Before you can resist it, you mention your thought
Now look what your actions has brought
A never ending fight will be caused now that it is known
You do not know the truth but wrong accusations are thrown
The little green monster as it is known sits right on your shoulder
Brings tears and sorrow into your home and makes it feel colder
What was once a heart filled with love is now empty
You have now started a war and it is deadly
Every move is counted and every step is watched
If only the words you have said could be squashed
The little green monster as it is known sits right on your shoulder
Satisfied with you as you have done exactly what he has just said with smoulder
With a job well done and another heart broken in pieces
He gets up and dusts of his clothes, getting rid of the creases
With another soul destroyed and will stay fearsome
Jealousy walks out the door to find his next victim
Life in the house
In the house with the rafters hanging on mercy
Lives a man, lonely and ready to give up on the world
Every day is a battle to breathe, to live and to thrive
In the house with the rafters hanging on mercy.
In the house with the perfectly kept front lawn
Lives a woman, gardening while her husband works
Every day is a joy filled with flowers and sweet kisses
In the house with the perfectly kept lawn.
In the house with two toddlers running free
Lives a married couple, wishing for sleep and loving their saplings
Every day is a rush and full of “leave that” and “stop running!”
In the house with two toddlers running free.
In the house with the alcoholic father
Lives a scared mother and child
Every day is filled with shouting and slamming of doors
In the house with the alcoholic father.
In the house with a single parent trying to feed her children
Lives a child unaware of how difficult life can get
Every day is filled with carefree play and bread for dinner
In the house with a single parent trying to feed her children.
In the house with a man caring for his dying wife
Lives a husband and wife, trying to make the best of their last days together
Every day is filled with silent tears and prayers for another day
In the house with a man caring for his dying wife.
In the house with no soul to keep it warm and live between its walls
Lives a spirit, left seeking the love lost in time
Every day is filled with wandering the corridors of the empty hall
In the house with no soul to keep it warm and live between its walls.
Love child
I have carried you for nine months
Sang to you and tickled your feet when you kicked
I have endured sickness and funny smells
To see your face I dreamt of each night
My back has ached and sleep deprived me
My clothes clung to my growing belly
Where you lay, I tried to make it comfortable
The foods I loved, I set aside for you I did it all
Because you were made from love and love you are.
I endured tired days and tearful nights
All of this I did with the notion that I will meet you shortly
I calmed your nerves when hiccups took your small body
Massaged you turning around in your cocoon
Made sure you were as healthy as can be
We made a room for you and painted it blue
Toys lined the walls and clothes of every kind
Because you were made from love and love you are.
When it was time to meet you, silently I felt the pain of your life
With each breath I knew I was going to meet you
On the bed I lay, waiting for you to make your presence known
And there you were, finally I will meet
But you did not utter one sound
Your body lay still as you were put into my arms
Your eyes did not greet me and your heart did not beat
I have met you now my sweet child
Because you were made from love and love you always will be.
Marry me
“Marry me,” he said, and sparks flew like doves being freed from a cage
Be mine forever, I promise to take care of you every day
Protect you and love you until the last breath escapes my lips
Wear the ring I give you and promise me your heart
“Marry me,” he said, and tears of joy appeared on her cheeks
Build a home with me to make our very own
Fall in love with me every morning that you open your eyes
“Marry me,” he said, and make me the happiest man in the universe
Keep your arms around my soul and carry me through the dark times
Help me to understand you better and make it work
Let our relationship thrive and learn others to love
“Marry me,” he said, and let us grow old together
Bring me to my knees with the love you so much want to give
Let the gifts I have to give you rain on you in a thousand petals
Never let my hand go, always stay right by my side.
“Marry me,” he said, and let’s make the best of the life we are given to live
Fill each and every day with your smile, like the sun’s rays on my skin
Help me teach our children the lessons, that life teaches those who are willing
Say yes and I will carry you forever like the angel that you are.
