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    Jimmy's Blues


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      Copyright

      JIMMY’S BLUES. Copyright © 1983, 1985. by James Baldwin. All rights reserved.

      Printed in the United States of America. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles or reviews. For information, address St. Martin’s Press. 175 Fifth Avenue. New York. N.Y. 10010

      Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publicalion Data

      Baldwin, James.

      Jimmy’s blues : selected poems / James Baldwin

      p. cm.

      ISBN 0-312-05104-2 (paperback)

      ISBN 0-312-44247-5 (hardcover!

      I. Title.

      [PS3552.A45J5 1990]

      811’.54—dc20

      90-37243

      CIP

      First U.S. Paperback Edition: December 1990

      10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

      Staggerlee wonders

      1

      I always wonder

      what they think the niggers are doing

      while they, the pink and alabaster pragmatists,

      are containing

      Russia

      and defining and re-defining and re-aligning

      China,

      nobly restraining themselves, meanwhile,

      from blowing up that earth

      which they have already

      blasphemed into dung:

      the gentle, wide-eyed, cheerful

      ladies, and their men,

      nostalgic for the noble cause of Vietnam,

      nostalgic for noble causes,

      aching, nobly, to wade through the blood of savages -

      ah - !

      Uncas shall never leave the reservation,

      except to purchase whisky at the State Liquor Store.

      The Panama Canal shall remain forever locked:

      there is a way around every treaty.

      We will turn the tides of the restless

      Caribbean,

      the sun will rise, and set

      on our hotel balconies as we see fit.

      The natives will have nothing to complain about,

      indeed, they will begin to be grateful,

      will be better off than ever before.

      They will learn to defer gratification

      and save up for things, like we do.

      Oh, yes. They will.

      We have only to make an offer

      they cannot refuse.

      This flag has been planted on the moon:

      it will be interesting to see

      what steps the moon will take to be revenged

      for this quite breathtaking presumption.

      This people

      masturbate in winding sheets.

      They have hacked their children to pieces.

      They have never honoured a single treaty

      made with anyone, anywhere.

      The walls of their cities

      are as foul as their children.

      No wonder their children come at them with knives.

      Mad Charlie man’s son was one of their children,

      had got his shit together

      by the time he left kindergarten,

      and, as for Patty, heiress of all the ages,

      she had the greatest vacation

      of any heiress, anywhere:

      Golly-gee, whillikens, Mom, real guns!

      and they come with a real big, black funky stud, too:

      oh, Ma! he’s making eyes at me!

      Oh, noble Duke Wayne,

      be careful in them happy hunting grounds.

      They say the only good Indian

      is a dead Indian,

      but what I say is,

      you can’t be too careful, you hear?

      Oh, towering Ronnie Reagan,

      wise and resigned lover of redwoods,

      deeply beloved, winning man-child of the yearning Republic,

      from diaper to football field to Warner Brothers

      sound-stages,

      be thou our grinning, gently phallic, Big Boy of all the ages!

      Salt peanuts, salt peanuts,

      for dear hearts and gentle people,

      and cheerful, shining, simple Uncle Sam!

      Nigger, read this and run!

      Now, if you can’t read,

      run anyhow!

      From Manifest Destiny

      (Cortez, and all his men

      silent upon a peak in Darien)

      to A Decent Interval,

      and the chopper rises above Saigon,

      abandoning the noble cause

      and the people we have made ignoble

      and whom we leave there, now, to die,

      one moves, With All Deliberate Speed,

      to the South China Sea, and beyond,

      where millions of new niggers

      await glad tidings!

      No, said the Great Man’s Lady,

      I’m against abortion.

      I always feel that’s killing somebody.

      Well, what about capital punishment?

      I think the death penalty helps.

      That’s right.

      Up to our ass in niggers

      on Death Row.

      Oh, Susanna,

      don’t you cry for me!

      2

      Well, I guess what the niggers

      is supposed to be doing

      is putting themselves in the path

      of that old sweet chariot

      and have it swing down and carry us home.

      That would help, as they say,

      and they got ways

      of sort of nudging the chariot.

      They still got influence

      with Wind and Water,

      though they in for some surprises

      with Cloud and Fire.

      My days are not their days.

      My ways are not their ways.

      I would not think of them,

      one way or the other,

      did not they so grotesquely

      block the view

      between me and my brother.

