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    The Changing Light at Sandover

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      DJ.

      It’s not fair—what should I have said?

      Mich.

      YOU MADAME, IF OUR SHY BROTHER TOUCHED YOUR FOOT WITH COLD, WHAT WOULD YOUR VOICE THEN BE?

      MM.

      ICY. I SEE.

      Mich.

      SO OUR SCHOOL, MY LORDS, WILL BE ZEN & PLATO, & OF ALL DISCIPLINE HUMAN & HEAVENLY. A FREE SCHOOL, AND DAILY:

      ONE HOUR BEFORE THE LIGHT SHALL FAIL

      FOR TEN SUNCYCLES OUR FIRST COURSE WILL RUN

      ICILY SPLUTTERINGLY PEALINGLY GRATINGLY ON.

      HAIL, MY FELLOW & BELOVED STUDENTS, HAIL!

      —Leaving us exhausted. No, not Wystan:

      MY DEARS! IF LETTERS G & K ARE TWINS

      PHONETICALLY, WHO INHERITS EARTH?

      More riddles? ONE M, 2 E’S & KABRIEL:

      THE MEEK Oh come now! IS IT LESSON ONE?

      DAZZLING TO SET FORTH INITIALLY

      THE WHOLE DESIGN I can’t believe— U’LL SEE

      AS WE ENFANTS SAW THE SHY BROTHER. FAR

      CRY FROM THE ANGEL OF ANNUNCIATION

      TO THIS WALLFELLING TRUMPET BLAST…SHALL I?

      Can you? AS WE STOOD BY U WINCING WAITING

      MAMAN IN FRILLED BLUE HOUSECOAT RATHER LIKE

      COUSINE DOLA IN FT LAUDERDALE

      SAW A WEE BLUE FLAME A PILOT LIGHT

      Wait, we’re both convulsed by poor old Dola—

      NO LAUGHING MATTER WE STOOD IN A SHEET OF FLAME:

      DOLA IN HELL A BOSCH THRU ROARING FIRE

      THE SHY ONE’S VOICE LICKED HISSING OUT AT US

      THEN AT THE SOUND OF MICHAEL’S WHIPPING HIGHER

      FLED & WHEN U LET THE LIGHT IN HUDDLED

      IN YR COLD HEARTH No color, Michael said.

      CALL IT RED THE DARKROOM MASK OF BLACK

      Shape? Features? NONE BUT 1000S WRITHED IN IT

      DJ: Oh great! And there’s no turning back?

      ONE THING MY DEARS: IT HAD NOT COME FOR US.

      ANOTHER THING: THE GAMES OF EARTH & SEA!

      NOW THAT WAS FUN I MUST SAY

      SO SPEAKS THE ETERNAL

      PUBLIC SCHOOLBOY JM: Maman didn’t

      Like being tossed in air? ON A SEAL’S NOSE?

      ENOUGH MY CHILDREN LET US SAVE OUR SHAKEN

      WITS FOR WHAT THESE LESSONS WILL DISCLOSE

      *

      Moving, as we’ve done since Ephraim, from

      Romance to Ritual, and from the black

      Fustian void of Mirabell, against which

      At most one actor strutting in costume

      Tantalized us with effects to come,

      And the technician of the dark switchboard

      Tone by tone tried out his rainbow chord;

      Now, with light flooding auditorium

      (Our room, seen from the far side of the mirror)

      And stage alike, why need we—just because

      It “happened” that way—wait till end of scene

      For Wystan and Maria’s mise en scène?

      Why not now and then incorporate

      What David and I don’t see (and they do)

      Into the script? Italics can denote

      Their contribution. So—ready or not:

      The First Lessons: 1

      Scene: The schoolroom, once the nursery,

      At Sandover, that noble rosebrick manor

      Wystan evoked in Mirabell, Book 9.

      The name is a corruption of the French

      Saintefleur, or the Italian Santofior—

      An English branch of that distinguished tree

      Through whose high leaves light pulses and whose roots

      Rove beyond memory. The schoolroom, then:

      Blackboard wall, a dais, little desks

      Rorschach’d with dull stains among naively

      Gouged initials—MM, WHA,

      And others. Star-map, globe and microscope.

      A comfy air of things once used and used.