Money
In your pocket I ching ching ka-ching
Your hand feels over me and I am picked to close the deal
In return for changing hands with the shopkeeper
You are now the proud owner of a new life
If I could buy you a brand new life, I will do it in a heartbeat
You have worked long hours at end to earn me
You feel my texture as we are counted off and placed in your palm
If only I could purchase you a brand new life
I may be filthy and crumpled from years of extensive use
But if I have the right number upon my face, I am your best friend
You choose to keep me safe, tucked deep in your jacket pocket
If only I could purchase you a brand new life
You walk past the shop with the dress you so much want
I burn a hole in your pocket but you hold on
You have learnt the art of saving me for a rainy day
If only I could purchase you a brand new life
In your pocket I ching ching ka-ching
Your hand feels over me and I am picked to close the deal
In return for changing hands with the shopkeeper
You are the proud owner of a brand new life
My father’s career
To his work he devotes his time and all the energy he has
His father left him a mighty career to uphold and to run
In an office he spends his time and never gets out into the sun
A career he has chosen and ignores the call of love and family
To himself and all the others he must prove that he is worthy
To stand in these big shoes he needs to be the best
There is no time for fun, games and fest
Work consumes him and becomes his only drug
To far places he travels to make his name and his career known
In hotels he stays and lonely it may seem
But it is not of a home, a wife and children of which he will dream
His career is what he has chosen and happy he is
Every night he takes his work to his small home where he continues
To make his job better for him and for the others
For a young lad, the older ladies seem like mothers
Making sure he eats and keeps himself well
A career - they say, is something you can use to care for the ones you love
Try to find a wife and make a family of your very own
But a career is all that mattered to him
Not a wife or a child could fill the gap of keeping his father’s career
Needing and wanting
Needing food on the table to stay afloat
Fishing for that morsel in a small, rugged boat
Cleaning the small feed for the ones waiting at the table
Struggling to make this vicious world look like a fable
Wanting the brand new car you saw driving by
Lying, cheating and stealing to make the money for it, try
Desire clouds the mind and in its place a deep longing
To have what someone else has worked hard to make his belonging
Needing clothes to keep loved ones warm
Covering them and protecting them like a bee’s swarm
A piece of cloth here, needle and thread there
Leaving your own body cold and bare
Wanting a piece of jewellery to show the higher class
Flashing it to anyone who might pass
It does not mean that you made the money to buy it
You just use it how you see fit
Needing a penny or two to reach the next town by the bus
To care for a sick relative without a fuss
Selling bread and singing songs
To make money from the songs that might belong
Wanting a new life and tired of the old
Not wanting to stay at one place and mould
Travelling all over the world to see
Never realizing that your own home is the key
Needing life to give you a sure sign
That one day everything will be fine
Someday the hard work will be worth it
Like watching a dying flower in a faucet.
Patience (Ndidi)
Patience is not something to learn overnight, it is learnt in a lifetime
It cannot be felt but without it there will be not a dime
Patience is what any person needs to control the world around them
Nothing can be done without it but condemn
Patience is an ability to wait for the good to come or the bad to pass
If you have it you fall under the infinite class
Patience comes with not putting yourself first but another
Like your mother, your sister or your brother
Patience is the growth of a seed into a flower
It may be small now but soon it will have endless power
Patience is being able to tolerate the bad that may come your way
To not lash out at all the things there is to say
Patience is problem solving with more than just a word
Without breaking down what is heard
Patience is the endurance of pain, physical or mental
Rather receive it and persist to be gentle
Patience is waiting for love to find your heart
Without any hasty decisions on your part
Patience is the fulfillment of the great art of life
Something you will for the rest of your life strife
Patience is waiting for time to stand still
Which you now know never will
Patience is longing for someone you will never meet
Waiting for the day they come around to greet
Patience is willing yourself to keep the words you wish to scream within
Touching the patience string, so fragile and thin
Sias’s wife
Sias found her next to the lake, reading a book
It was love at first sight or she was a great cook
Many kisses later the wedding bells rang
Everyone cheered and Sias was happy, together they sang
He carried his love through the door of their brand new home
They worked together to clean it with water and foam
Sias was a teacher and at home his wife stayed
Washed the dishes and wonderful food she made
At night Sias sat down to enjoy his new wife
They were just beginning together their life
A baby was on the way soon after
They were so blessed and celebrated with laughter
Their brand new home was filled with who they were
Kids on the street would stop by and say “Hello Sir!”
