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    A Little Larger Than the Entire Universe

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      And the women screamed,

      Two chess players kept on playing

      Their endless game.

      In the shade of a leafy tree they stared

      At the old chessboard,

      And next to each player was a mug of wine,

      Solemnly ready

      To quench his thirst in the moments when,

      Having made his move,

      He could sit back and relax, waiting

      On his opponent.

      Houses were burning, walls were torn down

      And coffers plundered;

      Women were raped and propped against

      The crumbling walls;

      Children, pierced by spears, were so much

      Blood in the streets . . .

      But the two chess players stayed where they were,

      Close to the city

      And far from its clamor, and kept on playing

      Their game of chess.

      Even if, in the bleak wind’s messages,

      They heard the screams

      And, upon reflection, knew in their hearts

      That surely their women

      And their tender daughters were being raped

      In the nearby distance,

      Even if, in the moment they thought this,

      A fleeting shadow

      Passed over their hazy, oblivious brows,

      Soon their calm eyes

      Returned with confident attention

      To the old chessboard.

      When the ivory king’s in danger, who cares

      About the flesh and blood

      Of sisters and mothers and little children?

      When the rook can’t cover

      The retreat of the white queen, what

      Does pillaging matter?

      And when with sure hand the opponent’s king

      Is placed in check,

      It hardly concerns one’s soul that children

      Are dying in the distance.

      Even if the infuriated face

      Of an invading warrior

      Should suddenly peer over the wall and cause

      The solemn chess player

      To fall right there in a bloody heap,

      The moment before that

      Was still devoted to the favorite game

      Of the supremely indifferent.

      Let cities fall and people suffer,

      Let life and freedom

      Perish, let secure, ancestral properties

      Be burned and uprooted,

      But when war interrupts the game, make sure

      The king’s not in check

      And the most advanced of the ivory pawns

      Is ready to redeem the rook.

      My brothers in loving Epicurus

      And in understanding him

      More in accord with our view than with his,

      Let’s learn from the story

      Of the impassive chess players how

      To spend our lives.

      Let serious things scarcely matter to us

      And grave things weigh little,

      And let the natural drive of instincts yield

      To the futile pleasure

      (In the peaceful shade of the trees)

      Of playing a good game.

      Whatever we take from this useless life,

      Be it glory or fame,

      Love, science, or life itself,

      It’s worth no more

      Than the memory of a well-played game

      And a match won

      Against a better player.

      Glory weighs like an overlarge burden

      And fame like a fever,

      Love wearies, for it ardently searches,

      Science never finds,

      And life grieves, for it knows it is passing . . .

      The game of chess

      Completely absorbs one’s heart but weighs little

      When lost, for it’s nothing.

      Ah, in the shade that unconsciously loves us

      And with a mug of wine

      At our side, intent only on the useless

      Effort of the chess game,

      Even if the game is only a dream

      And we have no partner,

      Let’s do as the Persians of this story:

      Wherever out there,

      Near or faraway, war and our country

      And life are calling us,

      Let them call in vain, while we dream

      In the friendly shade

      Of our partners, and the chess game dreams

      Of its indifference.

      1 JUNE 1916

      Not you, Christ, do I hate or reject.

      In you as in the other, older gods I believe.

      But for me you are not more

      Or less than they, just younger.

      I do hate and calmly abhor those who want

      To place you above the other gods, your equals.

      I want you where you are, not higher

      Nor lower than they—just yourself.

      A sad god, perhaps necessary since there was none

      Like you, now yet another in the Pantheon

      And our faith, no higher or purer,

      Since for all things there were gods, except you.

      Take care, exclusive idolater of Christ, for life

      Is multiple, all days differ from all others,

      And only if we’re multiple like them

      Will we be with the truth, and alone.

      9 OCTOBER 1916

      I suffer, Lydia, from the fear of destiny.

      Any tiny thing that might

      Give rise to a new order in my life

      Frightens me, Lydia.

      Anything whatsoever that changes

      The smooth course of my existence,

      Though it change it for something better,

      Because it means change,

      I hate and don’t want. May the gods

      Allow my life to be a continuous,

      Perfectly flat plain, running

      To where it ends.

      Though I never taste glory and never

      Receive love or due respect from others,

      It will suffice that life be only life

      And that I live it.

      26 MAY 1917

      A verse repeating

      A cool breeze,

      Summer in the fields,

      And the soul’s courtyard

      Vacant and sunlit . . .