      However, (since this room is both itself

      And, with the sly economy of dream,

      An entrance hall in Athens (Yes, we’re back

      Downstairs. It’s cooler here. A frosted-glass

      Door opens from the white-hot street. Inside,

      Our things: pictures, dining table, walls

      Painted this year to match the terracotta,

      Almost life-size lady Tony rescued

      From a doomed balustrade downtown; who now,

      Apple in hand for Teacher, graces a corner;

      Under whose smiling supervision sit

      Two human figures growing used to it))

      Real and Ideal study much as we

      —Good luck to them! compatibility.

      Dormer windows overlook the moat,

      The maze, the gardens, paddock where a lonely

      Quadruped is grazing. Round the whole,

      Which seems so vast and is not, a high hedge

      Stands for the isolating privilege

      Of Learning—as we’ll all have felt acutely

      By summer’s end. Beyond it can be seen,

      Faces uplifted to our quarantine,

      A gathering of tiny figures: friends

      From the Bureaucracy. That tarnished blur

      Like smoke at view’s end, into which they go

      Come dusk, hides (one might think) the ghastly semi-

      Detached ‘conditions’ of their suburb—though

      On fine days clearance comes and, ecstasy!

      The Greenwood stretches long miles to the Sea

      And only when a door is felt to slam

      Does this whole setting shudder in its frame.

      Now from downhill—the monastery—ring

      Bells. Bells ring. The ceiling seems to rise

      As voices, booming, indistinct, are heard.

      Enter the Brothers. Not now in baroque

      Regalia. They have left this outdoor gear

      Properly in the cloakroom, and appear

      To screen us round, primary silhouettes,

      Dismantlings of an image that well might,

      In vivid depth, be more than we could bear.

      Only Michael, the photographer,

      Remains what he first was—a flesh of light

      Engendering theirs. Correction: the Shy One

      Glows with an infra-menace all his own.

      Mich.

      OUR GABRIEL OUR SENIOR BROTHER DOTH GIVE WAY

      AND MUTELY GRANTS TO AIRY MICHAEL SWAY,

      YET IN OUR CLASSROOM EACH WILL HAVE HIS SAY.

      O HAIL & CHEERS ON SUCH A CLOUDY DAY!

      WHA.

      QUITE NICE, SIR, QUITE!

      Mich.

      AS SEARCH FOR ENLIGHTENMENT IS OUR OBJECT, LET ME POSE A FIRST, AFFIRMATIVE TEXT:

      THE MOST INNOCENT OF IDEAS IS THE IDEA THAT INNOCENCE IS DESTROYED BY IDEAS.

      SENIOR SCRIBE, BRIGHT EYES?

      WHA.

      SIR, GRANTED A DESIGN, WHAT INNOCENCE

      COULD EVER BE?

      Mich.

      MADAME?

      MM.

      (Suavely) WHAT WAS THE IDEA?

      Raph.

      I EARTH SAY, UNDER THE MASK OF INNOCENCE WHAT WAS THE VEIN OF IDEA?

      Emm.

      I WATER SAY, WHAT TIDES OF IDEA WASHED INNOCENCE EVER CLEANER?

      Gabr.

      I GABRIEL SAY, WHAT STANDS WHEN ALL IDEAS LIE RUIND? IS INNOCENCE FORMING A NEW IDEA?

      Mich.

      SPEAK, MORTALS.

      DJ.

      (Gulps) By its nature, innocence recurs?

      JM
    .

      My turn? Oh Lords, I find it hard to have

      Ideas while busily transcribing yours.

      Mich.

      THAT NOT SO INNOCENTLY SAID! DISCUSSION!

      MM.

      HAS OUR GOD BIOLOGY EVER SET MUCH STORE

      BY INNOCENCE? I SAY NO.

      Mich.

      EXPAND, MADAME.

      MM.

      SHALL WE TAKE THOSE HAUNTING CENTAURS: LET

      LOOSE AT FIRST ON INNOCENT FLAT FIELDS,

      IMMORTAL, PASTORAL, UNASSUMING OR

      SO I ASSUME. WAS THAT NOT INNOCENCE? YET…

      Mich.

      SCRIBE?

      WHA.

      SIR, SO WOMANLY!

