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    The Changing Light at Sandover

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      SPECIES IS A (M) FOR US AS THE MYTHIC CENTAUR IS

      FOR ATLANTIS WAS THE NO ACCIDENT CLAUSE EVEN THEN

      IN OPERATION? DID GOD SEE THE CENTAURS’ USELESSNESS

      & GIVE THEM THE IDEA OF US?

            ACCIDENT 9: OR:

      GOD B, HOLDING THE CHARTER TO CREATE HIS OWN SYSTEM,

      KNOWING THAT HE MUST POPULATE IT WITH MANAGEABLE

      CREATURES ONLY, CLONED THE CENTAURS WITH THEIR OWN DESTRUCTION

      & CALLD US IN AS DECENT SHROUDMAKERS TO COVER THEM?

      And here the lines of argument converge.

      NO THEY END IN THE VAST O THE PANTHEON PLANND AS WELL

      INTO DIVIDED SAFENESSES?

      Viking I, its every instrument

      Agog, returns from Mars—no accident?

           DRAMATIC LESSONS MAY

      AWAIT MAN EVEN ON HIS PLANETS IS EARTH THE SINGLE

      EXPERIMENT OR ONE OF SEVERAL HYBRID SEEDLINGS?

      PERHAPS THE MOSES MYTH IS AN ANSWER: FOUND IN A STREAM

      Of flowing suns and stars—

      THE PRINCE AS FOUNDLING & EARTH? FOR AFTER BARREN EONS

      THE ? IS, DOES THE ROYAL BLOOD STILL FLOW IN EARTH’S VEINS?

            HIS TAIL OUTSPREAD

      MY DEARS BLUE GREEN & HIS EYES FLASHING RED

      THAT U MAY ASK THE 12 P/C I CAN SAY ONLY THIS:

      THE CENTAURS RAN A CONSTANT RACE ON THE SAME OVAL TRACK

      BUT MORTALITY ALLOWS FOR THE DIVINE TRANSLATION

      SO PLATO’S POWERS ARE FOREVER OUT AMONG THE 5

      & OTHERS (AS U KNOW) BUT THERE IS A FOLDER LABELD

      PLATO & ONE LABELD AKHNATON & THERE ARE GOLDEN

      CONTAINERS LABELD CLIO ERATO CALLIOPE

      & OF THESE 9 WE KNOW ONLY THE RUSHING OF THEIR WINGS

      Maria? ENFANTS? We thought you’d gone away.

      But no. Her discreet, black-clad presence, eyes

      Lowered while the menfolk theorize,

      Brings itself (skeptical? unmoved?) to say:

      HOW SATISFYING IT MUST BE, ALL THIS

      LINKAGE WITH THE WORK OF EONS LIKE

      FINDING ONESELF AMONG THE BULLRUSHES

      This frog here in my throat agrees. ONE KISS

      5.9

      GOD B THOUGHT TO DESTROY THE CENTAURS WITH FORESTS THIS PLAN

      THEY CIRCUMVENTED BY INVENTING US NOW MAN HAS MADE

      FORESTS OF HIS OWN KIND & FOR THIS ROUND BIOLOGY

      IS LETTING HIM (READ: OUR CLONING OF HIM) SOLVE THE PROBLEMS

      Short of disaster, are they solvable?

      INDEED

      Increase of population, of pollution—

      3 DECADES HENCE WE GLIMPSE FAIR GREEN ATLANTAN FIELDS

      That grim race our first teachers told us of

      Between Chaos and Mind—is the heat off?

      NECK & NECK BUT IF CHAOS WINS THE RACE WAS FIXD

      By?       GOD B

      So in a mere thirty years the trend

      Will be reversed? Green fields? Ah, my poor friend,

      Be realistic. Can you hope to wean

      Our time, in that short span, from its obscene

      Smokestack nipple? How are sea and air

      To purify themselves while man is there?

      DJ: I won’t be there. Just twenty-nine

      Years left…You know, he could have spared me that.

      ENFANT WORK OUT THE TOTAL IT BEATS MATT

      MY GRASP OF TIME IS IMPERFECT THE LAB IS SURE ONLY

      OF THE VOLUMES OF FORMULAS TO BE DEALT WITH THEIR BULK

      DIMINISHES IN THOSE AREAS WE INTERPRET AS

      3 DECADES AWAY THIS LESSENING IN COMPLEXITY

      SUGGESTED MY (M) GREEN GLIMPSES WE SEE NO MAJOR FOOD

      OR AIR PROBLEMS POP MAY INCREASE BY 2/3 BILLION BUT

      BEYOND THAT THE FORMULAS WD NEED TO BE REVISED &

      THEY ARE NOT. PERHAPS NATURE’S LITTLE LUSTFUL TRICKS WILL STOP

      BEING SO AMPLY REWARDED BY THE CHUCKLES OF BABES

      All thought by now receding, of what saves

      The day, or whose the footstep on our graves,

      DJ: Well, this No Accident clause, I can’t…

      JM: Of course you can’t. They’ve cloned you not to.