      And, so, I always wonder:

      can blindness be desired?

      Then, what must the blinded eyes have seen

      to wish to see no more!

      For, I have seen,

      in the eyes regarding me,

      or regarding my brother,

      have seen, deep in the farthest valley

      of the eye, have seen

      a flame leap up, then flicker and go out,

      have seen a veil come down,

      leaving myself, and the other,

      alone in that cave

      which every soul remembers, and

      out of which, desperately afraid,

      I turn, turn, stagger, stumble out,

      into the healing air,

      fall flat on the healing ground,

      singing praises, counselling

      my heart, my soul, to praise.

      What is it that this people

      cannot forget?

      Surely, they cannot be so deluded

      as to imagine that their crimes

      are original?

      There is nothing in the least original

      about the fiery tongs to the eyeballs,

      the sex tom from the socket,

      the infant ripped from the womb,

      the brains dashed out against rock,

      nothing original about Judas,

      or Peter, or you or me: nothing:

      we are liars and cowards all,

      or nearly all, or nearly all the time:

      for we also ride the lightning,

      answer the thunder, penetrate whirlwinds,

      curl up on the floor of the sun,

      and pick our teeth with thunderbolts.

      Then, perhaps they imagine

      that their crimes are not crimes?


      Perhaps.

      Perhaps that is why they cannot repent,

      why there is no possibility of repentance.

      Manifest Destiny is a hymn to madness,

      feeding on itself, ending

      (when it ends) in madness:

      the action is blindness and pain,

      pain bringing a torpor so deep

      that every act is willed,

      is desperately forced,

      is willed to be a blow:

      the hand becomes a fist,

      the prick becomes a club,

      the womb a dangerous swamp,

      the hope, and fear, of love

      is acid in the marrow of the bone.

      No, their fire is not quenched,

      nor can be: the oil feeding the flames

      being the unadmitted terror of the wrath of God.

      Yes. But let us put it in another,

      less theological way:

      though theology has absolutely nothing to do

      with what I am trying to say.

      But the moment God is mentioned

      theology is summoned

      to buttress or demolish belief:

      an exercise which renders belief irrelevant

      and adds to the despair of Fifth Avenue

      on any afternoon,

      the people moving, homeless, through the city,

      praying to find sanctuary before the sky

      and the towers come tumbling down,

      before the earth opens, as it does in Superman.

      They know that no one will appear

      to turn back time,

      they know it, just as they know

      that the earth has opened before

      and will open again, just as they know

      that their empire is falling, is doomed,

      nothing can hold it up, nothing.

      We are not talking about belief.

      3

      I wonder how they think

      the niggers made, make it,

      how come the niggers are still here.

      But, then, again, I don’t think they dare

      to think of that: no:

      I’m fairly certain they don’t think of that at all.

      Lord,

      I watch the alabaster lady of the house,

      with Beulah.

      Beulah about sixty, built four-square,

      biceps like Mohammed Ali,

      she at the stove, fixing biscuits,

      scrambling eggs and bacon, fixing coffee,

      pouring juice, and the lady of the house,

      she say, she don’t know how

      she’d get along without Beulah

      and Beulah just silently grunts,

      I reckon you don’t,

      and keeps on keeping on

      and the lady of the house say,

      She’s just like one of the family,

      and Beulah turns, gives me a look,

      sucks her teeth and rolls her eyes

      in the direction of the lady’s back, and

      keeps on keeping on.

      While they are containing

      Russia

      and entering onto the quicksand of

      China

      and patronizing

      Africa,

      and calculating

      the Caribbean plunder, and

      the South China Sea booty,

      the niggers are aware that no one has discussed

      anything at all with the niggers.

      Well. Niggers don’t own nothing,

      got no flag, even our names

      are hand-me-downs

      and you don’t change that

      by calling yourself X:

      sometimes that just makes it worse,

      like obliterating the path that leads back

      to whence you came, and

      to where you can begin.

      And, anyway, none of this changes the reality,

      which is, for example, that I do not want my son

      to die in Guantanamo,

      or anywhere else, for that matter,

      serving the Stars and Stripes.

      (I’ve seen some stars.

      I got some stripes.)

      Neither (incidentally)

      has anyone discussed the Bomb with the niggers:

      the incoherent feeling is, the less

      the nigger knows about the Bomb, the better:

      the lady of the house

      smiles nervously in your direction

      as though she had just been overheard

      discussing family, or sexual secrets,

      and changes the subject to Education,

      or Full Employment, or the Welfare rolls,

      the smile saying, Don’t be dismayed.