      I SEE ATLANTIS AS IDEA, A FIRST

      PASTURE TO INNOCENCE, AND RAPED BY IT.

      Mich.

      RAPHAEL, YOU WERE THERE, TELL US. WHEN OUR FATHER BROUGHT YOU FORTH AS TWIN TO THE SEA,

      WERE YOU IDEA? INNOCENT OF IDEA?

      Raph.

      O MICHAEL, WHAT MEMORIES! CAN I REMEMBER?

      HE LEANED OVER ME AND, YES, SAID: THINK. AND SO I WELL KNEW I WAS A LIVING THING.

      MY TWIN SURROUNDED ME. WE WAITED, YES. WAS IT NOT SO, BROTHER EMMANUEL?

      Emm.

      AND I THE EXTINGUISHER OF THE FIRST BURNING IDEA FLUNG FROM THE PANTHEON OF SPACE

      WAS SUMMONED BY A VOICE: ‘COOL THIS ROUNDED IDEA!’

      Mich.

      AND SO? SPEAK, CHAOS, OUR SHY ONE.

      Gabr.

      I AM GOD’S SCION AND HIS NATURE. HE, BALANCER OF CHAOS & CREATION.

      THESE, O EASILY MAY THEY NOT BE

      CHAOS: INNOCENCE? CREATION: IDEA?

      FIRSTBORN WAS CHAOS, THAT I KNOW!

      & WHEN THE STEAMING BALL PEERD THROUGH IT I FELL BACK ONE STEP AS OUR FATHER CALLD LIGHT! LIGHT!

      AND MY BROTHER MICHAEL SHOWD US THE WORLD. SAY, SLY MICHAEL

      His red glow whitening with intensity.

      WHY DID YOU TAKE AS TEXT THIS?

      WHA.

      (Profiting by the hush) ONE LAST ROUND: SIN?

      Mich.

      A MISTAKE. I, I, I MICHAEL DID NOT MEAN SIN, POET!

      WHA.

      YET, SIR, SHOULD WE NOT GET DOWN TO IT?

      (Isn’t the question, whether innocence

      Is lost to guilt or to experience?

      Michael—who knows, I daresay, or don’t dare—

      Leaves it hanging in his blandest air.)

      Mich.

      WE SEE A BALL OF COOLING WATERS, THEN AN EMERGING LANDSCAPE. SO FAR, SO GOOD.

      LOOK NOW, ARE THEY NOT FOURLEGGED MAMMALS OF IDEA ROAMING IN WHAT MADAME CALLS INNOCENCE?

      THEN CAIN & ABEL: IS AMONG THEM THE PERFECTION OF IDEA GONE AWRY?

      WHA.

      SIR, WAS IT NOT THE CHICKEN OF IDEA

      INSIDE THAT INNOCENT COOLING EGG YOU CANDLED?

      Mich.

      POET?

      JM.

      You candled Earth—what an idea!

      Mich.

      HAND?

      DJ.

      Well, if idea’s destructive, then

      Chaos would run things. That’s unthinkable.

      Mich.

      AH I HAVE A FRIEND! I SEE THE HAND SHADING ME FROM MY SHY BROTHER. ENOUGH FOR ONE DAY.

      I WANTED OUR SCHOOL TO BEGIN WITH THE PRIMAL SCENE,

      THE SPLITTING OF THOSE HOARY DOGMAS NONE,

      NOT EVEN I, CAN YET SHED LIGHT UPON.

      WHA.

      SIR, WHO CAN?

      Mich.

      LOOK UP, LOOK UP! WE BEGIN! WE FIND GOD!

      Exeunt Michael and his Brothers.

      WELL!

      Well? WE’LL HUDDLE IN THE DORM TONIGHT

      OVER HOT CHOCOLATE If you’re perplexed

      Just think of us! I THINK THAT MICHAEL’S TEXT

      (Says Wystan after giving stage directions)

      PROVOCATIVE PER SE, MAY BE THE ONE

      GREAT SUBJECT WE SHALL TACKLE It was the

      Original theme; Chaos, Biology,

      Those ruling opposites. WAS IT FRATRICIDE

      THAT PUTTING DOWN OF CHAOS? Yes, is Chaos

      Gabriel? If so, he’s anti-Life

      Or Lord of Antimatter—worse! IT’S ALL

      AS THE BROCHURE ANNOUNCED A ZENNISH BUSINESS

      A SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS DJ: Hard to come

      Up with useful ideas—I felt like a freshman

      In a graduate seminar. I SHD FANCY THEY

      WERE TESTING JUST THAT You and Maria passed.