      OUR PLAGUE OF SUICIDES CAME FROM THE GERM OF ACCEPTANCE

      MAN IS NOT CLONED WITH AN ACCEPTING DENSITY THEREIN

      HIS POWER: HE RESISTS IS DJ NOT OUR STEADY HAND

      ON THE PLOW? WE NEED A HUSBANDMAN TO RESIST EARTH’S WEIGHT

      THE WASH OF WATER THE HILARITIES OF AIR & THE

      BURNING OF OUR FIRE

      DJ: Maria has accepted being used.

      I can’t, not yet.

           RESIST AWAY IT IS CHARMING

         JM: Your fear, my doubt

      Seem to amuse him, he who fleshed them out.

      STIFF UPPER LIP MY BOY PLAY’S GOING INTO

      NEW REHEARSALS USHERS AT THE DOOR

      WITH RAINCHECKS

        DJ CHER ENFANT COURAGE

      6

      She stood (wrote Jules Renard of the divine

      Sarah) in one place, letting the stair unwind

      Her profiles, eerily descending wand

      Of the still center, or its weathervane.

      Gone, she endured. Globes lit the banister’s

      Counterspiraling ascents of bronze

      As in remembrance Lalique’s cabochons

      Waxed and waned upon that brow of hers

      Like this pale purple atom (phosphorus)

      Periodic among satellites,

      Messengers, sugar chains and residues

      —Her memories of past performance? Cues?—

      Whereby the curtain on a triple thud

      Has risen. It’s the theatre in our blood.

      22.vii. Boston Museum of Science.

      Studying a model (2.5

      Cm. per angstrom) of the DNA

      Molecule—a single turn blown up

      Tall as a child. My ignorance reduced

      To jotting down—red, blue, black, yellow, white—

      Colors of the bit-player beads, the carbons

      And nitrogens all interlinked, on pins

      But letter-perfect, purines, pyrimidines,

      Minute intelligences that indwell

      The chromosome and educate the cell…

      Even grossly simplified, as here,

      It’s too much. Who by reference to this

      3-D Metro map’s infernal skeins

      And lattices could hope to find his way?

      Yet, strange to say, that’s just what everyone

      On Earth is promptly known for having done.

      Noon. In the hospital across the river

      David is wheeled up from surgery,

      Helped into bed—still numb from the waist down.

      Gaps in his sorry gown don’t quite conceal

      Streaks of dim, white-bandaged red. His gaze

      Lights on a face within mine. When he speaks

      Out comes the whisper of a little boy

      Woken and wrapped in quilts, carried outdoors

      Through branching dark, the milk of dream unwiped,

      To see a calf born or a comet’s passage.

      “I did dream,” he says now, after describing

      What he remembers of the operation

      (Done, not to strain his smoker’s heart,

      With local anesthetic). “There was this kind of

      Slow green climbing, and all round me lights

      Higher and higher…” Part of my last night’s

     
    Dream, an empty “court” or dim “dance floor”,

      Comes back: four squares, each one a tone of gray

      Lit from beneath and seen as from a plane,

      Composed a fifth that pulsed in the pitch-black terrain

      —Meaning what? Another day will tell.

      I press D’s hand. He babbles on. All’s well.

      6.1

      So well, in fact, that in eight days he’s home

      And vigorous enough to want to hear

      Sweet nothings from our peacock. O I FEAR

      YR DISAPPOINTMENT U ARE EARLY BIRDS

      MES CHERS WILL I SUFFICE? YR TAME CANARY?

      Disappointment, Ephraim? (Though he’s right

      We must not say so.) Never! AH THEN A STORY:

      ONE DAY WE SAT AT CAPRI ALL THE COURT

      ON A SOUTH TERRACE WHEN SUDDENLY THE PAVEMENT

      SHOOK & THE CYNICAL AMONG US THOUGHT

      HO HUM ANOTHER EARTHQUAKE BUT TIBERIUS

      EVER SUPERSTITIOUS CALLED FOR FOWL

      SACRIFICE & THE PRIESTS WERE CHANTING AWAY

      WHEN FROM FAUSTINA CAME A PIERCING CRY:

      RISEN ABOVE SICILIA IN THE SKY

      A GREAT BLACK CLOUD WAS SPREADING RIGHT & LEFT

      LONG RAGGED WINGS & IN THE CENTER 2

      RED SPOTS LIKE EYES APPEARED IT WAS A BAT.

