Cleared up Desperation
One's thoughts – actions - goals
nothingness filled with sense
constructed standpoints.
Clever words - wisdom of self
static dissolving in space.
Habits - hopes - beliefs
relating to emptiness
views trapped in vain.
Observer lost in darkness
no stepping-stone left ahead.
Relationships end
reflected feelings faded
longings all cut down.
Body's appearance shrinking
properties give no support.
What was driving me
direction giving ideas
with selfless motives
reality took over
illusions dried out in time.
Left alone - ignored
without sharing of my pain
thrown back to oneself.
Outside distraction calms down
distorted view turns inward.
What keeps me alive?
Memory of existence?
Experience patterns?
Why do I still ask myself?
Tired of endless answers.
Looking at the moon
stars blinking straight down to me
message without words.
There is nothing left to say:
BEING fills the space - - and me.
Questioned existence
falling leaves - words disappearing
subtle light within
Tortured images
eaten up my last desire
candle light flickers
Existence questioned desperate
frog is croaking
jumps in - splash - no loss
Longing for the One -
lucid star in distant space
far limb of nearness
Painful existence
Painful existence
bound to body sensations
heart enclosed by head.
Frogs are jumping pretty high
do they believe soon to fly?
Enclosed in one's skin
reaching out to other worlds
cocoon stays tied up.
Letting go might help to grow
blooming oneself to blossom.
"No answer given!" -
Can one force a bird to sing
clouds to move faster?
Walking with cautious steps
bright sunshine awaits ahead.
"Nobody sees me!"
Confirmation demanding
childish game blinds you.
Sheep's fear caused by hungry wolves
doesn't vanish being in secure space.
"Nobody loves me!"
Dreams of love and harmony
wake up, look around!
All waiting for exchanges
depending on busyness.
"I feel so much lost!"
The best start to find yourself!
Without fixed pictures.
Now you freely walk the talk
being aware what's all around.
"Frightening all around!"
Start awareness from inside
rest in calm center.
Finding hurricane's quiet eye
casting anchor within source.
Sight becomes brighter
received reflected light beam
unites head with heart.
Questions answered instantly
lightning doesn't wait for thunder.
Wind caused by sunshine?
Movement results from response
Reactions - no blame
Empty words get lost
need directed heart power
sound sent into space
Work needs concepts
response to life - no plans at all
most flexible being
Coconut falls down
noise of cracking empty shell
trace in sand doesn't last
Life - to be lived
Life is what we are
life is what we do
what we feel - what we think.
Life is what makes us cry
what makes us laugh.
Life is our mistakes
and the finding of truth.
Striving for a goal
might motivate us
life is the path
wherever it goes
Life is the stones
hurting my feet
Life is my suffering
What else can I do
than keep going
to wherever the way guides me
can I do more
than responding to what shows up?
Goals might be just wishful fantasies
losing their importance while walking
The hurting stones remind me
to pay attention to each step I take
opening myself to details beside the road
enjoying the shade under a tree
and the beauty of a greeting flower
I am becoming addicted to life.
Sensations confirm
one's experience of being
repeating itself.
Growth beyond - opens new fields
explored - exceeding limits.
Forgiven Pain of Distance
Words full of meaning
even full of love
can't substitute
for a blink of friendly eyes
or a touch of your hand
Words giving nearness of thoughts -
even transmitting warm feelings
worthily symbols of fullness
present satisfaction and comfort
but never can gain completion
With words we are seeking
to grasp sense of nearness
to embrace one's wholeness
arms reaching into empty space
but my heart turns back to itself
Can I find the magic word
which ends all desperate longing
giving peace to my mind
and smoothens my feelings?
It seems so near and might be far
By expressing myself -
empty spaces are filled
glimpses of joy and nearness
magic colored encounter
with my muse and my self
Observing myself
Straightjacket of existence
dog hunting one's tail.
Who is hunting, who observes?
Dreamer lost in lucid dreams.
Let´s Wake up to Reality!
Awake-asleep we have dreamed all life long
absorbed with our self-created precious images.
Isn't now the time to wake up into reality? - Beyond.
Better now before the card house of wishful
thinking will let collapse our hopes in despair and misery.
Leaving us dismantled, falling into void of lost
with nothing left except pain and suffering.
Longing, urged for never experienced wholeness
used by tricksters for clever manipulations
keeping us busy to strive for promising toys.
Being puppets in a monstrous world wide game
Let's step out of endless unaware dependencies
bound to pictures of lack from our lost childhood.
Let's become aware that each of us is capable
to make decisions, out of being aware of ego games:
; eating, doing, buying, thinking - what others sell.
Feeding a monster which will never have enough
Let's not waste our energy in trying to fight it
see the root inside ourselves - that's all to be done
become aware how we are trapped in substitutes.
