Poetic Embrace
Fiordaliza Charles
copyright 2012 Fiordaliza Charles
Smashbook Edition
DEDICATION
To my creator and savior GOD. To the people that worked so hard at published America to
make sure that I get my book published again, to my readers whom I appreciate so much. To
my mother who always encourages me to do my best. My daughter who always brings out the
best in me. My husband who always been a supporter of everything that I do and to my family
and friends that have supported me in the making of this book and in life. Thank you all for
everything you do for me. I am forever thankful.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
First and foremost, I will like to thank God for giving me the ability to read and write poetry
and to you all of the staff members of Publish America for giving me yet another opportunity to
be heard and for taking a chance with me again.
Very special thanks to my family and friends that asked me to keep writing because, they feel I
need to be heard, your support means so much to me. Much love to Father and Mother who
love me unconditionally and really helped me to embrace who I've become. Special thanks to
all my readers who continue to support me and give me wonderful feedback on my writings
each day. I will never forget your words of encouragement.
I am specially grateful to my daughter Kadiya whom believes in me and looks up to me and she
says I make her want to be a better person because of what I have accomplished here and last
but, not least my biggest thank you goes out to my husband who encourages me to do better
everyday and assures me that he loves me. I am so blessed to have found you and I love you
with all my heart.
Fiordaliza Charles
ALONE
As I lay here thinking
Last night
Pondering on how to find my soul a home
Where the water's are not for the thirsty
and bread is not made of a stone
I came up with one thing
and I don't believe that I'm wrong
That nobody
but, nobody
can make it out here alone
Alone, all alone
nobody but, nobody
can make it out here alone
Give me a reason to live
I don’t want to be around anymore
I lost everything that I adored
Alone, all alone
nobody but, nobody
can make it out here alone
TIRED OF WAITING
I'm tired of waiting, patiently for love
To get hurt, once again
tired of the bull-crap I get from these lames
I need a true friend till the very end
Life is so unpredictable
When you find yourself in love
everything just seems so real
but, that is never the deal
Now that is over, I have to forget the fun
everything that you promised, is now done
after all the I love you's
all the love we shared is gone
I'm tired of wishing, things get better
Today, I promise myself
I break free
and start thinking of me
DON'T UNDERSTAND
Why can't you feel my fears
why do we grow apart and not near
I waste time and all my tears
for true love, all of these years
Can't you tell, I have a broken heart
that my soul has been torn apart
why, can't I just forget you
Now, that I am feeling blue
I feel this pain, like a burning flame
I'm going to be alone once again
not letting anyone else in my lane
I need time to recuperate
You don't understand
love is not a game
I am hurting and you just walk away
My life will never be the same
I SEE THE TRUTH
I knew it was coming
The day I feel my heart was ran over
Never through that after all these years
you would give me your cold shoulder
The ocean is no longer full
The sun is no longer shinning
The air suddenly became cold
I feel the pain through my soul
I see the truth
A day I wished never came true
My best friend turn out to be
The one that was untrue
I feel so empty and doomed
My heart you truly misused
For some reason I still love you
but, I'm glad that we are through
I'M BACK...
I'm back city of sorrow
thought I never say that again
land of broken promises and no friends
greater places I've embraced
Giving all nothing in return
but, now I am truly happy
though everyone else is not
to NYC I can always come back
Feeling the thrill of the day
Hanging out in a familiar place
and seeing my New York
I will never feel alone again
Leaving here was no surprise
but, coming back felt so good
I left many good things behind
now, I'm just glad to be back
SURVIVOR...
Having shelter, is not enough to survive
but, I bet I can make it work
suffering deep inside of my soul
can't help it that my stomach groans
I put my negative thoughts away
in a jar of memory jelly
hoping that it dissolves
and one day my time will come
Striving to do better
but, things are getting worst
putting my heart away in silent fear
trying to hold back these tears
I am a survivor, I know
I said these words to myself everyday
I can't give up on life now
I have to do this for my child
NEW YORK CITY
What it is to me, simply this
A city of hope and dreams
ditches, garbage, hearts that are broken within
hard workers, who can't afford anything
People living mostly in fear
In an apartments that are staked out
Scared to get wet in this rain
Praying the lord takes your soul, if you pass away
Mixture of people from different races
NYC you can take it a leave it
but, you will return for more
is just like an addition, that just can't ignore
New York City, is for survivors
I've been here, fought the war
Same old city, just a different day
Rain or sunshine, I'm here to stay
MY HEART
I wondered where you've gone
they told me you went away
I wondered, why you left so sudden
all my sunny skies turned to gray
Thought I would never love this way
never thought we've be apart like this
But, what did you have to lose?
You left me, feeling confused
I've told you that I needed you
and you made it to a test
I just wanted us to be together
and build us a happy nest
I knew my heart was ready for you
that's the reason why I stayed
but, I knew that the moment you saw her
You would of broken away
I MISS YOU...
