took down all the pictures, stuffing them in a drawer. I crawled back in to bed and pulled the covers up over my head.
Ginger nudged me with her nose, whimpering in my ear. I drew the covers back to glare at her. She crooked her head to the side, staring at me with her big brown eyes. I tried tugging the covers back up over my head but she just pawed at them and kept whimpering. “What do you want?” I snapped. Ginger lied back down, laying her head on her paws, giving me an, 'I'm sorry' look. The look on her face was enough to make me feel bad for snapping. All she wanted was a little attention.
I exhaled, patting the spot next to me. She slowly scooted her way closer. I scratched behind her ears, which caused her to roll over so I could scratch her belly. “I'm sorry for snapping. You're probably hungry, aren't you?” Ginger jumped up and licked my face. “I'll take that as a yes.”
I forced myself out of bed and headed down stairs to the kitchen where I found Danni and my mom. The room grew silent the moment I stepped foot onto the cold tile floor. “Good morning sweetheart, you hungry?” my mom asked as she quickly swiped a sponge over the counter, trying to appear busy.
I fed Ginger, and then I dragged my feet back up the stairs to my room.
Returning home was hard. I knew once I came back that meant what happened was real. I would have to accept that Josie and Tristan really were gone and were never coming back. They were now just two more names on a list of people I loved that Jack had taken away from me. Jack, the rogue vampire who killed people I cared about just to get my powers. Powers that I never knew existed until my parents were forced to tell me the truth of what I was, a half-human half-vampire princess. I had to admit the part about being a half-vampire was pretty cool, but when you add a tiara on top of that, no thank you.
I didn't want any of this. If I could take it all back and just be human I would. The worst part of it all is that I remember that night back in Vermont as if it were yesterday. The fight between Cadence and Tristan that caused her to lose her life. The fight between Jack and Tristan and then Jack and I. All these memories were permanently planted in my head and stuck on instant replay.
I spent the first few weeks blaming my parents. I argued that if they would have told me who I was from the beginning, all of this could have been prevented. I would have known Cadence and Jack were rogues. I would have never befriended him or joined that stupid sorority. I would have done a lot of things differently and I would have known how to protect myself. They swore to me up and down that knowing the truth wouldn't have mattered. It would have just put me in potential risk of more danger. The only thing they managed to convince me of was that this was all my fault. It was my own stupidity for being naive. If I hadn't been so closed off, Tristan and I could have had something more. He would still be here and I would still be with him.
Tristan.
My heart wept every time I thought of him. There wasn’t a single day when he didn’t cross my mind. I'm not going to lie, in the beginning, our relationship was pretty rocky. I guess the best way to describe it would be that our relationship was a one way street and I was running the wrong way. I loved him. I loved him more than I ever loved anyone. Now he was gone, ripped from this world way too soon.
I was told his memorial service was private, family only, which I was happy to hear. I didn't think I would have been able to handle it. Josie's funeral was hard enough. I couldn't recall much from that day, but the little bits and pieces I did remember I wanted to forget.
I remember standing by her grave thinking, “today is the day I bury my best friend and today is the day I watch Josie’s little brother say goodbye to his sister.”
After the service, her parents invited everyone to come by the house. I hid in the shadows, away from everyone. I spent very little time engaging with people. The rare moments when I wasn't numb, I would wander around aimlessly. At one point, I wandered all the way down to the end of the hall to Jake's bedroom. I found him alone, on his bed, with his head hung low.
I had slowly made my way into his room and sat down next to him on his bed. “You know Josie loved you very much,” I said, hoping in some way that that might comfort him. He nodded, almost robotic. “Here, I have something for you.” I reached behind me, in my purse, where I was holding Jake's favorite stuffed penguin that he let Josie borrow.
“I don't want him. You can have him,” he said with tears in his eyes, making my heart break.
“Why not,” I asked. “I thought he was your favorite?”
“He was...but not anymore.”
“How come?”
“He was supposed to keep Josie safe, but he didn't,” he said, bowing his head. It took everything I had not to break down and cry.
I couldn't bear to see him so upset. So I came up with a small white lie to make him feel better. “Well, you see Jake, he did keep her safe. When they were together. But a friend was looking after him for Josie that night so he was keeping someone else safe,” I said, holding my breath and hoping he bought it.
“Really?” he sat up.
“Really,” I said, holding the penguin out to him.
He hesitated for a minute, then took the penguin, and held him tightly in his arms. I wrapped my arms around both of them. “Ella?”
“Yes Jake?”
“Will you still come over and see me?”
“Of course I will,” I said, giving him a kiss on top of his head. After that we both just sat there for a while, taking comfort in each other, in silence.
When I reached my room I climbed back into bed only to discover I had a few texts. One of them was from Dixon telling me he would be in the area and we should get together. I ignored it not wanting to see anybody. The other text was from Billy, Tristan's best friend.
In Scotland. Nothing yet.
I deleted the texts and turned off my phone, not wanting to be disturbed. I lied back down and stared up at the plain, white ceiling. Reading Billy's text took me back to when I was still in Vermont. I had to stay until my dad finished cleaning up the mess Cadence and Jack left behind. It was a rough couple of weeks, but I lasted by concentrating on helping Billy get better.
Billy had survived the attack against Jack leaving him hospitalized for a few weeks. I visited him every day I could until I had to return home. And every day he swore to me that as soon as he was well he was going to seek revenge on Jack for what he did to Tristan and Josie. He told me he would not rest until he killed him. I begged him not to, but there was no convincing him otherwise.
On the last day, before I had to return home, I went to visit Billy one more time. When I got to his room, I was too late. He was already gone. I saw him at Josie's funeral. He was standing in the back of the crowd, but by the time I got the chance to go talk to him, he disappeared. That was the last I saw him. I would get letters or a text every now and then letting me know of his progress. From what I could tell he wasn't any closer to finding Jack than my father and his crew was.
I haven't seen or talked to anyone since Josie's funeral. The McNaughton's decided to take some time off and get away. My dad told them to take all the time they needed and not to worry. Xander would help him with the business until Mr. McNaughton was ready to come back to work.
Since returning, I basically spent every day in my room. I closed myself off from the world outside. My parents tried to get me to go to counseling again, but I refused. No amount of talking was going to change what happened. In less than a year I had lost my boyfriend, Kyle, my best friend, and the first guy I ever truly loved to a crazy vampire who was still on the loose. I find out I’m half-human half-vampire with powers that I didn't even know how to use. My family was part of the vampire royal court and I'm supposed to take over for my dad in just a few years.
Yes, today was just another day in the life of Ella McCallister.
I was starting to believe I was a curse, doomed to have anyone in my presence harmed. I thought about leaving and getting away for a while, but I couldn't even if I wanted to. I was on house arrest according to my dad. I wasn't allowed to go anywhere without at least five guardians. He claimed it was just a precaution until they caught Jack. I had a feeling this wasn't something that was going to change, even if they caught Jack.