Everything Bad
By Jason Wallace Poetry
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Everything Bad
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace Poetry
When did it all go wrong
I can barely even breathe
Even after all this time
I can sometimes clearly see
That we were never meant to be
All along
Not that it was something I ever believed
How can one person
Be someone else's destiny
How can someone leave
And leave you so weak
When you used to be so strong
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
You never seemed to care
Just who you hurt
I thought I was first
The one you needed in your life
The one to make you smile
Everything you promised yourself
Because you couldn't have someone else
You ran from him to me
Because he told you
I was all you would need
He urged me to take you
And make a life with you
And years down the road
Watching rivers of tears
As they flowed
So much I went blind
And completely lost my mind
You ran away from here
Because you were living in fear
Of never realizing the feelings
You thought you'd given up
And he stirred back up
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
He must have lied to you
Like you lied to me
Because he still stole you
As you pretended
That you tried to be
Working on us
I was stupid to trust
And now I know
Everything was a show
And everything was done
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
And everything and everyone
I thought I could trust
Though you both hurt me for years
And lied so many times
That I never felt I knew
Either one of you
I want to move on
But the law doesn't allow
Moving on for so long
If we never said I do
I might be over you
I might be stronger now
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
Evermore
I couldn't make you
Love me
Your love had to fade
I told you
We could make it all work
But you just wouldn't wait
I still...
Wanted you to stay
But I guess
What you felt
Turned into hate
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I wouldn't force you
To do what
You don't wanna do
But you convinced me
So many times
To give
More chances to you
Then when I asked you
To give me the same
You said you couldn't
And had to go away
I can't help it
If I scream your name
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I couldn't make you
Love me
If it's not in the cards
What I had in mind...
It's too hard
You turned back
When we'd made it so far
So good
Would it ever do
Did you believe
That I loved you
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I can't make you
Adore me
Like you once did
Despite all you did for me
You must admit
You knew it would end
The wounds couldn't mend
And you'd find your way out
I can't say I'll see your face
All of time could never replace
The feelings I have
The love that I know
We
both have had our doubts
I guess they showed
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
We may be together
Never again
But I will love you
Evermore
Could I Have Back What You Stole from Me
How can you
Call yourself innocent
Do you know
What you've done
You started out life
And never finished it
You've left me wishin
That I had a gun
You've given me hope
And taken it away
All I really wanted
Doesn't want to stay
Could I have back
What you stole from me,
Most of my heart
And good memories
You replaced them
With pain
And a lot of agony
If I'm not yet insane
I soon will be
You've been with me
And you've caused me
Most of the bad
At least you're leavin
With a lot of years
Left in me
And maybe I'll forget
One day
About so many
Of the feelings I've had
I want to stop needing you
I don't want to stay mad
Could I have back
What you stole from me,
Most of my heart
And good memories
You replaced them
With pain
And a lot of agony
If I'm not yet insane
I soon will be
I thought you'd carry me
In hard times
And thank me for good
How am I to imagine
A life without you
I don't know if I could
Could I have back
What you stole from me,
Most of my heart
And good memories
You replaced them
With pain
And a lot of agony
If I'm not yet insane
I soon will be
Can you give me
Anything back
I’m Not Alright, but I’m Okay
I’m not alright,
But I’m okay.
You’re gonna leave me alone,
Anyway.
I don’t know what might have been,
But I don’t wanna fight,
So I let you win.
I don’t have the heart
To ask you to stay.
If you’re even half as miserable as me,
I’ll let you go.
You’re gonna miss me a lot
When you see
That nothing should have gone this way,
And I want you to know
I’m not alright,
But I’m okay.
You’re gonna leave me alone,
Anyway.
There’s nothing more that I can say
To convince you this is wrong,
And all along, you’ve been the one
To lead me astray
From all I ever knew
Because everything I wanted was all in you.
I’m nothing more than a man dying inside
For all he’s already lost that’s gone.
I’m not alright,
But I’m okay.
You’re gonna leave me alone,
Anyway.
I’m losing my mind.
No. Wait. It’s lost, and it can’t stay,
So we split.
I go the other way,
Though I’ve tried to bring it back with all my might.
I’m not ok, and I’m not alright.
I’m anything but anything, at all, tonight.
I’m a mess with all the best gone out of sight.
You left me here to figure out this pain,
Reliving, re-envisioning, all the blame, all the same,
Memorizing misery and shame,
Regretting anything and everything and
Wanting not even my own name.
I’m apart, heartless, stripped so far,
In a