Reality never set in
You were more than a friend to me
To you I told all my dark secrets
Things I always kept within
Now that you no longer here
Who do I run to with my fears
You the one who understood me
When I was draining in tears
How am I going to get passed
Now we can't just sit and talk about it
Life was taken from you and we parted
Knowing that you in a better place
keeps me from going insane
I wish that you was here
so we can become one again
CRUSHED
Shattered in pieces, where is my heart
I want to love you but, how
all you do is run away
and leave when I want you to stay
The days we spent together
you always on your phone
I get a little moment of your time
and you never drop me a line
I think you find excuses
not to be with me through the day
but, if you want for it to be over
that is all you have to say
I do not want to lose you
I really love you so much
It may not mean anything to you
but, I don't want to be crushed
QUESTIONS
Are you still here ?
Waiting for what ?
Why don't you leave me ?
What are your thoughts
Why must I repeat myself?
How many times, do I have to tell you?
Do you think this is a game?
Here, you can no longer stay
Why don't you get out of my face?
Do you think you can't be replaced?
How can you love anyone?
After you hurt them this way
Do you think I'm yours?
Was you to my heart untrue?
Can you find someone like me?
I'm not coming back to you
NEVER AGAIN
The smell of your cologne
the hugs that I once owned
the way you made love to me
now I will never know
You used to tell me you adore me
now I'm feeling all used
you leave me behind like a piece a crap
how come treat me like that
I waited for you each day
with the smell of you still around
but, you never came back home
where did all the love go
The love we shared can not be found
It will never be replaced
can't you see that I'm the one
why do I love so hard
TEARS OF A CLOWN
Don't ever think that I'm not hurt
every time you leave I want to die
but, I will never show it
I rather you think I'm alright
Don't ever think that I'm not in pain
every time we not together I feel I’m going insane
but, I will never show you that
I rather you think, I'm just drained
Don't ever think that I am not sad
every time you leave me, I want to cry
but, I will never let you see me like that
I rather you think, that with out you I will survive
Don't ever think that I don't be stress
every time you not around I'm a mess
but, I will never show that when I am near you
I rather you think, that I don't miss you
I AM SCARED TOO
I want to love you all over again
but, I don't think you want to be loved
every time I attempt to, I just get hurt
Like you was not sent from above
Can you show me the way
I want to make it through
with you by my side each day
despite of what you put me though
I know is hard to keep it together
my heart is always confused
I can't imagine my life with out you
but, I am also scared too
Let's fight for the right reason
Let's make a difference in our children life
Let's give the world a reason to celebrate
Let's take a chance and make things right
Let's get together brothers and sisters
Let's remember to celebrate life every day
Let's make our mothers and fathers proud
Let's take our children fears away
Let's give people something good to talk about
Let's grant our ancestor something to be proud about
Let's be grateful for what we have found
Let's say "Yes I Can" without a doubt
Let's be more specific of what we need
Let's show our generation ways to succeed
Let's give each other the love we deserve
and work on peace down here on earth
A PICTURE
It saw a picture, it made me look twice
I did not know him from a drop of a dime
but, I needed him to be a part of my life
can't believe that I met him online
He made me believe in every word he said
He knew of all the pain, I was trying to erase
He said he take care of it and take me afar
Away from all the things that have broken my heart
I trusted him with all that I know
my body could not wait till he came home
I felt so incomplete until we spoken last night
He was my savior and my only knight
He never made me feel insecure
He gave me his love and so much more
Then one day I realize that it was all a dream
and he was just a picture in my computer screen
COME WITH ME
I want to take you away
to a place where all your pain disappears
like a candle that brightens your life
I promise to never leave your side
I will give you all the things that you deserve
No, place that you'll find here on earth
let me love you down from here on
and completely take over your soul
Let me take over your mind
to a place where you feel at ease
where your body is set free
as you reach your final destiny
Come with me and be loved
to a place filled with many fantasies
where there are many pleasures
and I can be your hidden treasure
WHATEVER YOU WANT
I know that is so sudden
my heart for you felt so hard
I knew it from the start
you was my luck charm
I want to do it all over again and again
you made the pains go away
it hit me like a sunlight's ray
that you was here to stay
I never want you to leave
with you I rather be
you are the one sent from above
You can have whatever you want
HAPPY
Happier then I ever been
Joyful and more complete
No longer feeling scared
You
can keep me teddy bear
Filled with so much love
Memories of us make me smile
Feeling like a new born child
Knowing that you will be around
Thankful that you are here
Waited for your love for so many years
I am no longer living in fear
Pain no longer lives here
LIES
Said we be forever but, I know that is not the true
How can your love be for real, with all this pain I have consumed
You said you love me and you made it seemed like you cared
In my heart I took a chance because, I am always scared
How can I ever forgive and forget
Your love was all that I knew
Don't sit around an pretend you love me