“We tried everything we could but there was too much damage,” the nurse explained. I wiped my eyes nodding my head in understanding.
“I’ll let you have a moment alone,” Mom said from the doorway.
The nurse tried to object.
Mom stepped forward, her finger shooting out in front of her. “You listen here, this is my daughter and she needs to say goodbye. I don’t care what you or anyone thinks. Mason deserves a goodbye! He was a great kid. And Kendall will get her goodbye so help me!” Mom’s voice broke. She pushed her hair from her eyes, wiping her own tears with the back of her hand. The nurse quickly left.
“Take all the time you need, Kendall.” Mom shut the door leaving me alone with Mason.
I ran a hand through my hair. The tears flowed quicker now. I lifted Mason’s hand. He was cold, not the warm touch I remembered anymore.
“I don’t even know what I’m going to do without you.” I sobbed, squeezing his hand. I stared at him. “And it scares me to my core to even think about a life without you.” I ran a hand through his hair. I just wanted him back. I tried to smooth his hair, make him look like the Mason I remembered. Not the lifeless body that he had become.
“I wish you could tell me what to do, Mason. I never saw this coming. I wish you would have told me. I wish you weren’t so stubborn and always thinking about saving me. We could have saved each other.” I dropped my head sobbing. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t move. I couldn’t leave him all alone. He was going to be alone.
It was the most horrifying thing that ever happened to me. Nothing compared to losing Mason. I would have lived the rest of my life with Aunt Wanda if that meant I still had Mason. But now, because of him I didn’t have to. I lifted my head, and stood up.
“You saved me. When I couldn’t save myself, my whole life, and I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you,” I leaned down kissing his forehead. I touched his cheek, lingering for a couple seconds, taking him in for the very last time.
“I love you, Mason.” I blew him a kiss my hands trembling as I grabbed the door knob. “Goodbye.” I bolted from the room and into my mom’s waiting arms. She held me tight, but it would it would never compare to a hug from Mason.
“Kendall, I am so very sorry,” she said, smoothing my hair. She let me cry.
I wasn’t able to speak I was all out of words. Full of pain, of absolute misery as I walked away from the one person that ever made me feel normal. The one person who made me whole.
Mason and I saw so much together. He taught me how to love when I fell in love with him.
Sometimes, the only choice you had in life was to move on. And I knew that was the only choice I had.
We weren’t good people, we never wanted to be. And after everything that I had been through I was lucky to have survived it. I was lucky to have made it out alive. Yeah, I was bruised and a bit broken. I was screwed up and I probably was never going to be okay again, but I was still Kendall. And I was sure I could make it through anything now. And no matter if I liked it or not I would keep making it because I knew that was what Mason wanted.
And there was one thing that would always be more important: Not letting Mason down.
The end
Table of Contents
Anonymous
Acknowledgements
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Books also by Holly Hood
Perfectly Hopeless
The brown eyed boy
What ails you?
Sparks
Anything is better
Art
Mysterious
Isn’t it obvious?
Time
Feelings
Horrible Gossip
Uninvited
Useless issues
Gift
Sunbeams
Unsure
What ifs
Tactics
Escape
Is this the way?
Take it
Who said?
Fall
About the author
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