Desperation - the sensation of impotence appears
since long suppressed and swept under the rug
by self-protecting ignorance and survival techniques.
Let's Wake up to Reality! (cont.)
Giving space to look closely at what is in front of us
withdrawing ourselves from all blinding distraction
a quiet observer appears - centered in one's heart
we might discover an unknown 'free sense of Being'.
When realizing that today might be our last day
then clinging on worn out securities loosens up
future vanishes - what remains is here right now.
Fearless strength to look through arises from within
giving clearness to respond to what shows up
related in bright light to an unveiled new reality
nothing more left to lose - we might as well go on
It turns out that we are existing in a second hand life
trying to live concepts by adding color to drawings.
Reality is colored by itself - although uncontrolled chaotic.
We wanted to change ourselves - it never happened
now as established values are crashing and collapsing
we can't conserve our image of a happy lifestyle:
'respecting and being respected' in precious self-pictures.
Let's take over at the wheel of self-responsibility
now having gained the power to change things around us
because we have finally changed ourselves at core.
Let us be surprised from an unveiled light of reality
showing a new born world - we may learn to deal with
without being told what to do, without thinking tracks
- arising from old ashes before we get burned...
Rainy day's sadness
caused by dark clouds - hiding sun
chain of reactions.
Watching circle's sequences
finding one's quiet center.
Spring - awakening
cloudy dream worlds left - bright light
hearts been touched to grow.
Almond trees blossoms calling:
Free honey for all bee-ings!
One's Final Position?
Daily confronting
human's cruel reactions
ignorance to life.
Self-defending systems
not connected to one's source.
What can be done more
than living - realizing
one's vivid vision?
Walking one's own pathless path
responding to what shows up.
Although feeling lost
in colorful strange dream worlds
sensing more behind.
Relating from one's inside
to whatever is observed.
Point of reference:
Transcending light shining through
beyond appearance.
Guided through present calmness
not needing directed sense.
Chaos can't disturb
ignorance not causing hurt
walk through foggy mist.
Light's presence doesn't depend
on appearance or sight.
One's feelings and thoughts
expressing mirrored being
shown one's form in light.
Presenting joyful presence
building bridges to freedom...
Moved by far out goals
walking completes sense of now
taking conscious steps.
Dog's joy catching his own tail
better than nothing at all?
Sunlight shows it clear
even makes specks of dust bright -
Underneath rainbow's beauty
cool rain touches my surprised face.
Distance merged beyond all Spaces
It lifts me up to know that there are people
human beings, who want togetherness
to receive expressions from someone else
yet distant - reaching out to communicate
Distance has lost its limiting boundaries
separation is melting, ready to be dropped
we are coming nearer to each other
or is it the image of a yearning dream?
What is still keeping us in separation?
Despite all our search, reaching out that far
we are lonely among the multitude of men
finding out that everyone is longing for the same
May we step beside to jump over one's shadow
leaving all trouble and suffering behind
going beyond turning around oneself
to find the quiet center space within?
Wisdom pouring out for all from nearness
to ponder loosening knots of long hidden tensions
giving a broader perspective on our life
allowing receiving messages from within and out
Nearness is growing, friendships developing
surprising togetherness to be enjoyed
opening up to an amplified exchange
we find ourselves connected to the whole
Finally daring freely to express ourselves
realizing new levels of understanding
giving and receiving as ways to communicate
enjoying ourselves and others within daily life
Staying on earthen ground, achieving wideness
we have gained to amplify the horizons of all
breaking the boundaries of old rigid limitations
connecting hands and hearts around the planet
Gathered strength from few
moves stuck carriage out of mud
bright smiling faces!
Happiness held in one's hands
spreading it will make it grow!
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Word vehicles' secret
dissolved in energy
transmitting ourselves.
Responding echoes connect
heads and hearts beyond oneself.
All under One Sun
All under One Sun
frenetic demand for more -
endless extension.
Individuals blown up
needing outside mirrors.
Scapegoats and black sheep
can't escape from desperate wolves
hunting their own tail.
Turning around claiming selves
feeling great embracing all.
Wolf in shepherd's coat
unites all black and white sheep
herd's proud followers.
Frightening outside danger
justifies all violent fights.
Human nature rules
beautiful - chaotic Earth
striving towards light.
Vain intent to create peace
avoiding questing oneself.
Stubborn striving high
ignoring one's base nature
results falling back.
Until clueless suffering
turns sight inward to oneself.
Lonely seeking truth
revelers might find themselves
deep water's dark mystery
hidden call from far
beyond.
All under One Sun.
God - what can I do?
"Make yourself a cup of tea!"
- Surprising sound of silence!
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If I could bundle
all my words just into one
what an expression!
Watching nightly firmament
calling into space: Ahhhhoohhhmmm . . . . !