      We know how you feel. You can trust us.

      Yeah. I would like to believe you.

      But we are not talking about belief.

      4

      The sons of greed, the heirs of plunder,

      are approaching the end of their journey:

      it is amazing that they approach without wonder,

      as though they have, themselves, become

      that scorched and blasphemed earth,

      the stricken buffalo, the slaughtered tribes,

      the endless, virgin, bloodsoaked plain,

      the famine, the silence, the children’s eyes,

      murder masquerading as salvation,

      seducing every democratic eye,

      the mouths of truth and anguish choked with cotton,

      rape delirious with the fragrance of magnolia,

      the hacking of the fruit of their loins to pieces,

      hey! the tar-baby sons and nephews, the high-yaller nieces,

      and Tom’s black prick hacked off

      to rustle in the crinoline,

      to hang, heaviest of heirlooms,

      between the pink and alabaster breasts

      of the Great Man’s Lady,

      or worked into the sash at the waist

      of the high-yaller Creole bitch, or niece,

      a chunk of shining brown-black satin,

      staring, staring, like the single eye of God:

      creation yearns to re-create a time

      when we were able to recognize a crime.

      Alas,

      my stricken kinsmen,

      the party is over:

      there have never been any white people,

      anywhere: the trick was accomplished with mirrors –

      look: where is your image now?

      where your inheritance,

      on what rock stands this pride?

      Oh,

      I counsel you,

      leave History alone.

      She is exhausted,

      sitting, staring into her dressing-room mirror,

      and wondering what rabbit, now,

      to pull out of what hat,

      and seriously considering retirement,

      even though she knows her public

      dare not let her go.

      She must change.

      Yes. History must change.

      A slow, syncopated

      relentless music begins

      suggesting her re-entry,

      transformed, virginal as she was,

      in the Beginning, untouched,

      as the Word was spoken,

      before the rape which debased her

      to be the whore of multitudes, or,

      as one might say, before she became the Star,

      whose name, above our title,

      carries the Show, making History the patsy,

      responsible for every flubbed line,

      every missed cue, responsible for the life

      and death, of all bright illusions

      and dark delusions,

      Lord, History is weary

      of her unspeakable liaison with Time,

      for Time and History

      have never seen eye to eye:

      Time laughs at History

      and time and time and time again

      Time traps History in a lie.

      But we always, somehow, managed


      to roar History back onstage

      to take another bow,

      to justify, to sanctify

      the journey until now.

      Time warned us to ask for our money back,

      and disagreed with History

      as concerns colours white and black.

      Not only do we come from further back,

      but the light of the Sun

      marries all colours as one.

      Kinsmen,

      I have seen you betray your Saviour

      (it is you who call Him Saviour)

      so many times, and

      I have spoken to Him about you,

      behind your back.

      Quite a lot has been going on

      behind your back, and,

      if your phone has not yet been disconnected,

      it will soon begin to ring:

      informing you, for example, that a whole generation,

      in Africa, is about to die,

      and a new generation is about to rise,

      and will not need your bribes,

      or your persuasions, any more:

      nor your morality. Nor the plundered gold –

      Ah! Kinsmen, if I could make you see

      the crime is not what you have done to me!

      It is you who are blind,

      you, bowed down with chains,

      you, whose children mock you, and seek another

      master,

      you, who cannot look man or woman or child in the

      eye,

      whose sleep is blank with terror,

      for whom love died long ago,

      somewhere between the airport and the safe-deposit

      box,

      the buying and selling of rising or falling stocks,

      you, who miss Zanzibar and Madagascar and Kilimanjaro

      and lions and tigers and elephants and zebras

      and flying fish and crocodiles and alligators and

      leopards

      and crashing waterfalls and endless rivers,

      flowers fresher than Eden, silence sweeter than the

      grace of God,

      passion at every turning, throbbing in the bush,

      thicker, oh, than honey in the hive,

      dripping

      dripping

      opening, welcoming, aching from toe to bottom

      to spine,

      sweet heaven on the line

      to last forever, yes,

      but, now,

      rejoicing ends, man, a price remains to pay,

      your innocence costs too much

      and we can’t carry you on our books

      or our backs, any longer: baby,

     


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