      Or, in winter, the snowy

      Summits in the distance,

      The fireside where we sit

      Singing tales handed down,

      And a poem to tell all this . . .

      The gods grant

      Few pleasures beyond

      These, which are nothing.

      But they also grant

      That we want no others.

      21 JANUARY 1921

      Securely I sit on the steadfast column

      Of the verses in which I’ll remain,

      Not fearing the endless future influx

      Of times and of oblivion,

      For when the mind intently studies

      In itself the world’s reflections,

      It becomes their plasma, and the world is what

      Creates art, not the mind. Thus

      On the plaque the outer moment engraves

      Its being, and there endures.

      [JANUARY 1921]

      You’ll become only who you always were.

      What the gods give they give at the start.

      Only once does Fate give you

      Your fate, for you’re but one.

      Little is attained by the effort you exert

      In accord with your native ability.

      Little, if you were not

      Conceived for more.

      Be glad to be who you cannot resist

      Being. You will still have the vast

      Sky to cover you, and the earth,

      Green or dry, given the season.

      12 MAY 1921

      Each man fulfills the destiny he must fulfill

      And desires the destiny he desires;


      He neither fulfills what he desires

      Nor desires what he fulfills.

      Like stones that border flower beds

      We are arranged by Fate, and there remain,

      Our lot having placed us

      Where we had to be placed.

      Let’s have no better knowledge of what

      Was our due than that it was our due.

      Let’s fulfill what we are.

      Nothing more are we given.

      29 JULY 1923

      I don’t sing of night, since in my song

      The sun I sing of will end in night.

      I’m aware of all I forget.

      I sing to forget it.

      Could I only stop, even if in a dream,

      The course of Apollo and know myself,

      Even if mad, as the twin

      Of an imperishable hour!

      2 SEPTEMBER 1923

      I don’t want the presents which,

      Contrary to your intention, are

      The very denial of what you give.

      You give me what I’ll lose,

      Weeping its loss twice over,

      As something of you and of me.

      Promise it instead, without giving

      Me anything, since then the loss

      Will occur in my hopes

      More than in my memory.

      My only displeasure will be

      The continual one of living,

      Since the days pass and what’s hoped for

      Still doesn’t come, and it’s nothing.

      2 SEPTEMBER 1923

      I want the flower you are, not the one you give.

      Why refuse me what I don’t ask of you?

      You’ll have time to refuse

      After you’ve given.

      Flower, be a flower to me! If, ungenerous, you’re plucked

      By the hand of the ill-omened sphinx, you’ll wander forever

      As an absurd shadow,

      Seeking what you never gave.

      21 OCTOBER 1923

      Ad Caeiri manes magistri1

      The new summer that newly brings

      Apparently new flowers renews

      The ancient green

      Of the revived leaves.

      No more will the barren abyss, which silently

      Swallows what we hardly are, give back

      To the clear light of day

      His living presence.

      No more; and the progeny to whom his thought

      Gave the life of reason, pleads for him in vain,

      For the Styx’s nine keys

      Lock but do not open.

      He who was like a god among singers,

      Who heard the voices that called from Olympus

      And, hearing, listened

      And understood, is now nothing.

      But weave for him still the garlands you weave.

      Whom will you crown if you don’t crown him?

      Present them as funerary

      Offerings with no cult.

      But let not the loam or Hades touch

      His fame; and you, whom Ulysses founded,

      You, with your seven hills,

      Take maternal pride,

      Equal, since him, to the seven cities

      Claiming Homer, to alcaic Lesbos,

      Seven-gated Thebes,

      And Ogygia, mother of Pindar.

      22 OCTOBER 1923

      How short a time is the longest life

      And our youth in it! Ah Chloe, Chloe,

      If I don’t love, don’t drink

      And don’t instinctively not think,

      The unmovable law weighs on me,

      Time’s endless, imposed hours afflict me,

      And to my ears comes

      The sound of the rushes

      On the hidden shore where the cold lilies

      Of the nether fields grow and the current

      Knows not where the day is,

      A groaning murmur.

      24 OCTOBER 1923

      Now plowing his scant field, now solemnly

      Beholding it as if he were beholding

      A son, this man enjoys, uncertainly,

      The unreflected life.

      Changes occurring in the false borders

      Do not thwart his plow, nor is he

      Troubled by whatever councils govern

      The fate of patient peoples.