      CHRIST HAD BEEN CRUCIFIED Now why, I wonder,

      Are you telling us this little story?

      I BELIEVE MES CHERS IN PEACOCKS FROM THAT DAY

      TIBERIUS DECLINED NOR DID YR E

      MORE THAN A WEEK SURVIVE HIS LUNACY

      It was then he had you killed? MURDER ALONE

      CALMED HIM IN HIS FITS THE SAYING WAS

      HE HAD BAT FEVER But you died A.D.

      36, while Christ— ANOTHER CALENDAR

      Well, our bats don’t cause fever, not so far.

      THEY ARE I KNOW THERE4 OF THE MESSENGER STRAIN

      How much you do know. Over and over again,

      Wine-sweetened lips, and eyes half shut beneath

      Conviviality’s unfading wreath,

      Ephraim, you’ve understood what’s going on

      Better than we. A SLAVE NEEDS ALL HIS WIT

      LIFE HERE BELOW THE STAIRS DEPENDS ON IT

      Now Wystan. He’s been thinking, as have I,

      About THE UNCLONED LIVES THAT TOUCH OUR OWN

      YR STRATO & MY LAST FRIEND BOTH SUCH DEARS

      (DJ interrupts: Has Chester been reborn?

      NOT YET STILL BOUND UP WITH HIS MINIWOP)

      FORSTER HAD THIS TOUCHING THEORY

      THAT GOD WANTS EDUCATED HIGHCLASS QUEERS

      TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE & TO HAVE ONE MADE

      To kindle sparks within the dumb physique

      Of terracotta & BE WARMED WHY ARE

      WE (TO EXTEND THAT) IN THIS SEMINAR?

      3 OF US IN MM’S EUPHEMISM

      COMME CA & SHE (THOUGH FEMALE) NOT IN LIFE

      MUCH DRAWN TO ROLES OF MOTHER MISTRESS WIFE,

      WHY ARE WE 4 TOGETHER LISTENING?

      A) 3 WRITERS & MM RATHER A MUSE

      B) EXCEPT AS MESSENGERS WE HAVE NO

      COMMITMENT TO A YOUNGER GENERATION

      C) A SURPRISE: MM’S 1ST LOVE WAS MUSIC!

      FAILING HER ENTRANCE TO THE ODEON

      SHE GAVE IT UP Good heavens, we all thought

      She couldn’t tell Fats Waller from Fauré.

      As for us, while I, on a good day,

      Limp through my Satie or a Bach gavotte,

      DJ (at twelve in Hollywood) attacked

      That thing by Grieg; took Composition with

      Big-timers like Schoenberg and Hindemith

      While still in college. MUSIC MORE ABSTRACT

      THAN METAPHOR MUST BE THE BOND THAT LINKS US

      Maman, why so secretive? I PREFERRED

      EFFECTS UNSTUDIED INDEED SCARCELY HEARD

      AS ONCE WHEN 3 COINCIDENTAL SOUNDS

      A WIND BELL IN THE GARDEN A DOOR CHIME

      & THE HIGH CRY OF A SEAGULL MADE ONE FLEETING

      TONIC CHORD IS MUSIC NOT LIKE TIME

      RETOLD? LIKE THE NO ACCIDENT MOTIF

      A WAY OF TELLING THAT INSPIRES BELIEF?

      WD AN UNMUSICAL MIND TAKE IN THE PEACOCK?

      THE MESSENGER THE MESSAGE THESE RING BELLS

      I ANSWER TO ASK NEXT TIME ABOUT CELLS

      Why? I DONT KNOW IT CAME TO ME TO SAY

      DJ (tired out): Tomorrow afternoon

      We’ll have our peacock back. MES CHERS Yes, Ephraim?

      NOTHING I KEEP PINNING FEATHERS ON

      BUT NOBODY NOTICES CALL YR OLD FRIENDS SOON

      ONE IN PARTICULAR BLONDEST OF THE SCRIBES

      Hans! YES THRILLED AS WE ALL ARE BY YR VIBES

      6.2

      THINK DJ

      The white, blue-flowered ginger-pot. Sunshine

      Filling with tracery its inward oval,

      He sees a…ladder—wait, now more comes back—

      THE LADDER OF YR SPINE

      DJ: My hips went dead. A second needle

      Numbed me to the toes. I’d been screened off

      With pale green, and I felt this weightlessness

      And followed it. There was a ladder whose

      Lower rungs, as I climbed, just kept dissolving,

      And at the top was light, were colored lights—

      What did you say to me about the lights?