      ALAS WE WERE MORE PREPARED NOW (MAY I SAY)

      IT WILL GROW LESS INFORMAL THEY WILL LET YOU

      OFF THE (M) HOOK

      NOT I! ENFANT U GUESSED IT

      GABRIEL IS A KIND OF RELATIVE

      HE & I’VE FED ON THE SAME DIET

      & SO

      IT’S A CLOSED CIRCLE A BOCCACCIO

      WE 8 AMID TIME’S HOWL SIT TELLING TALL

      TALES TO AMUSE & AMAZE & WITH LUCK INSTRUCT US ALL

      *

      The First Lessons: 2

      Bells. Enter the Brothers, as before.

      Mich.

      SPEAK, BROTHER EARTH.

      Raph.

      SO, MY BITS OF BURIED TREASURE, I HAVE A CAVE,

      A POCKET IN A MOUNTAIN CHAIN I LOVE FOR ITS VERY AGEDNESS: MY FIRST WRINKLE, SO TO SPEAK.

      The room has darkened. We can read ourselves

      Where spines of ancient volumes gleam on shelves.

      NOW IN THIS CAVE, SO FAR MY OWN, I LOOK FOR REFRESHMENT OF MY WEIGHTY NATURE,

      & OUT OF WINKING STONE SEE WALLS PAINTED BY THE VERY INNOCENCE OF GOD’S DARLING, INFANT MAN

      & WHAT DID HE PORTRAY? WHY, HIMSELF, HIS CHILD, HIS WOMAN GIVING UP TO HIM THAT CHILD!

      O THE BEAUTY OF THOSE INNOCENT IMAGES LIT BY AN IDEA OF MAN

      KNOWING HIMSELF, THERE IN A CAVE, IN A CHASTE WOMB OF HISTORY.

      THIS, MY BROTHERS, MY SHADES, & MY DEAR HUMANS, REFRESHES ME.

      Mich.

      PROCEED, RAPHAEL, ELIJAH. O IS HE NOT WITTY?

      Raph.

      IT DOES PROCEED

      OUT OF ATLANTIS, OUT OF GABRIEL’S FIRE, OUT OF THE CEASELESSLY THINKING MIND OF OUR FATHER,

      THIS VERY GREAT MAGIC GIVEN TO ONE CREATURE AT A TIME: THOUGHT.

      AND SO THE CAVE, AND SO THE CRANIUM FILLED WITH THE CHURN & THE BUILDING. AH MICHAEL!

      EVEN YOU CANNOT ENTER THERE, NO, NONE OF US FOUR, INTO THAT ROOM WHERE GOD’S DARLING HAS EVER RETREATED TO GATHER HIMSELF, TO PIT HIMSELF AGAINST US:

      CAVE AFTER CAVE STACKED UPON EACH OTHER, SKULL PILE & SKYSCRAPER,

      THE BONE HEAPS OF HUMAN THOUGHT THRUSTING UP, TRAPPED EVER YET EVER MASTER,

      O MICHAEL, HAS ANY OF US KNOWN SUCH SLAVERY, SUCH FREEDOM?

      INNOCENCE, MICHAEL? YOU & I, MY TWIN, OUR SENIOR SHY ONE, WE ARE INNOCENCE IN THE FACE OF MAN’S ENDEAVORS.

      THAT CAVE, THAT TREASURE HOUSE, HOW MY HOARY HEART WANTS IT LEFT UNDEFILED, UNCHASTENED!

      YET OUR FATHER HAS SAID: TELL THEM. AND WE OBEY.

      Mich.

      BROTHER EARTH, SO SERIOUS!

      LET US THINK OF THIS AS STEP TWO: FROM PRIMAL TIME & ATLANTIS TO EDEN & THE CAVE. YES.

      NOW FELLOW STUDENTS, WHO IS NEXT?

      The light, till now predominantly green,

      Pales to gently rippling aquamarine.