      Little more in the present of the future

      Than the grass he pulled up, he lives securely

      His old life that won’t return but endures,

      Sons, different and his own.

      16 NOVEMBER 1923

      Don’t try to build in the space you suppose

      Is future, Lydia, and don’t promise yourself

      Tomorrow. Quit hoping and be who you are

      Today. You alone are your life.

      Don’t plot your destiny, for you are not future.

      Between the cup you empty and the same cup

      Refilled, who knows whether your fortune

      Won’t interpose the abyss?

      [1923?]

      Hour by hour the ancient face of repeated

      Beings changes, and hour by hour,

      Thinking, we get older.

      Everything passes, unknown, and the knower

      Who remains knows he knows not. But nothing,

      Aware or unaware, returns.

      Equals, therefore, of what isn’t our equal,

      Let us preserve, in the heat we remember,

      The flame of the spent hour.

      16 NOVEMBER 1923

      Already over my vain brow

      The hair of that youth who died is graying.

      My eyes shine less today.

      My lips have lost their right to kisses.

      If you still love me, for love’s sake stop loving:

      Don’t cheat on me with me.

      13 JUNE 1926

      The leaf won’t return to the branch it left

      Nor form a new leaf with the same stem.

      The moment, which ends as this one begins,

      Has died forever.

      The vain and uncertain future promises

      No more than this repeated experience

      Of the mortal lot and the lost condition

      Of things and of myself.

      And so, in this universal river

      Where I’m not a wave, but waves,

      I languidly flow, with no requests

      And no gods to hear them.

      28 SEPTEMBER 1926

      Fruits are given by trees that live,

      Not by the wishful mind, which adorns

      Itself with ashen flowers

      From the abyss within.

      How many kingdoms in minds and in things

      Your imagination has carved! That many

      You’ve lost, pre-dethroned,

      Without ever having them.

      Against great opposition you cannot

      Create more than doomed intentions!

      Abdicate and be

      King of yourself.

      6 JUNE 1926

      Dreamed pleasure is pleasure, albeit in a dream.

      What we suppose of ourselves we become,

      If with a focused mind

      We persist in believing it.

      So do not censure my way of thinking

      About things, beings, and fate.

      For myself I create as much

      As I create for myself.

      Outside me, indifferent to what I think,

      Fate is fulfilled. But I fulfill myself

      Within the small ambit

      Of what is given to me as mine.

      30 JANUARY 1927

      To nothing can your hands, now things, appeal,

      Nor can your now stiff lips persuade,

      In the oppressive depths

      Of damp, inflicted earth.

      Perhaps just the smile from when you loved

      Embalms you, far away, and in our memories

      Lifts you to what you were,

      Today a rotten hive.

      And the useless name that your dead body

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    p; Used, like a soul, when alive on earth

      Is forgotten. This ode engraves

      An anonymous smile.

      MAY 1927

      How many enjoy the enjoyment of enjoying

      Without enjoying their enjoyment, and divide it

      Between themselves and others

      Taking note of their enjoyment.

      Ah, Lydia, forego the trappings of enjoyment,

      For we have but one enjoyment; we cannot

      Give it to others as a prize

      For noticing that we enjoy.

      Each of us is only our self, and to enjoy

      With others is to enjoy them, not enjoy for them.

      Learn what your body,

      Your boundary, teaches you.

      9 OCTOBER 1927

      Sleep is good because we wake up from it

      And know that it’s good. If death is sleep,

      We’ll wake up from it;

      If it isn’t, and we won’t,

      Then let’s reject it with all that we are

      For as long as the jailer’s indefinite

      Respite allows

      Our condemned bodies.

      Lydia, I prefer the vilest life

      To death, which I don’t know, and for you

      I pick flowers, votive

      Offerings of a small destiny.

      19 NOVEMBER 1927

      The fleeting track made by the vanished foot

      In the soft grass, the echo that hollowly rolls,

      The shadow that grows blacker,

      The whiteness a ship leaves in its wake—

      So too the soul, no greater or better, quits souls;

      What’s passed leaves what’s passing. Memory forgets.

      Once dead, we keep dying.

      Lydia, we exist for ourselves.

      25 JANUARY 1928

      Whatever ceases is death, and the death

      Is ours if it ceases for us. A bush

      Withers, and with it

      Goes part of my life.

      In all I’ve observed, part of me remained.

      Whatever I’ve seen, when it passed I passed,

     


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