           WE SHOWD U JM’S

      VISION OF THE ATOM’S HEART

      JM: The four lit squares that made a fifth

      Almost musical— DJ DWELT IN EACH, RID OF

      HIS PAIN, STILLD IN HIS LUSTS & FEARS: THE RED OF PURE POWER

      THE PALE BLUE OF ITS REASONABLE USE THE YELLOW LIGHT

      OF GENERATION & THE GREEN THAT WILL BE PARADISE

      JM SAW THIS AS A PRINTOUT IN BLACK & WHITE DJ

      WE PLACED WITHIN IT U WERE BOTH SENT TO THE HEART OF LIFE

        DJ: My task

      Was to bring home the colors to us all.

      FOR US MES ENFANTS IT WAS LIKE A BALL

      COSTUMES & DANCING

          OR MY DEARS A MASQUE

      INDEED WE PROMISED U ENTERTAINMENT & U GOT IT

      AS ON A STAGE VIEWD FROM A MOUNTAINTOP WE FROLICKD IN

      THE 4 COLORS OR LIKE CELLS UPON A MICROSCOPE FLOOR

      TO SILENT MUSIC & UNSPOKEN WORDS OUR MASQUE CALMD U:

      WE ARE THE DRUG & THE AWAKENING

      JM: Why not the cure as well—a wand of

      Healing fire to save D from the knife?

               MM’S LESSON

      & IT IS PERHAPS THE MAIN LESSON OF THIS SEMINAR:

      NO UNNECESSARY DOSES OF OUR STRONG MEDICINE

      The tone has darkened suddenly. I strain

      To think. What lesson? What strong medicine?

      RADIUM COBALT U DID NOT REALIZE YESTERDAY

      WHY SHE IS WITH US?

      Because of music, Wystan said.

        NO: SHE IS ONE OF US

               The water,

      Yes, in our elemental union, and—?

                     ONE OF US

      DJ. What is he saying? I can’t quite…

      MES ENF

       —as light breaks. Horrifying light

      Whose rays our union absorbs. We’re back

      At Square One. Presence of no color. Black.

      DJ: Ah I could kill them! JM: It’s

      Not their fault. DJ: So they
    say—those shits!

      JM: Her months spent back and forth from bed

      To godforsaken box of buzzing lead…

      That’s why the plant world’s taking her. She hasn’t

      Any soul left—she’s no longer human!

      ENFANTS DJ: She said she’d see us through

      These talks. She had no choice. She knew. She knew.

      WILL U FORGIVE MY SMALL CHARADE? PART TRUE

      PART THE DESIGN I SHALL HOWEVER BE

      ALLOWED (NO LITTLE THING) THE ANGEL VOICES

      THANK GOD FOR GARDENS INCIDENTALLY:

      MY GREEN SHIELD SAVED ENOUGH OF ME FOR U

      My face begins to quiver. Oh Maman—

      POSO AKOMA (her last words, “How much more?”)

      I CROAKED NOT TO POOR LOUROS BUT THE RAYS:

      HOW MUCH MORE WD THEY TAKE FROM ME B4…

      (This is the point, I later tell DJ,

      When Dante would have fainted dead away.

      But, cloned with minerals, heartsick, eyes red,

      I see no way out but to forge ahead.)

      AH TEARS DEAR DEAR ENFANT THEY COMFORT U

      & MAKE MY OLD BLACK DRESS QUITE CLINGING & SEXY

      DJ: She used to have a “wet look” raincoat.

      DO ADMIT THE ELEMENT OF CHIC

      But now, you look like Them? MAIS QUELLE HORREUR

      DJ DO U WANT ME TO FLOUNCE OUT OF HERE

      JM: You said four stars were in your hair—

      Are they still? SHALL WE BE SERIOUS

      I am serious! WELL THESE LESSONS THEY

      SEEM TO BE IMPOR O J J J

      THINK: NONE BUT THE FOOL IS PITIABLE

      THIS LIKE DJ’S NEEDLE IS THE BLESSED

      RELIEF AT LAST TO LEAVE THE WORLD OF BLIND

      IF CHARMING FOOLS WE LOVED (& WERE) BEHIND

      MY DEAR JM CONFRERE SHE IS RIGHT U KNOW?

      NOW U MUST ASK HER QUESTION ABOUT CELLS

      CALL BACK OUR PEACOCK AS B4 HE FLEES

      AT THE ONSET OF FEELING WE WD SEEM

      TO INTRODUCE OUR ELEMENT OF TIME

      WHICH CHOKES HIM IS TIME THEN THE SOIL OF FEELING?

      SO ODD Stop talking, Wystan, can’t you, please?

      FIRST MAY I SAY? THAT DANCING IN THE MASQUE

      IT DAWNED (ON ME AT LEAST) THAT WE WERE BEING

      EACH IN TURN STRIPPED REDUCED TO ESSENCES

      JOINED TO INFINITY THAT’S ALL NOW ASK

     


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