Sias’s wife made cookies and tea for them
They all thought her a real gem
Sias one day came home from his class
He walked into the house and saw a glass
There his wife lay with blood, the reddest red
Never leave your wife alone at home, they had said
A frail soul she was, but he loved her so dear
Never did he think, but now the fear
Sias’s wife took her heart right out of her chest
And laid it out for the first guest
Now stands the house that they made together
Lost in sorrow and pain forever
Spilled love
I spill my heart right out in front of you on the floor
Waiting for you to turn and walk out the door
I once thought I would be with you until the end
Yet I never saw the undeniable bend
The love we had will never die
The love we had, so strong it made me cry
We tried to look past our differences
And look rather at the preferences
That fairytale feeling quickly subsided
More that I could ever describe
You said you loved me but you lied
The love we had, had long died
Now I stand here in front of you
Asking you why we have wasted all these years
Planning a family and watched how they grew
Lay late at night telling you of my fears
Spent every waking moment loving you with everything I got
Making your favorite food, pot after pot
Believing in you when no one else would
I would do it all over again if I could
You told me there are no second chances
To hold each other and dance life’s dances
Now I watch you walk out on all we had
No more feelings left except the mad
Upon the closed door I now look
Waiting for you to open it again like a book
I need you to hold me tight and tell me it is okay
Smile at me and bring me a bouquet
Once again in each other’s arms
Protecting each other from all harms
But all I see now in my heart spilled out on the floor
Looking at a closed door
The fight for love
One simple word can create havoc in a home
It can cause tears of sorrow never to be forgotten
The more words that flow from our angered mouths makes me groan
My tears make the dry summer dirt sodden
You say things to me that my heart will never bear
You push me to the floor in one huge thrust
Our relationship has another huge tear
The look in my eyes for you - total disgust
As I try to get up from the wooden floor
A flash of remorse glides across your face
Instantly you turn around and head to the door
With one “so this is how it is” in your voice I hear disgrace
You are gone again, leaving me with another wound
I get up
and wash the tears from my heart
Head outside to plant seeds in the ground
It is all that makes me forget the invisible dart
Even though I know you deceive me and hurt me
I still love you with my every being
The love I have for you made me blind to see
In front of others I pretend to be cleaning
I wait until you come home again and beg you to love
Leave the violence aside and make amends with your wife
Make me once again as it was before, your dove
Let us continue this violent love life
The song called laughter
Laughter begins as a tingle in your stomach
Seeing the reason for this tingle makes you wriggle
It feels like the waves of an ocean on a stormy day
Rolling and weaving its way into your mind
Laughter moves through your veins and spreads like a virus
Covering the inside of your heart and captivating your soul
As it reaches your eyes, you feel the sound confirming the action
Your lips part and a short intake of breath before…
It sounds like harps being played by angel fingers
The light tingle of the laughter escaping from deep inside you
It makes me wonder what else you are hiding within your mind
Do you silently laugh at me behind my back?
Your mouth closes and the angel song ends in a wisp taken away by the wind
The reason for the laughter is standing in front of you
And you patiently wait for another wave of it to spread through you
I stand before you and wish the sound back
To hear you make your happiness known is what I want
I want you to give the angels reason to sing
Sing the song of laughter I wish to hear
Instead of spreading your wings and embracing me as I had hoped
You walk tight past me to another reason for your laughter
Behind me was the reason for your song
And here I stand and wonder
Do you silently laugh at me behind my back?
To be a woman
A woman is the pillar on which life stands
She holds her family right in her hands
A woman is the softness of the clouds above the earth
While at the same time being as hard as bricks shoved into a hearth
A woman is the sun peering through the bleak sky
While suppressing tears she holds her head high
A woman is the bearer of children into the world
She will give her last blanket and stay cold
A woman is the strength of a thousand men
Even if she cannot pick up her heart from the floor
A woman is the hope of tomorrow
She will never stop believing that her loved ones can do it
A woman is a fine china doll crashing to the floor
Lays down for a while but gets back up to show the world
A woman is the first laughter coming from a baby’s lips