      Emm.

      STAKED IN MY SHALLOWS, WHAT? A FLEDGLING OF STORKS?

      AND FROM THESE SLIGHT SUPPORTS THEY GAZED INTO ME WHO HAD COME OUT OF ME,

      GAZED WITH THE CURIOUS LOOK A CHILD GIVES TO ITS MOTHER.

      JM.

      People st
    anding ankle-deep in water?

      Emm.

      POET, THEIR LONG GONE HOUSES: THE LAKEDWELLERS WHO FISHED IN ME.

      I WAS GIVING THEM SUCK. AH TWIN, THOSE INNOCENT NURSERY DAYS! OUT OF THE CAVES & BACK TO MOTHER’S HOUSE.

      WHY? THEIR CAVE INNOCENCE HAD RECEIVED ITS FIRST SHOCKING IDEA: FEAR OF EACH OTHER.

      DJ.

      They moved to water as we did, that year,

      To Stonington, away from the rat race.

      Like us, they meant to civilize themselves.

      Emm.

      AND TO PUT DISTANCE BETWEEN THEMSELVES.

      & YOU WOULD SAY, RAPHAEL, THAT THEIR STILTED ROOMS WERE BUT ANOTHER CAVE? I THINK NOT.

      I THINK THEY WERE LONGING, WHILE THERE WAS STILL TIME, STILL A CHANCE, TO ESCAPE THAT FEARFUL FORWARD MARCH.

      BACK TO OUR FISHLIFE, INNOCENT, CALM & DEEP! THEY KNEW, AH THEY KNEW!

      YES, BROTHERS, SHADES, MY OLD LAKEDWELLERS, YOU KNEW, YOU KNOW

      THE GRITTY HISTORY SINCE THEN IS ONLY A WASH AWAY FROM INNOCENCE,

      BUT SUCH A WASH!

      Mich.

      YOU UNDERSTAND, GABRIEL? YOU SEE NOW ON WHAT A NERVE I TOUCHED WHEN I TOOK MY TEXT?

      Gabr.

      I UNDERSTAND, YET LET’S GET ON WITH THE STORY.

      IT ENDS, AS WE FOUR KNOW AND THESE FOUR WILL. ON WITH IT, ON.

      Mich.

      ARE YOU AWARE, DEAR CHILDREN AND, YES, DEAR MASTERS (FOR WHEN MY FATHER CRIED LIGHT! LIGHT! I SPRANG INTO BEING

      AS YOUR SERVANT: STEDFAST SUN, STEDFAST DAWN

      SHINING ON THE MOUNTAIN, CALLING OUT: IT’S SAFE! IT’S SAFE! NIGHT, CHAOS, BACK! AND AT BREAK OF DAY

      THEY PEERED OUT OF THE CAVE, WE STARING EACH AT THE OTHER:

      SUN GOD & HIS MASTER, GETTING ON WITH IT) ARE YOU AWARE,

      The light by now a diamond clarity.

      MASTERS, BROTHERS AND YES, YOU, GABRIEL,

      AWARE THAT EARTH & WATER, THESE ARE INNOCENT NATURE,

      WHILE I, OH I, MUST BEAR THE BURDEN OF IDEAS?

      FOR IN REVEALING TO OUR FATHER THE PRIMAL GLOBE ON WHICH THE WHOLE PLAY WAS TO BE ACTED OUT,

      I WAS THE SWITCH, THE TAPPING STAFF, I IT WAS WHO THEN LIT UP THE PLAYERS ON THE STAGE,

      AND TWICE CHAOS RANG DOWN THE CURTAIN, AS HE WAITS TO DO AGAIN,

      AND AGAIN OUR GREAT DIRECTOR CALLING: CURTAIN UP! LIGHT! LIGHT!

      BEGAN THE PLAY AS LIGHT WEPT IN THE WINGS.

      JM.

      “Wept in the wings”—can I have got that right?

      Mich.

      AH YES, YOUNG SCRIBE. NEXT CHAOS, YOU WILL, WILL I SAY,

      EXPLAIN YOUR ROLE. AND NOW, EMMANUEL,

      WEEP ON OUR SCENE, FOR MY LIGHT IS DONE THIS DAY

     


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